#tw testing

[thedaygoesupinflames]

Injections

Two workers where at my sides, I was strapped to a table with leather, I wanted to struggled, but they had near complete control over my life and what happened.

On the other hand though, actually dying.

One worker held up a 'empty' syringe, but knowing these guys, the syringe was probably full of a colorless chemical fluid, man this facility was kind of fucked.

I felt the needle puncture my pale skin, nearly gliding past the vein, no, more like through the vein, the liquid they injected stung.

I wanted to scream.

I wanted to cry.

But I couldn't.

Why couldn't I cry?

Am, am I paralyzed?

No, that can't be right, I'm pretty sure you can cry when paralyzed, maybe, maybe not.

[chiefcowboydinosaur]

[anxiousboyo]

My stepdad, waking me up at five: “you’re only gonna be mad at yourself for not getting up.”

Me, tired, but still remembering AIR testing going on: “whuddu yu meeeen??? I don have school.”

My stepdad:

[em-proving]

i dreamed i had a fever and therefore didnt have to take this test and like dang if i dont wish i had a fever now

[gammapulse]

criefs replied to your post:

I hadn’t even seen it when I wrote that, and when I said “The NBC version is better” I meant Raul Esparza’s portrayal. You have every right to not like him though.

Raul's portrayal is identical to Red Dragon's Chilton (In reference to the Book, not the Movie adaption). In both, he's in control of a mental clinic, doing unorthodox testing on his patients and not approved therapy sessions that consist of brutal, and quite violent acts. Like I mentioned before, I have been tested and threatened to be locked up in such an asylum in my past; seeing how he treats his patients only gives a stronger, scarier image of what I could have, and might have to, face.