I don't know if you're still doing it but for the fanfic asks: 24, 30, 41 :)
Hahaha, of course, dear anon!
24) How do you feel aboutwriting smutty scenes?
They are the hardest thing to write. They have the specific movements and rhythm that gotta make sense, like battle scenes. They have the emotive background like any tragic scene. And in addition to that, they need to still be sexy - to others who are not in my head and don’t share my own experiences and likes! So, they are hard. ANd yet, I LOVE to write them. I mean, it’s no secret I love them, and I feel somewhat confident with them. That being said though, there are two things about them that is very tricky for me:
One, it’s not a secret that I am somewhat of a “sexpert”. I am a (clinical) psychologist who specializes the biggest bulk of her research in sexual aggression (but especially, the prevention of it! And, turns out, really throrough sex education and a language and environment that teaches the enjoyment of sex for women is one of the best prevention of victimization there is!), AND, I have an additional degree in sexual medicine from even before that!. You know, plus, the fact that in people’s wellbeing in general, sex plays a huge role! So, a lot of my work is forcused on sex. And problems around sex and how to solve them. So, this brings me in the position where I know exactly the impact that depictions of sex online (and yes, fanfiction depictions of sex!) can have on young readers, and I wanna do it justice! So that means, my own standards for it are incredibly high - and THAT makes me nervous about it, not the actual sex.
Two, smut scenes are the only thing about writing where I encounter a language barrier - although I guess, it’s much more a cultural barrier. I have all the words, but often slightly off connotations for them. Because I grew up in an environment that is, in general, much, much more liberal about sex than that of most of my readers’, AND I’m very desensitized due to my field of work - sexual terms (and y’know, even just the NAMES and nicknames of genitalia - like vagina or penis or vulva, or even cock and dick) are neither unsexy nor vulgar nor too scientific for me, but extremely normal and without connotation. And that goes for most terms around sex! So, this brings me to a point where I tend to avoid writing descriptors at all costs - because the terms I would use have the wrong connotations, and the terms that the english language invented to skirt around the topic sound so extremely silly to me that I couldn’t write them with a straight face. And then there is the fact that some things about sex are simply differently connotated in general from my perspective of writing - sex being somewhat messy, slick, oozy, a little bit disgusting - that is sexy to me, and where I come from. Because it’s not perfect. Because it’s real and honest and what our bodies do when they lose control. But it’s not the hyper-polished glossy image we have in the general western society that’s deemed universally “sexy” - that clean, hairless, smooth image of bedroom eyes and come hither stares from far away on photoshopped, idealized bodies, instead of sweaty, grunting bodies that jiggle and make poppy noises when they come together as we bite our lips and grunt and sigh and come undone with everything slick and messy between us. So, it’s a fine, fine line - not giving in to what I don’t believe in or stand behind, and at the same time still managing to make it sexy for a general audience?
30) In contrast to 29 isthere a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at?
Haha, well, I wouldn’t eyeroll at it, instead I’m just really baffled! The one story I wrote that has the most reviews-per-chapter and that gets almost ridiculous amounts of views is the one I half expected to have NO reviews at all.
I’m talking about Please? - my one PWP. That I wrote just to test it out, see if I could. Like…. the Lemon Tree series? That one I’m writing for it to have meaning - it doesn’t have the most elaborate storylines by far, and is also mostly just sex, but, it’s supposed to mean something, address certain issues and resolve them. Please? on the otherhand? Not at all. That was just… seeing if I can write a stereotypical sex fantasy that is sexy and play with the male dominance trope in a way that runs a border but doesn’t cross it. It’s PWP, nothing more. It was a test. It’s a smutty oneshot - the recipe for NO reviews and loads of hits, and yet it’s among my most reviewed stories (definitely my most-reviewed and most-read one-shot) and I have. no. idea. why.
41) What’s your favouriteminor character you’ve written?
In GENERAL: UNAZUKI! I love her. I LOVE HER. And I LOVE to write her. I mean…
Boy-crazy, coming-home-late-at-night, blushing, sweet, snarky, amazing Unazuki. The girl with the gossip and OMG DID YOU JUST-eyes and I sneak her into my stories as much as possible and I am happy whenever I see her in fic.
In not so general, I love what I did with Tomoe/Germatoid in Yugen, lol.
