#today was...not great

[gbirrd]

oughh.... Tim drake....

[gothshy]

;; So.

The lowdown is. I went to a hair salon to get a tricky knot out of my hair. My hair is fine and when it gets knotted it can be a hassle to untangle by myself sometimes so I often require some assistance. I’ve had this done before and it’s never gone like this before.

I went in and these people…well, they basically did everything wrong. I seemed to know more about hair than they did.

I don’t want to upset myself again thinking too much about it. but basically they just pulled my hair and yanked it and brushed it with the wrong kind of comb (a big-toothed comb) until they pulled the knots out. I was in tears by the time they were done it hurt so much. And they just laughed. Then they gave me a dry-roller treatment I didn’t ask for. I finally just asked them to take the rollers out and let me go. And that was difficult too.

I guess the worst part was that it reminded me of a babysitter I had when I was tiny who used to yank my hair when I wouldn’t sit still. And I know I’m not being an overly whiny about this. That same woman was caught for child abuse and put on probation. (My mom was the one who reported her.) It’s a memory so bad and so early that I actually see myself instead of remembering it first-person perspective. And it’s in black and white. My doctor said that’s a form of intense dissociation. I don’t remember much else.

I’ll delete this post later probably. It’s a bit too close to home to just leave sitting here. But I did want to vent.

[zomb1]

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