I just want to commit suicide, but I'm afraid of it, I keep going and I get even more broken. I used to be grateful and happy, but now I feel so broken and annoyed, I love myself and hate it at the same time, I listen to music so as not to think about myself too much, sometimes it feels like I'm invisible. Whenever I spoke to someone, they never listened. I wanted to talk, but no one wanted to listen to me... every day I suffer from the fact, that I feel bad, but no one wants to help.I suffer from anxiety, and now I have problems with trust and social responsibility. Can't I have a better life? I feel like I'm rotting and spoiling. My face is sadder than an ordinary person's. I hate my parents, but there's nothing I can do, I have to pretend that everything is fine, my parents never believed me, and they would think that I was just winding myself up.
I just wanted to say… I can't do this anymore... I used to be kinder and happier than I am now. everyone hates me, abandons me, everyone has people dearer, but was I ever dear to anyone?
I feel bad or good.
