Darling Little @smilingsarah10 reciprocated my tag and @wrongremedy’s questions are too good not to respond to.
@smilingsarah10’s questions:
Describe your safe place. Why do you feel safe there?
Spatially, or at least physically, I feel most comfortable in my room or alone in a forest. I am naturally drawn to trees and woodland; I suppose because they used to provide shelter for us. Mentally, my safe place would be with my own thoughts as they relate to whatever I am reading. The text might not always be the best, friendliest, or safest, but I find myself comforted by these things. I like challenges. I like to think through them. That promotes growth.
If you had one million dollars how would you spend it?
Firstly, I would pay off my student loans. Secondly, I would use what money I could to spend time with my boyfriend. Thirdly, I would buy books (so long, wish lists!). I would invest what remained.
What is a line from a book, poem, song, play, or movie that really speaks to you and why?
...league with you I seek, / And mutual amity so strait, so close, / That I with you must dwell...
This passage comes from Book IV of John Milton’s Paradise Lost. Satan whispers these words to himself when he first espies Eve and Adam, but I like to think that this is how I express my feelings towards the people I love most. I with you must dwell. Beautiful.
If you were any Disney villain who would you be and why?
Maleficent. Respect means everything to me. I try to show courtesy to everyone around me, so I do not think it impertinent to expect the same from others. Even if I am not someone’s favorite person, I demand to be treated with civility and due regard. I have no patience or compassion for people who cannot be bothered to consider others.
If you could be a color, what color would you be? Why? If you only smelled in colors, what color would you smell like?
I want to be the color of autumn twilight where the zenith is so purple it is almost black, but the horizon is marigold and crimson, and every step in-between wanes into the other color piecemeal. I would smell like this color, too...like clean linen and a new knitting skein, sweet decaying leaves and moss, allspice and nutmeg, pumpkin pulp, roasted pecans, fresh apples, and brandy.
Describe your best friend using nothing but metaphors with no explanation.
A flash of lightning skating across a steel sky. A grey wolf’s grin before it rips into the hind of a deer or an elk. An early spring zephyr that bends a few boughs and kisses your cheeks.
Who are you? Who do you want to become?
I am a person trying to make himself better. I want to be a person who, despite others attempts to change my course, did what was right over what was easy.
What’s you [sic] go to phrase and how many times do you find yourself using it in a day?
Some variant of an abstract contraction (like it’s, that’s, etc) “fine”. If not that, then probably “I should (blank).” I lose count of how often I say these things. I am also really guilty of using superlatives. I am working on not doing that.
If you could wake up tomorrow in someone else’s body, who would you pick and what would you do?
I do not know if I want to be anyone else. I spend enough time not liking my own body. I would much rather try being a better and more self-loving me.
Name the most terrifying moment of your life so far. Have you recovered from it?
I do not know what the most terrifying moment of my life is. I tend to be anxious about everything. I suppose that is the answer. I do not mind chaos, I do not mind a little stress, and I certainly do not mind not being able to control everything...but that does not mean that these situations do not affect me in troubling ways. Right now, I would say I have not recovered from my current anxieties because I have not learned to be as responsible for myself as I should.
If you only had one more day, what would you do? What’s stoping [sic] you from doing this now?
I would tell my loved ones that I love them. I would read what I could and write what I could just because I have wanted to and procrastinated far too long. I would tell my boyfriend that I love him and kiss him.
As for the things standing in my way, they are not real. The things hindering my achievements are my own feelings of inadequacy and fear. In regards to my boyfriend, though, there is one physical barrier...and that’s an ocean. But if that were not there, or if I could somehow fly to England in the next few hours, I would just want to be with him.
@wrongremedy’s questions:
What is your favorite childhood memory? Describe it in as much detail as possible.
I will never forget watching a flock of Corvidae swarm around a breed of chickenhawk and eviscerate it. But I have to say why this scene happened before I can describe how it happened. Simply, I once had a hen.
Earlier that particular year, our hen strategically allowed the local ravens and crows the first pickings of her cornmeal. Once the flock finished, she would subsist on whatever remained. This pattern continued all winter until, having established a symbiotic relationship, the flock became accustomed to Betty Lou’s (yes, that was her name) various clucks and calls.
One evening my family and I heard the neighborhood dogs howling. We noticed a Sharp-shinned hawk attempting to dive, and we knew why. As my father ran for his rifle to spook it, our little Plymouth Rock hen let loose one of the most harrowing cries I have ever heard any creature make. Suddenly, hundreds of ravens and crows abandoned dozens of trees. Having heard this monstrous screech, they deserted their roosts and attacked the hawk. The brawl could not have been more than sixty feet above us, and when the flock scattered, a grisly, butchered thing plummeted out of a cloud of glossy black feathers.
Name five things that make you unapologetically, completely happy.
Reading. Weekends full of movies and television shows instead of work, especially when the shows are purposefully campy like Ab Fab. Listening to The Vaccines and First Aid Kit full volume. Baguettes; I unashamedly ate two rather long ones over the course of about thirty hours. BuzzFeed quizzes.
What is your favorite sound in all the world? Where do you hear it? How does it make you feel?
I am going to list three. One: I love the common loon call. Great northern loons are most often heard at night, mostly on lakes, and in the northeast. Two: Rain, particularly thunderstorms. Need I say more? Three: Bells, especially church or cathedral bells. They remind me of my stint in England. Oxford is full of churches, and almost every college has a belfry. I am also a huge fan of Gothic architecture, so hearing large bells and carillons reminds me of touring cathedrals in Europe.
If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you be and why?
Oxford. I love the city. I love the university. And my boyfriend is there, so I wouldn’t mind falling asleep in the same bed with him for once.
What is your greatest wish for your future?
To have tenure and love my work.
If you could meet one person from history, who would it be and why?
If only one: John Milton. I read Paradise Lost fairly early in my teens and owe my desire to become a scholar, in part, to my love of that poem. I would also love to hear his opinions on the seventeenth-century. Can you think of a better way to learn about a radically evolving period than listening to one who experienced it?
What fictional character(s) do you identify with the most?
Mary Malone from His Dark Materials. Beatrice from Much Ado About Nothing. Puck from A Midsummer Night’s Dream. Faustus from Marlowe’s version. Septimus from Stoppard’s Arcadia. Scout from To Kill a Mockingbird. Tristram Shandy from the eponymous novel.
What is your favorite room in your home? What makes it your favorite?
My favorite room in my current house is my room. I am proud of how I arranged it. My favorite room in my parent’s house is the living room. I like to bundle myself in a fleece blanket and sit by the fireplace to read.
When was the last time you were physically injured? What happened? Has it healed?
I recently stubbed my toe and edged the nail into a corner of the skin. It looks and feels fine now.
What is your favorite holiday? Why do you love it so much?
Halloween. The season’s celtic origins help tie me to my ancestry and inspired my scholarly interests in Medieval and Renaissance occult culture.
If you could say anything to anyone right now, who would it be and what would you say?
To my boyfriend: I love you. To my family: I miss you. To anyone suffering: I am here if you need someone to talk to.
I will not be asking questions or tagging anyone since I have already done this recently.