Case 19981028H, Statement given by Jim Hall, October 28, 1998. Statement in regards to an old hunting rifle. Statement read and archived by Luci Dreme.
I’m coming here because I feel like I have to. I don’t know how much longer before I’m forced to do it again. I really don’t want to do it again. But when that thing makes me do it…well it won’t be an animal.
It started when I found this old hunting rifle in a box in the attic. I assumed it belonged to my pappy, and I had inherited with the rest of the stuff in his cabin. And hunting season had just started so I wanted to go out and try my hand at using pap’s old riffle. When I picked it up it felt like any old gun to me. It was only when I went out into the woods that it started.
The first day I went out there wasn’t much to find. I found a couple quail nesting about and that was that. When I fired the bullet, that’s when It began. The satisfaction of having killed. I had never felt that rush before. The second day I found some quail again, but no matter how many I slaughtered I couldn’t feel satisfied. The woods were a bloodbath, and I never once questioned why the gun hadn’t run out of bullets. The urge to kill only stopped when I found a rabbit and shot it dead. That was not the first time the woods were painted that dark carmine. By the end of that week I had a dozen pigeons, ten rabbits, two turkeys and one deer. Whenever I picked up that gun I could feel it again, the need to fire, to kill.
Yesterday I couldn't find any game. That’s when I realized what this thing was. It had to take a life, or I would be next. I knew it somehow, that if it didn’t spill enough blood it would be me who would wake up with a bullet to the chest. That fear that I would be prey, that is what made me kill Donna.
I loved Donna. She had been nothing but kind. We had been married for almost twenty five years, brought up a child. Ryan doesn’t deserve to know what happened to his poor mother. How she screamed when it struck her. The wicked glee I got when I saw her fall. That wretched feeling of finally ending the chase, of killing
I ran. But no matter how hard I tried I still couldn’t let go of that gun. So I came here. Because if anything, one of you knows how to stop this. But don’t get too close alright. If any of you get any ideas of taking my only defense away from me I swear I will-
Jim Hall, huh? I looked into him before reading this one out. I prefer to know my facts first. The cops found out about what he did, and he ran. Was a serial killer for a few years, but eventually they caught up to him. His own son, what was it- Ryan. Right. He refused to visit him at first. Only came to yell at the security guards for letting Jim die after only a few months in jail. I tried to reach out to him, to try and get a statement on his perspective of the whole thing, to sniff out some more details, but he was…uncooperative.
We can’t know if this was a man giving into his worst thoughts, or if that gun was as potent as he said it was without more information. I mean, we’ve all had thoughts like that. But acting on them is different. God, if I could just get Ryan to interview it’d be-
Can’t change that. Need to stop focusing on it. You’ve got work to do. Luci. There’s other shit to record, and you’ve got to finish up this recording.
They pause again, awkward silence overtaking the recording.
Right, well, I’m not sure how I’m supposed to end one of these- I’m sort of talking to no one. Not until someone decides to listen back to it. So, bye future employee, I guess. See you in the future.