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[ask-aurouradragonia]

Thoughts on school

I did go to elementary school for a short time. It wasn't easy for me though. The other kids and some of the teachers thought of me as a monster due to my ears and eyes being so different. I was often called 'donkey ears.' Most of the time, I didn't mind. Mama told me if they picked on me they were just jealous, while Pop told me if someone was picking on me to show them that you're stronger than them by showing them that they can't get to me. However, after a couple of years, it gets tiring. I told my teachers and Pop even went to the principal about the bullying, but nothing ever changed.

Until the day something happened. I don't remember it all that well to be honest...but I know that after that day, kids never picked on me again. I believe I was in 3rd grade (?), when it happened.

It was gym class and we were outside about to run laps. It was a nice spring day and some of the flowers were starting to bloom. As normal a group of boys were picking on me and calling me names. I simply turned my back to them as I waited for the teacher to tell us to get on the track. Then I remember one of the kids shouting at me. "Hey, we ain't done with you, Donkey Ears!" I heard something cutting through the air. They apparently had thrown a rock at my head because I remember my head throbbing and warm blood seeping through my hair. Then I remember being surrounded by the group of three boys, and they began to beat me and kick me down to the ground.

Then I don't remember anything after that. It became really dark and it didn't feel any pain. I don't really know if I had passed out or if I simply went numb, but..the scene once I woke up, it still brings me nightmares. I remember the iron smell, the red ground and all three of the boys were unconscious and had scratches and gashes on the ground. Of course I gasp and ask if they were ok, but the teacher yelled at me before I could get near them.

"You really are a monster! Get away from them!"

I was very confused, then I looked at my hands and then I realized that I had blood all over me. I looked at everyone, hoping they would give me some kind of answer. Was it my blood? Was it their blood? What happened? But all I got was gasps and them backing away from me in fear.

Shortly after, the police and ambulances showed up at the school along with everyone's parents, including my own. Of course they were horrified by the sight of me covered in blood and three bloodied boys being loaded into the ambulances.

"Sweetie! What happened?! Are you ok?" Mama asked frantically looking me over.

I didn't know. And I was scared to tell her that, because..I was afraid she wouldn't believe me. I didn't want my own parents to push me away. Before I muster anything to say anything, the police came up to my parents and began to ask questions about me.

After that long day, the police took my DNA and I was expelled from school due to 'acting in extreme violence' even though later in the month I was proven innocent due to the DNA results not matching my own.

Mama and Pop sat down with me and asked me what had happened, but I couldn't tell them because I didn't remember anything. I wanted to say I didn't hurt them. I wanted to say it was in self defense. But..I couldn't because it wouldn't have been true. After that, Mama decided to home school me and Pop was teaching me to control my emotions, hoping that would help. But after that day, I knew something had changed within me. And I didn't know what.

[lanternskyy]

We have first aide training for work next week and I’m genuinely terrified of how triggering it could be. 

[tearsdryonmyown]

My parents are so fucking triggering sometimes 

[alien--nation]

I took more pills than I should have last night

[valyrianrosevance]

A while back, someone I was in a mutual follow with asked me to tag my nsfw cuz it triggered them. No problem, started tagging it immediately. Now they post almost exclusively NSFW stuff and Im like ???????????

[memphismay-fuckme]

I do love you!

Can I request one where y/n us Austin Carlile’s best friend and she’s been in love with him since they were in highschool but he’s always had a girlfriend, and that kills her. When he starts dating another friend of hers she decides that she cant anymore and attempts suicide when he finds her and saves her with a fluffy ending please? A/N: This one describes me so much oh God! I hope you like it I'm sorry if you don't <3 Home alone, again, your best friend, Austin Carlile, is with his girlfriend at home, you were so lonely, you loved Austin since highschool but you never had the chance to tell him thanks to your trust issues, but who would love a girl like you? Fat, stupid, horrible, full of scars and a dark mind? No one, and Austin would be the last, he deserves better then you, he is perfect and you are not, you always thought like that to yourself and tonight was no exeption, you were in your bedroom looking at the window waiting to the sun to rise and save you from this darkness but nothing could save you from yourself right now, *What's the meaning of my life?* you couldn't find answears, you couldn't find yourself inside of this emptiness, you couldn't find anything, no friends, they were all to busy with their stuff and you didn't want to bother them with your shitty problems so you went in the bathroom, it was a dark place, you had to many memories inside of this little space, you looked at yourself in the mirror "They were right, you are horrible, ugly, ugh look at yourself" you took a look at this place and found what you really needed now, the pleasuring feeling of see a blade, you took it and looked at it, you could see your reflection on it, it discribed you right now, you opened a box of pills, turned the bathroom tub's water on and sollow a bunch of pills, you went to the tub and turned the water of, first you draged the blade across your legs the most deep possible feeling so many emotions mixed up, then you passed to your arms and finally your wrist, you cutted virticly, a perfect line that free blood all over the tub, the pills started to work, but you heard your front door opening "(Y/N)? Where are you? I need to talk to you" it was Austin, you couldn't believe it *What have I done?* you thought to yourself, Austin saw you and ran "(Y/N)? Stay with me, don't close your eyes, I'm here, look at me, don't you dare to close your beautiful eyes, c'mon, I'm here" the blood went down the tub and Austin was full of it, he called 911 "(Y/N), don't talk, you can't spend your energies, c'mon, just hear me and keep you eyes open, keep them in mines, I'm here for you" He grabbed your hand and kissed it, even with the blood all over you, even with the cuts", "(Y/N), I went here because I can't take this anymore, I need to tell you, I love you, I want you to be mine" You smiled, you couldn't believe this, he actually loved you. The fireman's arrived and you finally fainted. You didn't remember anything after that, you opened your eyes, you were in the hospital, you were with sour and lots of mechines around you, Austin was looking at you "Aust..." he kissed your lips, "I love you too" you said, his tears showed up and a doctor too, he wrote something in a paper and said "(Y/N)?", "Yes", "Alright, I want you to know that the hospital is already making a bed for you, you're going to sleep here and hospitalized here too, you'll have more people with the same problems, but don't worry, your boyfriend can visit you everyday, do you take any pills?", "Yes, anxiety and anti-depressive ones", Okay, we will give you them when you need, you have to tell us everytime you have any anxiety or panic attack, we need to know and help okay?", you nodded, the doctor went away and you stayed with Austin, "I'll visit you everyday, I'll be here for you, why did you did that?", "I thought I wouldn't be ever good enough for you, you would never love me", "Oh, (Y/N), I do love you so much", a nurse went in the room "(Y/N)?", "Yes?", "Your bed is ready, you're going to be hospitalized" Austin kissed you with tears, "Goodbye (Y/N), I love you so much"