#thriving multiplicity

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

Finding the right language saved me. When labeled sick, I was told I could manage and maintain, but that my suffering would be forever. Framing DID as a healthy response to an unhealthy environment gave me the permission to heal.

DID is one of the most natural things a brain can to do survive adversity. The resulting structure is not defective, it’s adaptive. DID is not disease or illness or sickness — it’s a response. It doesn’t make us ill, crazy, or broken; we’ve just come through the unimaginable.

I am not mentally ill. Dissociative Identity Disorder is not controversial or rare, and not a disorder. We're not recovering from DID, we're recovering with it.

[system-of-a-feather]

Functional Multiplicity is anti-climatic and overrated. I want Thriving Multiplicity.

[xxcopymoonjoyxx]

I run to escape. I run to fight. I run to survive. But I don't have the endurance to keep going.

So i sit. I wait. I watch.

Sometimes, I'm so aware of every sensation that I freeze like a kitten backed into a corner, watching for danger that isn't even there.

Ready to snarl and growl at a moments notice. I'm ready to run again if I need to.

Every now and then, I need a reminder to truly rest. Recover. Heal. Healing isn't weakness. It's a choice. It is one of the hardest choices you can make.

Remember to rest. You can't reach your destination if you overheat every 20 seconds.

It's not do or die. It's heal and thrive

-Onyx

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

Polyfragmentation isn’t an official diagnostic term. It’s not separate from DID, nor does it need to be; it’s merely a specified presentation of it, and treatment is the same. I’d suggest too, based on personal experience, that this degree of initial splintering has made re-integration and fusion easier.

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

"Why did you get off the bus?" "I don't know. I knew it wasn't my stop."

Life isn't about control. We can't control what it throws at us; we can't control emotions or outcomes; we can't control our recovery timeline. I can't control other Motley members any more than we can just "get over" decades of trauma.

We don't control, we communicate. Cooperate. Become curious and compassionate. We observe, ask questions, listen to understand; we call out for what we need and offer what we can give; we reflect upon past behaviors to unlock the mystery of why.

Why did I say that? Why did I react that way? Why did I avoid that for so long? Why can't I focus? Why do I keep forgetting?

...Why did I get off the bus?

"Why did you get off the bus?"

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

Life was too dark for too long; we are allowed to live in the light. We've most certainly earned it.

Inside Jokes

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

Nobody’s reading my mind, nobody can hear my thoughts, and the only one able to exist within my mind is Me.

Keep your Thoughts To Yourself

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

Happy is not the goblet in my grasp, it’s the bubbles in my drink.

Happy