#weightlessjourney

[survivingthemundane]

Not pretty but healthy

Breakfast: Rolled oats with almond milk, peanut butter, and some maple syrup topped with blueberries and cut up strawberries ~386 cals

Lunch: Black bean burgers, frozen vegetables steamed and seasoned with a baked sweet potato ~492 cals

Dinner: Black chickpea masala with steamed frozen vegerables and brown rice ~285 cals

A lot of fiber lol

[soogie72]

Recovery week P90x/end of month measurements

Overall Body review -not sore- feel good- didn’t want to get out of bed though. A little intimidated going into Core Synergistics

OCT 1 measurements - 

total inches - 263 

last months - 268.75 I lost 5.75 inches this month!! lost in my chest, arm, waist, hips and a little on my calf   That is 19 inches for the whole year but  29 inches from the biggest measurements in April

Core synergistics

Overall - so first things first- let me crawl off this “I just finished 3 weeks of P90x (highly modified)” high horse my fat ass was on...... Ok so I was out of breath and yawning through most of it.  Apparently I was either holding my breath or my cells were suffocating.  I couldn't do all of it.  I had to have a dance party when I reached my max and let them finish up the set. I greatly despise that chatarunga thingy.  DESPISE them

BOOHISS!

anything chatarunga

Dreya Rolls aka spine issues from me flopping on my tailbone

not breathing right today

YES!!

banana superman- apparently I really have muscle memory from STOP DROP AND ROLL

I LOVE  the tire things.  small tires maybe bicycle ones but I like them

I did it. I didn’t want to and spent time last night looking through what I could substitute but then realized I was cheating myself by not trying.

SWEAT - I am still pouring sweat

[soogie72]

Week 4 results

SW:286.0

CW:263.7

This week: -0.4 lbs

Total: -22.3lbs

So.. Birthday week (I didn’t cheat) and I lost 0.4lbs.  I won’t lie and say that part of me isn’t a little disappointed.  I have been so good but if I truly look at it I have been drinking diet sodas instead of water. So can I be upset?  NO... Is my worth judged by a scale. NO.... Am I conditioned to be self critical of myself at everything? ABSOLUTELY. It is hard habit to change.  That is why I am here.  If i have this talk with my husband, I get a “it is mind over matter, just do it”  Friends and co workers and most of my family are the say anything to make me feel better.  My favorite comment is the “ you aren’t fat.... don’t say your fat... you are perfect the way you are” - But can I give you true honesty ?--- at that moment the person that says those things gets put on my “I don’t trust you” list.  They could tell me it is raining and I would check.  I have become harsh in my old age and I don’t have time for that.  You know what I really want?  “Keep going... you are doing great... I know it is hard but you are strong enough”  or smile and nod.... I have maybe two people in my life like that and one lives across the country.  Being fat, depressed and lonely is a sad place to be.

So those that give those remarks the most are those that offer me food I can’t eat.  I get so frustrated.  That is why I talk about my journey on here.  I don’t want to tell them my work out plans because I the looks and smirks.  I would rather keep it to myself.  

Today... I have to get my lovely youngest daughter an outfit to wear for her basketball pics.  The girls wear dresses and do their hair up nice.  My baby girl isn't a dress wearing type and so I am hoping we find a jumper or something she is very comfortable in.  THEN..... I am going balls to the wall cleaning the part of the basement that will become the DIVA DEN.  My own personal gym.  I am going to get a curtain so no one can walk in. I have to deeeeeep clean it and get all the thousands of dollars of exercise and workout crap I have hoarded for years into it but I am very excited to have my own space.  There is even a small area with a fridge and sink.  I will have to post before and after pics. I am adding water this next week too.  I am so excited. 

Well sweet daughter has come in three times while I was typing to argue.... about the level of formal this picture is.  I say she needs to wear a real bra and nice dress, She wants sports bra and tshirt dress.  I will be taking my anti anxiety meds before we leave because I am already crying.

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