#vent-ish post

[hollycantkeeptrackofthedaze]

and as we all well know, any interest in things out of line with gender conformity by a man or woman is automatically performative infiltration done in order to heterosexually pander to gender conforming individuals of the other binary gender. this is definitely smart wisdom/a good rulestick for life and not taking the stupidest part of "gamer girl" paranoia at face value.

[most-likely-human-indeed]

I feel like I need to interact with people or they will forget me.

but like idk what to talk or rp about.

[cryptidko]

I need to be sedated like a rabid dog and have another man rip my uterus out of my body with with his bare hands while I'm awake. I need him to do it in a grimy room where if I die at least I'll die a man.

I need to wake up in a tub full of ice with my hands bloody as I trace the shitty sutures, he holds my face too and gets it bloody as well.

I need him to whisper it's over, I need to shed that organ and leave it all behind in that room to rot. I need to leave the room and realize it was never someone else doing that to me, there was only a mirror and me in the room.

I'll poison my blood with life.

I need to make myself a man.

I will make myself a man even if it kills me.

[senjuushi]

Having a real weird time reconciling writing as both "thing I like to do and enjoy the process of doing" and "thing that I have made myself feel so bad about for so long that every attempt makes me vaguely sick with guilt". :/ I know I want to write things, but every time I try, boom, there's the guilt again. I think I'm getting better at the Enjoying Things part, but eughhh there is SO much shit to unpack in here still.

Anyway, more of those Traits Charts coming soon, I hope 👍

[veryoddvoid]

God I feel like everywhere I go a dog dies.

[amediocregamer]

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music for when you're going insane because you think you dont actually have any musical talent and are bound to fail. im holding this post for a friend

[bicayaya]

i didn’t want to be away from tumblr (again) but there’s just so much going on irl rn 🥲

[snowytiger]

yeah people might say shit like "fat people are so cute and huggable" or "soft tumby,," but sometimes i wonder if these people actually find them hot. and i mean hot. attractive. sexy, even.

look there's nothing inherently wrong with saying the things i mentioned (hell i wouldnt mind being called huggable myself), but when that's all people (especially skinny people) are able to say it lowkey feels very infantilizing...like fat people can be hot. fat people can be sexy. fat people can be attractive. i shouldnt have to say this but fat people can do the exact fucking shit skinny people can do and that SHOULD be something normal