#complex dissociation

[unrealward]

zine i made to help introduce (important parts of) myself. check it out on itch.io

[anti-endo-yixi]

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"I think im endo because i dont remember my trauma" ok... but by saying that you're implying you know its still there.. plus thats literally what a system is meant to do, they are meant to make you not remember your trauma... thats the whole reason the brain splits in the first place... so whats your point here.

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[bones-and-lichen]

trauma responses youre not a dick for and a 100% have a right to:

emotionally shutting down

avoiding physical touch

not replying when youre overwhelmed

putting your own needs first

needing control over your life

having strict boundaries

being hypervigilant and canceling with friends more frequently cuz of it

[maemaybe]

You know those daycare welcome songs they sing with toddlers to introduce everyone?

One of those is trending on tiktok right now and not only has it become an earworm that is constantly bouncing around in my head, it's also become an unexpected tool in my complex dissociation toolbox.

Whenever I notice a part of my system is hitting me with some spicy thoughts, I welcome them with "Who came to school today?"

🎵🎶👏Who came to school today? 👏🎶🎵 Did Mila come to school today? I got a friend name Mila Mila is my friend Get up and dance Mila Get up and dance Mila Mila can sit down

The vibe I'm communicating is, I see you, I hear you, you can have your moment, you don't need to keep doing that to get my attention.

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

Not long ago, Lighthouse asked if we knew why we became so fragmented. Sometimes it was because “I can’t do this, I can’t be here,” and sometimes it was “I need to be someone who can,” but most often, our answer is, “Because we weren’t meant to be alone.”

[twilight2277]

I never expected the label I coined from my therapy notes to be so popular on the web. I keep looking up the HCDID hashtag and being like holy shit? 😭 I don’t know what I’ll use this account for but like I’ll come up with an idea

[thrivingwhilemultiple]

"Why did you get off the bus?" "I don't know. I knew it wasn't my stop."

Life isn't about control. We can't control what it throws at us; we can't control emotions or outcomes; we can't control our recovery timeline. I can't control other Motley members any more than we can just "get over" decades of trauma.

We don't control, we communicate. Cooperate. Become curious and compassionate. We observe, ask questions, listen to understand; we call out for what we need and offer what we can give; we reflect upon past behaviors to unlock the mystery of why.

Why did I say that? Why did I react that way? Why did I avoid that for so long? Why can't I focus? Why do I keep forgetting?

...Why did I get off the bus?

"Why did you get off the bus?"