Dear Charlie,
I don’t know if you’ll understand me because I can barely understand myself but I’ll give it a shot incase anyone else reading this will. I lost my virginity to him, the boy I loved. At first I thought it was perfect because we both had been waiting for the moment for over a year. But now since it’s been a few months and a breakup later, I realize that it didn’t go as I had wished it would. I wish we would of been more intimate, skin to skin, my eyes lost in his, passionate. But instead it was rushed and plain. It really breaks my heart to write while I’m blurring my sight with tears but I just wish so badly to have felt his love more because I’ll never have that moment given back to me again. I’ll never share that moment with anyone again, especially not the person who had promised me a future with together. Maybe if we had taken our time more and felt our warm skin on each other, he wouldn’t of left me. But I guess I shouldn’t be so immature about it because a lot of people have it so much worse and I was so lucky in that sense. I just hope you understand me in the right way. With love, u.u
















