#twdysphoria

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[gilmesc1]

Someone might have already asked this, so sorry. But you mentioned you're a male alter in a female body. Do you get dysphoria?

I feel like I answered something like this before my era long hiatus, but what the hell, I can go for it again.

First of all, I wouldn't consider myself transgender per say. I wasn't born into the wrong body since as a fictive/introject I have a whole past and all. Additionally, I'm not transitioning, and I would say that I don't have an express interest in transitioning. While I would like to, I think I've come to terms with the fact that I really can't do that with my circumstances.

But yes, I do get a lot of body dysphoria. I wouldn't call it gender dysphoria exactly, while it does have gender related ties, I wouldn't call it the same thing as the dysphoria as a trans person feels. I avoid mirrors. I do dress a little more masculine when I get the chance, but it's hard to do a full costume change when I might not be fronting for long. Yes, I am incredibly uncomfortable showering or anything like that.

Since I technically have memories of being in a male body, it feels more surreal to me than anything. Just this incredible sense of wrongness which usually leads to some fun, good old fashioned dissociating. I'm disgusted by my body on things other than physical sex, but that does play a role.

Aaaaand I literally have nothing else to say. TLDR, I personally don't consider myself trans or have "traditional" gender dysphoria, however I do experience general body dysphoria with some gender related ties.

The end.

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Anyone else absolutely devastated they don’t have a male body? Cause every day I wake up and I’m not a man is another day I wake up not wanting to live.

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When I go to grab my dick and remember ain't nothin there

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[rorystdiary]

Just a casual reminder

Just because I post a lot of selfies/post workout pics does not mean I’m conceited or even confident.

Every day is a struggle for me to find things about my body that I like. Every selfie I post feels like a lie. I look at these pictures and feel like it’s someone else’s body, because the body I see when I look in the mirror is gross. I literally have to tell myself that I’m not fat… I see small love handles and instantly my hips are biggest part of my body. Not only am I dealing with dysphoria but I’m also dealing with dysmorphia… My selfies are my little triumphs. It’s a snapshot of the tiny moment in which I felt comfortable enough in my body to take an actual picture rather than tell myself I’m fat and leave the room.

Mirrors make me uncomfortable. I’m convinced that I’m fat. That no matter how much I workout or run its all for nothing.

That’s why I post so many selfies/post workout pics. To remind myself that I AM making progress. That eventually maybe I won’t have such a distorted view of my body.

[sevenfawm]

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Some days I wonder if I would be happier if I transitioned...then I realize on those days that I feel more like a woman I wouldn't be happy in my own body...right now I'm so confused...I can't be myself in this country...I just want to crawl away and hide...