#trauma trigger

[nihillurker]

There are days that the past gets you in the worst timing.

Kawaii fox-kun and greasy evil spirit man belongs to @gatobob

[learntolive-again]

While it is an understandable mistake to make, Jesus' association with individuals did not necessarily convey an approval of their behavior. While there are some positive aspects to the lgbtq community and they have been rather mistreated in the past, I question prudence of associating with a group so focused on sexuality when the early church fathers debated whether any sexually was appropriate at all. I would also question whether witchcraft and polytheism would be appropriate in a monotheistic religions setting or whether devotion to pagan gods that regularly engaged in sexual violence is really compatible with being a follower of someone like Jesus. 

I would proposed that those who have less than accurate and less than charitable views of queer folks maybe not be lumped in with christofascism because that is more the domain of movements and groups like The Iron Guard in Romania, you know that insane death cult.  perhaps you've completed a negative attitude towards promiscuous sexual activity with that of you know murdering Jewish people for no reason. Which was of course what you know the Iron Guard did.

I am unfamiliar with Catholic theology being taught in the way that you describe, perhaps you may be mistaken as to the Catholic character of the theology education you received? Where did you receive this education from, if I may ask?

Hi! TW rape, abuse, and conversion therapy

So, pointing out that Jesus spent time with specific people isn't inherently a sign that he approved of them, but it IS a sign that he disapproved of the abuse and and mistreatment of those people. I don't know about you, but if I thought someone deserved to be tortured and mistreated for who they are I wouldn't spend time with them. My apologies if the point was unclear, but I assure you it wasn't born out of an misunderstanding.

My current beliefs and spiritual practices are born of a very, very long journey and most of it is born of my own religious trauma as a queer person, as well as someone who was physically and sexually abused under the excuse of Christianity. The full story is one that I would need much more then this response to answer, and tbh I've been incredibly sick all day and probably don't have the energy to go down that road (Lupus sucks, do not recommend). Suffice it to say I don't expect other people to understand or approve of how I express my beliefs and how I practice Catholicism, and that's ok. I understand where your questions and concerns come from, but I've found a practice that brings me peace and brings me closer to God without granting me permission to mistreat others. There are a lot of examples of how people and societies have blended Christianity with their native faiths, some examples being Hoodoo (which I won't go into further because it has a lot to do with generational trauma that I, as a white person, don't feel qualified to explain) and Appalachian Mountain Folk Magic. Also, just to be completely clear, I didn't learn how to blend those two paths at university, and I don't think I ever said I did.

I think that the example you gave of Christofascism (which isn't a point I brought up, just pointing that out. But since you brought it up Im going to address it) is a great one, but it doesn't negate how the Catholic church has gone out of its way to silence and condemn other practices and cultures. My friend @baelpenrose would be able to break that particular argument down for you further.

My biggest issue with the post that started this whole thing was that it made an unfounded correlation between being queer and abusing kids; the implications were that even exposing kids to or educating them about the LGBTQA+ community is inherently abusive and that's not true. We've suffered so much at the hands of the church and hearing someone claim that I'm a child molester for being around kids is crazy. To say that we've been "rather" mistreated in the past is a gross understatement; I'll remind you that up until terrifyingly recently we were hardly considered people. I think your statement about conflating "promiscuous sexual activity" with the murder of Jewish people is really misguided and gross, though I don't think it was intentional, and it exhibits a certain amount of ignorance about queer people in general. It seems to convey that being queer makes you a slut or whore by default, and if we take the context of the original post into play here it implies that makes those people inherently dangerous to children. I'd once again like to remind you I never made the correlation between that and Christofascism.

The Catholic church has caused more trauma and damage to children then queer people ever have, and when people deny or apologize for that it makes my blood boil.

Hope I managed to address most of what you brought up, like I said my body's fighting me a bit today. Thanks for bringing at least a somewhat civil and intelligent argument on board.

[eternalocean]

Trauma Triggered

So, the best graphic representation I can think of that gets at feeling trauma triggered for me, is what is shown below. If you find out where this image came from, I will surely give credit, but I just found it on a very old Tumblr post/reblog of mine. I may even use this in the trauma class I’m teaching this fall. Anyhow… it’s sort of impressive how badly I’ve felt, being trauma triggered the…

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[flow-it-show-it]

Whenever I crack open Tana French's In the Woods - which isn't often, for it shatters me - I can never help but envision him as the deeply troubled Detective Rob Ryan, as brittle and broken and beautiful a fuckup as ever occupied a page.

[cravny]

Okay today’s my birthday but the thing is when someone remember me about it, it triggers me a lot and i have no fucking clue why.

Like last year, my ex wish me happy birthday like normally and i start crying and age regress. Like i have a actual fear about it but i don’t know about what or why.

Moral of the story, It just really suck to be traumatized by a missing memory 👌

[alostlittleriverlotus]

Doing exercises to work thru stuff. Playing music. Tried to play poison. Got 25 seconds in and nearly threw up. So many memories. Emotions flooding. I cant. I don't want to remember. Song definitely trigger. I cannot risk hearing it. First line alone feels. Too much. Can't think.

[silksaltblood]

I'm haunted by your ghost

You little fucking prick

I'd do anything yo get away from you finally

Fucking cunt

Come near me again, no matter what why when or where, you're getting sorted

That's a promise, something you can NEVER keep or follow through on.