This might piss people off but I loved seeing Van revert to his old ways because starting a new relationship doesn't immediately cure you of all your problems. Van is established as a serial womanizer with low self esteem who uses alcohol and sex to ease his pain, and its going to take time and self work to get better, and I found it very realistic and in character that he panicked and did some dumb shit to immediately self sabotage his relationship with Farm, and its just so like people pleaser Farm to forgive him so easily despite his own pain and feelings on the situation. However you feel about what went down, its very consistent with the character traits that have been established. getting in a relationship does. not. fix. someone.
As for Jay and Jinn, my heart absolutely breaks for them I love them more than anything and its agony seeing how terrified Jay is to lose Jinn, especially because of how relatable it is. Its pure agony knowing there is nothing you can do to keep your loved ones in a bubble and safe at all times, but Jinn is right, they have to live for right now (even if the universe seems to have other plans.) Jay and Jinn deserve the world, I truly love this show so much. I will be holding them in my palms until next Sunday.
the pull and restraint in this episode is really good. i love how the story gradually moves towards an impactful, somewhat grandiose ending. every build-up is done so beautifully, with hints of humour and comedic timing to balance out the tension.
good Lord, i'm glad jerome and jinn didn't kiss in this episode 😭 i think it's not the time yet. there are so many things still left unsolved. so many questions. they just can't 'kiss' the confusion away. so i'm really glad they didn't, because if they do, i'll be spiralling.
i love how realisation hits jinn first, not jerome. jerome was clearly still in that headspace, succumbing to the 'feeling'. i take this scene as the beginning of their masks crumbling. their true emotions towards each other are surfacing. they can't hide them anymore, even though they still try. it's just there. it's always there. how can they ever suppress it again after being this close?
i'm not joking when i say that every time jerome sees their future, everything feels so bittersweet 😭 it's as if they're on borrowed time. so i wonder if the reason jerome's seeing these visions is to teach jerome (and jinn) not to waste time and take things for granted. it's because if jerome isn't seeing visions of the future, they'd still be the same: fighting, finding no common ground, and possibly drifting apart. i wonder if these visions are just God's way of making them realise their feelings sooner, thus, work on it, and stop the 'feud' that never existed out of hatred. because i believe, jerome will continue getting these prophecies (the good and the bad) to 1) overcome the conflict they had since kids, 2) be honest with each other, and possibly 3) to avoid the obstacles coming their way.
Lord. i have tears in my eyes whenever aged up!jeromejinn are on screen because they look so happy—and really, it makes me think about how their adult versions won't have any idea what'll happen to them: separation through death. so i believe, giving jerome this 'power' to foresee the future will help them with many aspects, especially the riddles of the heart.
but truly, it's so heartbreaking... to think about how their designated future will always end with one's passing...
honestly, i'm glad that jerome has farm. i'm glad farm is such a supportive character, the backbone in this friend group. farm's empathy and understanding are very much needed, and i'm happy that jerome can somehow trust him with this 'madness'. he didn't judge jerome at all. he listened. and he sympathised with him. that's a true friend right there. i'm just so happy that jerome has someone he can talk to. and i'm positive jerome won't hide this 'power' from jinn for long, too.
my heart also hurts for farm 🥺 i kind of agree with mai. who in their right mind would allow their crush to live with them? i don't think i could ever do that. all these signs... all these confusions... all these feelings... farm and van are starting to feel it. or, perhaps, van starts noticing farm's worth when he has no one (casual flings) by his side. it's bittersweet to think about this scenario; when you're always there for this person, witnessed their shittiest and happiest days, yet it's never because of you, or with you. and i think that realisation somehow grounds farm in believing that he'll never have a chance with van, especially knowing who van is and his 'dating style'.
i still don't know how i feel about van, but if he's truly trying to understand what true love means, and he wants to try it with farm, i just hope no hearts will be broken. it's a risk that they have to take, specifically van, if he wants to cross this boundary that he didn't realise existed for years. it's all in his hands now.
and again, farm is just so selfless. he's kind of resigning his fate with time. he doesn't really think about the possibilities of being in a relationship with van, thinking it's crazy to even happen in this lifetime—which is devastating. it makes me think about how many times farm got his heart broken by the same person, over and over, until he can't even foster a grain of hope in his heart anymore.
sea portrays quiet dejection so, so well. i noticed this since hi by my luck. and i'm always so impressed. it's in the way the sparkle in his eyes dimmed whenever his characters are sad. that kind of acting tickles my brain so much that i ended up clutching onto my chest as i'm watching this sequence. jerome's quietly winding in this whirlpool of insanity, and he can't even talk to the person whom he sees in every vision, because what are these visions, anyway? what do they mean? jerome's puzzlement and repulsion are valid, at least to me. and that lashing on jinn is gut-wrenching. i'm not trying to downplay or encourage it, but i believe that's such a crucial point in this episode for their story to develop further and reach a new level.
(i have no idea when gmm26 is coming, but is it too late to manifest an angsty drama for seakeen? these scenes... these moments of heightened emotions are so good... i think their chemistry has developed so beautifully together. they feel so in sync, coherent even, in the way they receive and reciprocate each other's feelings. that's what i believe how a wonderful connection bonded them together looks like. it's so beautiful to witness this now.)
this is such a perfect 'restart' to their relationship: an apology. it's very needed. although i believe jinn didn't expect this, i know he appreciates this so much. i'm glad jerome did apologise. i'm very happy about this brief moment of vulnerability 🥺
it's hitting me so hard in the chest that they'll live together in jinn's condo in the future 😭 everything is so different, but it's inevitably the same as well. they're so soft. so soft with each other. so appreciative. so in love. it's obvious in the way they behave around each other. the way they look at each other; fire from the devotion, not from hatred. how their shoulders aren't tense from unfamiliarity and resentment, but loose from closeness and intimacy. every vision of the future offers some sort of epiphany for jerome. like i said earlier, i wonder if this is all written for them to read together, dissect its meaning, and find the purpose behind fate's intervention in their current topsy-turvy relationship.
isn't it beautiful? God's plan for them... i think it's the prettiest.
(i actually died again when this happened... my heart literally shattered i don't know why 💔 jerome stood up for jinn without him knowing... how am i supposed to survive this 😭😭😭 beam, i'm sorry you had to go through all of this shit... you deserve better...)
again, i command p'new's team for how well they crafted the tension in this episode 👏 it's dramatic irony, where we, as the audience, know that jinn will walk into the room and see jerome with the diary/journal, but seeing it happening for real is an experience i won't forget 💔 the howl i exhaled when this happened...
i think we can really feel the fallout, the walls shattering, the secret once kept safely in the drawer is now out in the open, in the hands of someone who isn't supposed to know. keen's excellent embodiment of panic, fear, and anger is magnifiyingly spell-binding in this scene. like, i can see everything was collapsing on him when he opened the door. oh, the actor you are, keen suvijak.
this, right here, truthfully, destroyed my world.
just pull the trigger to my head at this point.
oh, Lord. i can't believe it's happening this quickly: them sorting out their feelings for each other. it makes me wonder if something bigger awaits once their feelings are equal... what will happen then?
i never hated you.
i never hated you.
i never hated you.
i never hated you.
i never hated you.
i repeat that sentence, as i wait for episode 4 to air.
What if in between visions of possible tragic futures and the beginning of their respective romances, it was just a story where four men are learning that trust and communication are just the right key to having a healthy relationship?
