I have not benefited from the IOP, and its just more exhausting and not worth it. The head of the program wanted to help me find a therapist before I stop the program and did give me some people to reach out to. Shes left the door open for me to come back if I want to or I can be done. Which I appreciate, but I also don't think I'm gonna go back.
Looking for a new therapist has been an absolutely exhausting process. Almost no one is taking new patients, have my availability..not to mention that now 2 therapists have said given my symptoms they don't believe it would be safe or ethical to see me outpatient. Which is so defeating. All of it.
I ended up making am intake with a therapist through something called Thriveworks. The only way I can describe it is a "therapy chain". It seems sketchy to me. You have to pay a monthly fee for all these "perks", in addition to co-pays. Im gonna give it a try, because it offers more support (or so they say) and the therapist I set up an appt with looks good and like we could be a good match. My psychiatrist said she has a former coworker that works for a thriveworks office and has positive things to say, and that she thinks this will be the future of mental health care, and that it will offer me a higher level of care without having to go to the hospital. The IOP also referred me to them. Has anyone here has any experiences with it (they are nationwide)? That appt isn't for a few weeks.
I'm seeing my (possibly soon to be former?) Therapist tomorrow for the first time in about a month and she has no idea any of what's been going on. I'm not sure how I feel about seeing her (virtually) again tomorrow. Scared, anxious, excited...all of it. I just hope it goes OK and we can properly terminate.
Speaking of termination, it's been 2 years now since K and the pain still cuts just as deep, and is all triggered right now. I feel so alone with it all which just hurts worse.
My psychiatrist has been a godsend. She does so much for me and has been there through every difficult week/day. I appreciate her so much.
I'll do a pt 2 about none therapy updates since this is long
