#venting time

[ohblonn]

To be honest I think I might pass the torch.

I see better general acceptance of other people reading and less skepticism on them and I’m glad (because the level of doubt and comments I received were not great) because even my friends whom I told things I found they trust other people more, and when things happen which I told them would happen is so funny— it’s not, but self-deprecation is my way of coping.

ANYWAY, I’m venting. Sorry, it’s not been a great week in general when it comes to reading because of comments I’ve been getting and overall how some people may be thinking I do this for the followers.

Also I got explained the Apollo/Cassandra lore and I researched more on that because they compared me to Cassandra and yes… I feel so related to that.

[biblicallyaccuratefour]

I feel pissed today. Can we not? Can we just be normal for once?!

Every time I search the Colress tag, I turn around and see one person liking proship content and it's OH! There's this person who I know who interacts with proships and so on so forth. And I turn around again and OH! A proshipper interacts with my shit. I honestly wanna crash out sm, yous don't even know.

I know that cringe is dead, but come on! Cop the fuck on! I'm gonna go cry in my dumpster. This shit's fucking ridiculous istfg...

[lune-de-miel-au-paradis]

ugh i feel so overwhelmed. it's just so much right now the working, studying, the anxiety stress about the exams, my bad perfectionist habits.. I feel so lost. I know that I wanted this and I have no regrets, but now it feels a little too much. God I'm so tired.

[wuxia-vanlifer]

Ok I run out of huperfixation and I'm PAINFULLY bored. My brain is like a constant chainting of "I need my blorbos where are my blorbos I NEED MY BLORBOS WHERE ARE MY BLORBOS I NEED-" and I'm trying to do anything in the pain that underestimulation is but everything I do is like "no that's not enough no thats not enough that's good but not enough nope dopamine doesn't go bluur with this that's not enough" and I don't have any new book to try to read to find new blorbos and I'm desperately trying to see old series I loved BUT THEYRE NOT ENOUGH and nothing I'm in pain and I'm vibrating with underestimulation and if anyone says that adhd is funny and quirky I'm gonna not be responsible for my action

[just-alex-in-their-natural-form]

As an asexual, I do masturbate sometimes.

I'm drunk rn so I will probably regret venting like this in the morning, but here it comes: I'm asexual and I masturbate, out of... something. I'm not sure it's a need, more like a boredom.

Usually I lose interest in it halfway through. I regret it later. I feel dirty. And then after some time I do it again. I take a step farther. I use tools (which primary destination is definitely not this).

The only use I have out of this is a reference to the stories I write about romances I consider more full and normal than the ones I could ever create, if ever. I wish I didn't have a call or a habit to do it. It makes me feel empty afterwards. It leaves me with no particular thoughts, no fullfilment, just blankness of mind. I would rather get rid of it all and become a "true ace".

I'm not sure I will ever feel any different. I can only hope I am not the only one.

[berrysweetprincess]

you know, having my actual favorite show being centered around a healthy family with a healthy environment is both great and horrible at the same time as an abused child. sometimes it comforts me and makes me escape from reality, sometimes it makes me realize that I'll never have something like that and I can't stop crying for an hour or so.

[sunshinetrackwalk]

The fact I’m TERRIFIED to say my thoughts and feelings about the sport I love because I know it’s going to be disagreeing with the main crowd upsets me so damn much. Last time I said anything I got abuse and called a racist because I supported someone other than Hamilton. I’m fucking done man.

[mirohtron]

tw // injuries

stop how do i continue with this aaaaaa whumpy mood where