I want to come out, properly.
So i just saw Love, Simon. And i want to come out fully, and properly. I want to be honest with myself and the world. Because it’s hard.
I’m queer in every way. But it’s much more specific than that. I am coming out like this- for real.
I AM GAY. You could technically say Pansexual but that’s not quite right.
I AM GENDERQUEER. Yeah, i know a lot of people don’t fully “get it” or think it’s complicated or whatever, but the fact of the matter is that I identify as different genders at different times.
Sometimes i idenitfy as male.
Sometimes I identify as neutral.
Sometimes I identify as neutral- but feminine.
And heres the thing about coming out. I want everyone to know 100% who I am.
I am gay. When I identify as male, my attraction is to guys. Boys. Other male idenified people.
So when i’m male, i’m attracted to males. I am gay.
I am gay. When i identify as neutral, i am attracted to i guess you could say anyone, regardless of gender, but sometimes i’m not sure if i’m attracted to anyone at all.
I am gay. When i feel more feminine, i’m attracted to girls. Women. Female-identified people. Sometimes i call myself a lesbian then. But that’s only half of it.
I am gay. No matter my gender. I am queer, and i am proud. And i am braver now than i have ever been. And god, am i fucking happy about it.
And goddamit i hope i find love who understands me, and loves me, and is gay and proud right along with me.
And i hope you all find your love too, whether it’s a person, or books, or a song, whatever you’re looking for, i hope it comes to you.