#visual disturbances

[eclipsen-smiles]

Huh.

Today I learned that the thing that gave me an existential crisis at the age of 10,

Has a name!

It’s called “visual snow” or “static vision.”

Luckily it isn’t actually that hard to show… though there’s also a bunch of different types of it.

I kid you not, my 10 yr self thought that this meant that everything was a simulation.

No, it’s just my vision being fucky

Mines is MUCH more toned down than it can be, and only really shows up in the dark.

FUN THING THO, BECAUSE MINE IS COLORED, I CAN JSE IT TO ACCURATELY MAKE COLORS!

[live-at-the-tostitos-fiesta-bowl]

Hide Me by Stabscotch

From the album Uncanny Valley

[stigmatacunnilingus]

Does anyone else ever have like a hallucination where like a square of your visual field kinda pieces off like it’s a picture separated from what you’re seeing? Like a glitch. I’m trying to figure it out on google but they just keep showing me stuff that isn’t right

[toastmcroasty]

(Visual Disturbances)

[alwayswanttobemaking]

Afterthought (experiment)

Now that I have finished with my Visual Disturbances project, I wanted to strip the canvas off the frame so that I could re-stretch another onto it. However I didn’t have any staple removers/pliers on me, so I ripped the canvas down between the staples instead. This was a really satisfying process, particularly the sound of the canvas tearing.

However, as an afterthought, I found that I really much preferred the frame and strips of canvas attached, than the piece I had before it.

[alwayswanttobemaking]

Instillation removal 

When I had to take down my work over the weekend after the exhibition, I painted over the yellow paint using thick white wall paint. I expected it to take multiple coats to remove, but because the paint was so thick, it covered in just one coat. I took a few photos, because I really enjoyed how the yellow appeared as though it was disappearing, as through the white paint was slowly spreading over it. I really liked the glowing colours of the yellow, as though it had been a highlighter been used to colour the wall.

[alwayswanttobemaking]

Final Piece, exhibition and crit

I managed to get a hallway space for the exhibition meaning that I was able to have an enclosed space in which I was able to alter the light without disturbing other people’s work. I showed three photocopied pieces of paintings that I had done over the course of the project. The reason I showed photocopies rather than the original works, as I would've preferred, was because it meant that the white showed up better with the back light UV light. The paint I chose to use was a bold yellow poster paint which are used on the wall behind the paintings meaning that the work was really difficult to look at and people with licensitive eyes struggled to stay in that space.

The crit with the visiting practitioner went well and he did have some interesting ideas, however I felt that he struggled to engage with some of the ideas I was discussing. He chose to focus on the back story behind the work, rather than the work itself, and as a result he felt that these ideas were not involved in the artwork enough. It came up in discussion that I enjoyed narrative: narrative art and narrative fiction, which he said I should explore more in my artwork. The main reason I felt that I didn't get more out of the critique and I did was because he asked me to talk about my work and the process of the project before the work itself was discussed. Through this process I have decided that in future crits I will instead ask people to discuss my artwork before I do. I feel that this would be more insightful for me, as it’d allow me to gauge and understanding other people’s perceptions of it, before I've explained the concept. This is particularly relevant in this piece, as I was attempting to create an experience, not a narrative of my experiences.

[alwayswanttobemaking]

Instillation: PLANNING C (Final Outcome planning)

I decided to take my tutor’s advice and show the paintings that I had already used. We discussed the fact that it’s okay for a final outcome of a project to be one or two of your best works from the project. I don’t plan to always do this, but in this case I had put too much pressure on myself to create something big, new and impressive that it was just too much pressure.

I picked out 4 portrait A3 painted over photos to show, as these ones worked well as a group. I then started thinking about possible ways to present the paintings. I knew that I wanted to hang them in a subtle way, something simple like a small pin in each corner of the page. I debated whether or not to cut off the white boarders of the photos, however I quite like the honesty of it. The fact that it’s the size it was printed as, that you can see the paint on top of the image- it allows you to see how it was made.

I thought about if there was any way of combining the florescent yellow paint that I’d board. The bright colour meant that you can always see it out of the corner of your eye, which I liked. I tried painting a little bit of it onto the studio wall, masking some off, to see if how it would look and if it’d bleed under the tape- it didn’t. The colour came out slightly differently on the wall, looking more like I had coloured it in with highlighter, which I quite liked as a funny image for the viewer to imagine.

I tried out creating a block of yellow paint, to show one of the images in front of, just to see how it would look. The bright yellow made the image harder to focus on or look at for long, which I like.

When discussing with my tutor, we discussed adding some kind of light to the piece, to make the colours bolder, hasher or stranger. I searched through lots of different types of lights online, considering a daylight bulb (similar to the kind used on buses), but ended up getting an LED black-light. I felt that the light would make the white really pop and the colours become a weird kind of glow.