I am my own magestic-fucking-Cupid
I just took down my okcupid account. I am not interested in dating right now. But I realized something after giving advice about compliments etc. I was being an attention "whore" for lack of a much better word. (Really that's all I could thing of? Shame on me).
I realized that I was on it to literally see how many times I was messaged, and when no one would message me, yeah that happened often (winning), I thought "fuck you guys!"
And then I was like "woha there girl!" (as I transformed into a unicorn) that I am kinda well, more like full on using this site as a freaking way to procrastinate, get male attention, and entertainment. Talk about multi-tasking.
So, since this is not in accordance with what my actual purpose is, and what I want, or have energy for, I took it down. And I literally feel like I have been unplugged from the Matrix.
I feel so good, it's not about the site, it's about my motivation behind being on it, which was not even to meet anyone! (Intention fail).
So now, I am my own magestic-fucking-Cupid, I send messages on the regular, I never wait to respond, and I just feel so good, it's like I've known me my whole life. It's magic I tell ya, wand waving, rabbitt-out-of-hat, sparkles in the air, owls delivering my mail, Hogwarts, magic. When they asked why I left, I said it was because "I found someone."