#tw god

[sjonni33]

woman (id under the cut)

I ask 'does god still love me'

she nods

I ask, 'does god still love me even when I don't answer?'

she nods

I say, 'god is a woman,'

she doesn't respond,

I say 'god is a woman, because there's no greater hate than that for your mother,'

she doesn't respond

I say, 'god is a woman'

she doesn't answer

I say, 'god is a woman, because there is no greater hate than a mother's for her child,'

she doesn't look at me anymore

I say, 'god,'

she doesn't answer

I beg, 'god, please be my mother again,'

she never answers

[theflaggerrrr]

" Unrelordine "

A gender related to God or God-like entities outside of a religious context.

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[soupthewhimsical]

God cannot hate you cannot hate in the name of God you blasphemous piece of overcooked pancake

[lunathetunaaa]

Okay so the question was “when do you think Jesus realized that Judas was going to betray him?”

see cause when I first heard this I thought that it’s Jesus of course he knew the whole time, but when I started thinking about it Jesus is part of the Godhead but he isn’t God and he was human so would he had known?

it’s an interesting question once you start to think about it!

well me personally I would say that Jesus didnt know it the whole time

Because He Jesus was human like us. Even though He came from God, He is still technically God. Like the holy trinity.

He prayed in the garden to God to take His cup from him. Let your will be done, not mine. Praying to God that He would not have to take up the cross up the hill.

Speaking about the cross, dont ever say your too tired to talk to God. Because even though Jesus was tired too, he still carried up that cross for us.

Okay back to the question.

I dont think Jesus knew because Hes human, like if He really knew, im pretty sure things would have been different in the Bible. Like His birth, His disciples, His crucifixion and resurrection.

And if you think about it. Should we really be hating on Judas because of what he did? If Judas didn't betray Jesus, Jesus would not have died on the cross for our sins. And also the other disciples would not have the uh.... great im forgetting a word.... hhhhhhhhhh RAAAA (<-crash out)

Well- the other disciples would not be able to betray Jesus, so without Judas, there might not have been no crucifixion and resurrection.

[jaspidotsys]

As we slowly go through our music library trying to separate our main playlist into four playlists (one for each of us + our love song playlist), we're realizing how many songs we consider "our songs" sound more like someone finding god or religion than a normal romance song. Which is fine, we still love the songs but it's just...

we have HELLA religious trauma from basically growing up in a religion a lot of outsiders see as a cult (that we lowkey agree with that now that we've looked back on our childhood + learning things about the religion we never knew as a kid), so somehow... it feels like it makes sense that we see songs about god as more about our system and partners.

God never saved us. We don't even know if we believe he exists or not. We consider ourselves a spiritual agnostic. We obviously believe in souls, past lives, etc. but do not attend or subscribe to any organized religion. The version of god we were introduced to as children was a deeply sexist, problematic, and... frankly uncaring god. I don't think the religion intends him to appear that way, but looking back? Yeah that's how he's portrayed.

But our system kept us safe, alive, thriving. Our system allowed us to survive things I truly believe any single headmate would NOT of survived alone. And our system currently being the three of us + our soon to be syskid, it makes a lot of sense that songs meant to be about God, we see each other instead.

A lot of the songs I am talking about have wording about not wanting to be alone anymore, finding the one who completes you or makes life feel worth living, or someone saving you when you would die alone, and other types of things that just... We feel that way about each other, and our system as a whole. I fully believe we would've not made it to 18 without each other.

I don't know man- I don't talk about our history with religion often, and most of this realization was done by Peridot who doesn't want to type her own post so said I could make this one, but... damn. I love my wife, my boyfriend, our kids, and all our other headmates we've had over the years and I am so emotional about it right now AHHH-

[schizopositivity]

my childhood experiences with hallucinations, how i rationalized them, and why i didnt tell anyone:

•as early as i can remember i saw colored lights, shapes and zig-zags flash across my vision, i thought this happened to everyone

•when i was about 5 i saw a gray cat run across my kitchen, we didnt have any pets at the time, i asked my older brother about it and he said "that was probably a daydream" even though i didnt conciousley create it and it looked real, i believed him and wrote off other hallucinations as daydreams for years

•when i was about 10 i was looking into a mirror and saw my eyes looking to the side, for some reason i thought mirrors were like screens and figured it was just glitching

•i was raised christian and wrote off a lot of hallucinations as god communicating with me

•when i was about 12 i learned what ASMR was and figured thats what all my tactile hallucinations had been all these years

•at the same age i started using tumblr, and would see emo posts talking about "the voices" (when they were actually just talking about mean thoughts) so i thought things like auditory command hallucinations was just a normal thing every teen experienced

•as i was hallucinating more frequntly i came up with more excuses, maybe i hadnt eaten enough, maybe i hadnt slept enough, maybe my periods and hormones were causing this

•i watched a lot of scary content on youtube and genuinely believed i was haunted by or possesed by demons

•i saw the way people treated psychotics, the way i was told to be careful near the people on the street talking to themselves, the way horror movies portrayed psychotics as danergous, the way i was told that my schizophrenic grandpa was abusive because he was schizophrenic

• the more and more i hallucinated, the more i kept to myself, i didnt want to be treated like that, i feared what would happen to me if people found out, i knew something was wrong with me but i was terrified of letting people know that, i could talk about my anxiety or depression or sometimes cptsd symptoms, but i couldnt talk about my psychosis

i did eventually get a schizophrenia diagnosis at 18, got on antipsychotics that helped a lot, and my family and friends ended up being understanding for the most part, but i spent so much of my life being symptomatic and just excusing it any way i could, i didnt want to want to be psychotic because of the way were treated in the world, but i am, and ive learned to embrace that

[traumatizeddfox]

i was his baby why did he do this to me?

[girlboy-dyke]

If I’m God’s child then he is an absent father