Could Do An Imagine Where The Reader Is Jaime's Wife & She Finds Him In Bed Cersei. And Then He Tells Her About The Love Affair.
pairing: jaime lannister x reader ; jaime lannister x cersei lannisterfandom: got ; asoiafwarnings: infidelity ; mentions of oral sex ; language ; a shit ton of heartbreak lolgenre: angst ; mentions of smut
summary: he was your husband. the father of the child you would soon give birth to. the one you thought you would be happy with forever. and that man, that you had so much faith in and loved so much, would be the man who would tear your heart into pieces eventually.
a/n: see, I told you I’d finish a normal jaime request soon, lol. anyways, this obviously isn’t going to end in a happy ending, because how can it? I’m not one of those writers who gives these stories a happy ending and you know it. but I still hope you like it!!
“Lucia?”you approached a servant of the Red Keep, who bowed when you stood infront of her.
“Yes,my Lady?”
“Haveyou seen my husband?” you rubbed your hands over your swollenbelly, a worried look sitting on your face.
“No,my Lady. Not since this morning.”
Yousighed deeply and nodded, “Thank you, Lucia,” she bowed onceagain and left you alone to your thoughts.
Itwasn’t unusual for Jaime to go somewhere and not tell you where. He was animportant person in King’s Landing and had important things to do.You knew that and you respected that.
Butthe closer you got to having your baby, the more worried you got.You were afraid to go into labor and not have him by your side, likehe had promised you to be. Now, so far ahead into your pregnancy, you at least wanted to know where hewas and how you would be able find him, when the contractions wouldbegin.
Youbegan to wander through the halls of the Red Keep, your handsmindlessly stroking your belly, your eyebrows furrowed and your eyesfocused on the ground.
“Wheredid he run off to..,” you muttered, maybe to yourself, maybe toyour child.
Usuallyyou would go downstairs to grab something to eat. Like you did everyother normal day. But you were tired and your feet were hurting likecrazy. In short, all you wanted was to lie down in your big andcomfortable bed and take a nap, hoping that when you’d wake up, yourhusband would be by your side.
Soinstead of taking the stairs down, you went upstairs to yourchambers.
Youobviously didn’t bother knocking.
Forfuck’s sake, it was your own bedroom, so why would you knock?
Butperhaps you should have.
“Whatthe..-”
“(Y/N),”Jaime’s eyes widened. The same eyes, that were shut only a second ago.His mouth hung open. The same mouth, that was moaning his sisters nameonly a moment ago, “I’m..”
Cerseididn’t even bother to stop. She just.. continued to suck him off,while you were standing in the door frame, not knowing where to look. Whether you should look at your husband, who was enjoying a fucking blowjob from his sister only moments ago, or look at Cersei in complete disbelief, that she wouldn’t even stop, now that you, his wife, had walked in on them. But this was Cersei.. why would she begin to show a human side to her now..
Therehave always been rumors about an affair between the Queen and herbrother. But Jaime had always denied them when you had asked. He had told you, that it was disgusting and that you were his wife, so naturally, he would never cheat on you, most certainly not with his sister. Apparently one lieafter the other. Because he didn’t look like he was disgusted rightnow and he certainly hadn’t looked like he thought about you, whenfucking his sister in your bed.
Thesame bed that your soon-to-be-born child was made in.
Youfelt a wave of nausea hit you and ran towards a pot at the far end ofthe room.
Onlythen did Cersei finally stop, but only because she was disgusted and annoyedthat you’d bother her and her brother in a moment like this.
Jaimetook that opportunity to get up and throw his shirt over his head,sprinting towards you and rubbing your back.
Butyou just swatted his hands away.
Orat least you tried to, while still throwing up.
Wheneverything had left your stomach, youwiped your mouth clean with the back of your head and supportedyourself on the table next to you to get up.
“(Y/N),let me explain,” his voice was low and desperate.
“Ishould’ve killed you,” Cersei chimed in, before he could sayanything else, getting up from the bed and walking over to you two, stillcompletely naked, “I should have killed you right at thebeginning.”
“Cersei!Enough!”
“Butthis is nice too. Did you know that he fucked me on your bed on theday of your wedding?”
“Cersei,please,” he looked at her pleadingly, then turned around to faceyou, “(Y/N), I can explain it all, I promise, I..-”
Butyou only held up your hand and shook your head.
“Areyou going to kill me?” you looked up at Cersei, trying your hardestso your voice wouldn’t break. Trying your hardest not to show any weakness in front of her.
“No.I promised him that much.”
“Good.Then you will let me and my child leave?”
“(Y/N)!No, no, no, you can’t do this!” he wanted to reach for your hand,but you took a step back.
Cerseismiled and nodded slowly.
“Certainly.”
Thatwas all you had to hear.
Youwalked over to the desk next to the window, then to the trunk,grabbing everything that was essential or of importance and shoved itinside a bag.
“You’remy wife! We’re expecting a child, you’re heavily pregnant, you can’t just leave..”
Hewas just throwing every reason why you couldn’t go at you, hoping thatone of them would convince you.
‘You’re my wife’ - but I have cheated on you with my sister. So not only was I unfaithful, to the one I claim to love, but I also did it with my fucking sister, is what he should have said. ‘We’re expecting a child’ - I am expecting a child. That child would not be his concern anymore. ‘You’re heavily pregnant’ - but I am still capable of making my way out of this castle. ‘You can’t just leave’ - watch me.
All these things were going through your head, while you finally got up from the ground and turned around, looking at him with so much hurt and disappointment in your eyes.
“Isit true? What she said? That you had sex with her on our wedding day?And.. do us both a favor.. tell me the truth for once in your life.”
Helet out an exaggerated sigh and brushed his hand through his hair. Hewas thinking about lying again. Like all the other times he had liedto you.
Buthe couldn’t.
Healso couldn’t tell you the truth.
Sohe just stood there, his eyes filled with guilt.
“I’msorry,” was all he said, in merely a whisper.
Youforced yourself not to cry. Convincing yourself that he wasn’t worthit. That someone who’d treat you this way, didn’t deserve your tears. Which proved harder than said, given the fact that you were heavily pregnant and emotions were running wild inside you.
“Ireally thought this is what you wanted.. a happy, married life withchildren.. with me..”
“Butit is!”
“Ifit was, you would never have cheated on me in the first place. If notfor me, then for your child.”
“Ilove you. I swear to you, I love you. And I love our child and I..-”he walked over to you and placed his hands on either sides of yourface, holding it tightly, “I can’t lose you. Please, (Y/N), I just can’t lose you..”
Youtook some deep breaths to calm yourself down, but one lonely tear escaped your eye. And you could see how much it broke him to see you this way.. but you wouldn’t pity him. This was his own fault.
“You’velost me the moment you put your dick inside her, even though you weremarried to me,” you pushed his hands away, “You’ve lost the bothof us,” was the last thing you whispered, before walking out of thedoor..
Outof his life..
Leavinga happy Cersei and a heartbroken Jaime behind.
His sister had finally accomplished what she had apparently been trying to accomplish all her life.
Ruin him completely.
Or maybe he shouldn’t put the blame on her. He could have said no, all these times. He could have pushed her away. But he kept inviting her in..
It was his own fault..
..his own fault that he lost the woman he cared about so much and a child, his child, that he would now never get to see.
