#tw obsessions

[the-sappho-of-lesbos]

I still remember one time I was scrubbing my arms up to my elbow with dishwashing liquid and my girlfriend came upstairs and saw me and she was like “are you okay?” And I very neurotically looked at her said “this isn’t ocd”

Viewer, it was in fact ocd.

[diclofenacshawty]

does anyone else struggle with obsessive thoughts/obsessive fears of getting assaulted, hurt or killed? or just in general someone hurting you to the point you think you can count your days? because this specific pattern won’t go away for me and it kinda freaks me out

[ghostlyschizophrenic]

the thing about being diagnosed with OCD with a majorly moral theme at 21 without ever realizing that it might be something i even have is that i just thought everyone felt guilty about everything all the time. like here’s some examples:

i get very intensely distressed when a bug is in my car that i didn’t realize was in there for a long drive because my brain supplies me images of this bug being separated from its bug family and dying because it doesn’t know the area and doesn’t have a nest or whatever to return to so any time i drive i have to open and close all the doors in my car 4 times before i take off.

i threw away a plastic coffee cup at college without checking if it could be put into my at home recycling because it wouldn’t fit in my car cup holder like last week and i’ve been spiraling down the “you’re a bad person you’re going to kill the planet why don’t you care about the environment you have to make up for this by sorting every single piece of trash in the house every time you even THINK about throwing something away” thought process ever since

i have to read every single lyric of a song i like and then look up the artist and the rest of the album and all of their previous songs before i can even have any thoughts about saying i even kinda like it online because what if this song isn’t representative of them as a person and im supporting a horrible person and then i’m giving them money to do horrible things and that makes ME a bad person and you can see where this thought process just keeps going (also i can’t listen to the radio because i have a mild case of auditory processing disorder so i really struggle with understanding lyrics when i can’t also read them in time with the song and the radio might not even tell me the song title so that’s just a big no from me)

like i’m exhausted by my mind just all the time and i didn’t know that it’s not actually supposed to be like that. hell, even making this post is hard because i keep feeling like talking about this, even with trigger tags, is going to send someone else spiraling and… yeah. yeah.

[skautism]

covid made me forget that mild (not total. mild.) loss of smell is a thing that comes with allergies. and it is totally time for shit to be in bloom in fall in georgia. and my nose has been kinda stuffed. and its affecting my mom too. and weve all been distancing properly. and stuffed nose isnt a common covid thing at all.

[fckchandlerjohnson]

                                           DOLLHOUSE TASK SEVEN // PART 2

Me and Chandler both greatly respect Paige for her chaos control. I think that what inspired me most about Paige from the very first second was that for her entire existence she has been so stuck in this never ending cycle of fear. She has never been able to escape it because unlike the others, it’s not a physical thing, it’s trapped inside her brain. You can’t run from that. I think many people will understand and identify with not being able to escape yourself and the thoughts inside your head and how they can torment you when you don’t have the energy or the motivation to fight. I think her relationship with obsession and control is one that is seen so much in people around us. I think that what’s most important about Paige’s journey is that not only did she get help but she can now identify that same need in Horatio and the dangers of sliding back into old habits. To master not only your own problems in a sense but to also be able to push them aside despite the fear that you could have to fight them again at any moment for the sake of someone you care about is an amazing thing to do. Paige is trying her hardest to fight her demons and now she is trying her hardest to make sure that Horatio continues to do the same. I think everyone needs a friend like that when on a hard journey, who’s willing to sit in your sinking ship and try and plug the hole before it’s too late.  @paigeduvall

[edgyhomestuckkin-archive]

can I get positivity for a cal who has obsession issues,but can't really help them? if that makes sense?

Hey Cal,

As someone who suffers from OCD, I can understand your frustrations. Obsessive thoughts and behaviors can be Hell to live with. Maybe you can't change how you feel about things, but with time and effort, you can change how you react to them.

I know its hard to cope during an epidemic like this, but if you can, try to find an online support group. Once I joined an OCD support group, I personally found it a lot easier to cope. It helped teach me techniques to deal with my obsessions, and understand where they're coming from. It made me realize my worst thoughts fixated on what I cared about the most, and actually reflected my caring nature rather than a moral flaw.

You are worthy of recovery and support. Your obsessions don't define you; regardless of if it may feel that way sometimes. I know things can seem impossible right now, but the world is always changing and so too can you.

It does get better,

Mod Bro

[viscer-aa]

I know a lotta folks get thoughts like “what if the building I’m in suddenly catches fire” but does anyone else with ocd get Extremely Abstract obsessions? Like not just extremely improbable scenarios but straight up impossible threats that your brain conjures for no reason?

[skautism]

wait is being convinced that if I look at my face in dark windows that shadow people in the windows will take me a delusion not an obsession