#what is existence

[maximura]

[criminalmindsismyobsession13]

Reid: I hate this

JJ: Hate what?

Reid: Existing 

Emily, from the other side of the room, clearly hungover wearing huge sunglasses and a grey sweatshirt, sitting under her desk: Mood.

[solardee]

Trying to stay awake during the day, what do I do to keep myself awake?

Completely rearrange my office apparently lol

I was just gonna watch YouTube all day, but realized that being awake during the day, my computer was in direct sunlight and I couldn't see anything lol

Now I can look out the window c:

[mossy-vulpes]

Missing rope so I practiced hanging upsidedown off the bed

Everything is chaos

Aaaaaaa

✨they/them✨

[lotus-of-the-rainbow]

My very limited knowledge of what day of the week it is is solely due to weekly webtoon updates and kk slider visiting my animal crossing island

[youthbookreview]

Anyone else switch between reading the physical book, the ebook on an ereader, and the ebook on a phone, all for the same book? No? Just me?

[violet-gaze]

Musings (Kaminari x Reader)

A/N: I gotta be completely honest with y’all- this was totally self indulgent and basically has no real plot at all. However, I thought I’d still share it. So, without further ado, let me introduce Sad Boi Hours with a dash of Existential Crisis!!! :)

Warnings: None

“Hello?”

You cracked your door open slightly to see a pair of yellow eyes staring at you. With a sigh, you stepped back and allowed Kaminari to slip into your room before closing the door softly behind you.

You whispered yelled, “What are you doing? We could get caught and expelled! Do you want that?”

He simply shrugged, his normally spiked hair looking a bit more limp than usual as he shuffled over to your bed and gently sat on the edge of it. You immediately noticed his change in demeanor and hastily took a seat beside him when you heard a light sniffle.

“I- I didn’t know who else to go to and I really didn’t want to be alone right now. I shouldn’t be bothering you- this is stupid. I’m sorry...”

Kaminari swiped his palms over his cheeks as he started to stand, but you placed a firm hand on his chest and pushed him back down, “No, I’m sure it isn’t stupid if you’re this upset about it. You can tell me anything; you know that. What’s bothering you?”

His ragged breaths were the only sounds in your room for a few moments before he spoke, “It’s just that... all these other kids have so much going for them, you know? Bakugou’s determined to be the number one hero with that amazing quirk of his, Todoroki has the attention of nearly every single hero agency, Iida is really smart, and just... everyone else is doing so well here...”, he paused for a second as he struggled for his next words, “But me? If I ever want to really win a fight, I short circuit my brain. I’m not much help as I walk around like an idiot until I recharge. I’d be killed on the spot by a villain if I didn’t defeat them with my large blast of electricity.

“And it’s not just that either. I don’t want to sound like I’m throwing a pity party, but a lot of pressure is placed on me to be the goofball that either annoys everybody or makes them laugh. Nobody really takes me seriously. I just... I don’t know if I deserve to be at UA.”

You took a few seconds to really soak in his words as he swiped another palm over his face and sniffed loudly. You absentmindedly grabbed a tissue from the box on your nightstand, but instead of giving it to him, you took it upon yourself to wipe the stray tears off of his face. He didn’t seem to mind as he leaned into your touch, and you threw the tissue away before taking one of his hands in both of yours.

“I know you expect me to say something like ‘it’ll all get better’ or ‘none of them matter, so don’t compare yourself to them’. In reality, however, this school is based on competition and advancing both your mind and your quirk. It may seem like you don’t have everything under control right now, but these are just the early stages of your time at UA. There’s much more growth waiting for you in the future than you realize.

“Also, you got into UA for a reason. That means someone saw potential in your powers, and they want to encourage you to develop them while you’re here. It’s ok to feel like you aren’t good enough from time to time, but don’t let it consume you. You have much more talent than you know, and sometimes it take somebody else to tell us that before we can accept it ourselves.”

A few beats of silence passed before Kaminari let out a breathless laugh and gave your hand a squeeze, “Wow, (L/N), that actually helped me a lot. Have you ever thought about writing a book or something?”

You gave him a smile, but your eyes glistened with unshed tears, “Don’t worry, Kaminari. I’m preaching to you exactly what I need to be preaching to myself.”

He noticed how you had become upset, and copied your precious actions by rubbing a soft tissue under your eyes while the tears spilled over your cheeks. He sighed, his own red rimmed gaze matchings yours, “Well, would it comfort you more if I stay here tonight? Or would that be weird? I can sleep on the floor...”

This offer nearly caused more tears to spill from your eyes as you nodded, “I wouldn’t make you sleep on the floor- I trust you. C’mon, let’s get some sleep before I start really creating some waterfalls.”

You peeled the covers back and crawled into the familiar warmth of your bed, and you felt the mattress dip as Kaminari climbed into the other side. He was very tense and awkward at first, but you simply turned off your bedside lamp and wiggled closed so that you were facing him. You snuggled your head into the crook of his neck, his arm falling over your waist to pull you closer.

The comforting warmth of being near another human made your heart squeeze strongly with emotion. You were left to wonder what it would be like to always feel alone, trapped in your mind without a true sense of release. Your thoughts began to race with questions that tugged on your sense of reality.

What would it be like to find solace in fictional dimensions that were just beyond your grasp? What would it be like to draw emotional satisfaction from different combinations of 26 letters? Or, better yet, how would it feel to care so deeply for characters that would never know you existed?

The thoughts were too heavy for you to bear, so you held onto Kaminari just a little bit tighter, imagined yourself in his arms for just a little bit longer. You had to remember that hope was on the horizon for a better tomorrow.

We will make it through this existence... no matter how many fictional characters it takes to help us along the way.

A/N: There it is- the cumulation of my normal thoughts portrayed through a story. I promise I have the real™️ content coming soon for y’all!!