#turning 24

[shikariiin]

8th september in my timezone!!! Mi Birthday :D

[kpop-bbg]

[multifandom-dynasti]

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!

I am 24 years old now! 👑🌸🎀

[idontexistrightnow]

IM 24 OMG

I turned 24 on June 15th, I've been on vacation. Back to regular society now, I can't believe I'm 24 omg. I feel so weird that I just keep aging yknow.

LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

[aruhoon]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HEESUNG!! he's finally 24 and I hope he has a great birthday and have many more in the future 🩷🩷 I really want him to have fun today and always stay happy so again happy birthday to heesung.

HEE DAY LET'S GOOOOOO 🫡🫡🫡🥹

[escapadeist]

Elegy to a Birth

As I sit here about to be 24,

I reflect on each day of each year that has passed me by

and wonder if there'll ever be an actual birthday where I don't wallow in self-pity and insurmountable regret

So many goals left unachieved, places unseen, people unmet,

love unfelt, heartbreak unovercome.

And i wonder does it ever end?

This spiral of could have beens?

This waking nightmare of parallel lives you should have been living but can not for a plethora of reasons you can't begin to explain to a soul in the world.

Why?

For one, it's a lot to carry.

The shouldering of this Herculean weight

will make another bow down, misunderstand or even hate you,

Or two, they will trivialize it to the sufferings of the world,

Where you should be grateful to have what you do for many lack the same or even lesser

To the latter I say, maybe don't shove the idea of my pain away in light of the burden of each life on this planet

and let me think of myself as yet another spec in the dust that sits on the shelf of this grand old universe we call home

I have already compacted myself over and over and over again, into ever reducing containers to repackage my grief into palatable sizes

What if it leaves me with nothing and I feel more miniscule than that particle of dust swatted away by the ravages of passing time.

No life is a trend yet we commodify and revalue each to smithereens

Forgetting the very real person behind each face you see on the internet,

Each character you acquaint with on the screen or between the pages of a book.

I look to the stars in their infinitude and think of our tiny insignificance in the cosmos

But I'm here right now Mr Sagan, i yell internally, on the ground waiting to be under because i waded through water to find my breath as life thrashed me to the jagged rocks on the shore

And i know everyone feels like this at some point, but what if i say the point feels more and more like home,

What if I'm a girl stuck on a rollercoaster at an abandoned amusement park where my wheels rust from friction and rain

And all i have to show for is my feeble yet somehow erratic pulse and my dysfunctioning brain?

The comfort of fleeting company hasn't warmed the dampness of life's ebbs and flows

And surely can't know if what i have is to have and hold forever

Because those words ring like alarm bells in my chapel of solitude built with withering coal, fired by my inherited and situational rage.

Maybe I'm overthinking again, or maybe just maybe, I'm denying myself the acknowledgement of hurt

Faking it till i make it out of this shell and into another oyster this time,

slamming shut that inner voice screaming "I wish it weren't so"

Or maybe, just maybe, five feet above the ground will feel better this time than tasting the dirt from six feet under

each time a new wound is left unhealed.

- B

(written on 29/12/2024)

[hostess-of-horror]

Today, on December 19th, I turn 24 years old!

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[pufftheninja]

Me and the twin be turning 24 today. Wooo Happy Birthday!

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