#zen rants

[coolocgod]

why am i crying over a stupid roblox update?

im not gonna pretend to type "normally" for this im upset, i wanted to just play with my friends like a normal day but no roblox rolled out their stupid update and now im crying cues i cant talk to one of my friends, im so overwhelmed and scared i just wanted one good fucking day but im not getting that, i hate this stupid update, im sorry this is alot of a vent post i just i want david baszuki to fucking die already i hate it so much i hate him for thinking this was a good idea, im gonna stop ranting now and try and calm down

[bimormondisaster]

Over this weekend I forgot I was just a kid. I got to spend it celebrating my friends wedding, openly using my name and pronouns, wearing rainbow, and in no way hiding myself.

As the weekend wraps up I am repacking everything and slowly taking off my rainbow pins and other pride stuff. When I get home it will go back in my top drawer hiding under a pile of clothes in the back corner.

In the span of 3 days I have forgotten the feeling of entrapment that the closet brings with it. The dread that knots deep in your chest that feels like it’s impossible to be free of.

I have a lot of stories of the weekend, most good, a few bad, most I’ll probably share when I’m not packing.

[jae-ffrey]

—there's something about johnjae that makes me feel... different

[coolocgod]

Alright i haven't made a post in awhile, but im angry about the block tales retcons

Okay at first it was fine, its their story they do what they fucking want, but now their trying to retcon kyoko's fucking existance and add all things to griefer, which pisses me the fuck off, dont get me wrong i like griefer but like WHY KYOKO?! YOU SAW HOW MUCH PEOPLE LOVE HER BUT NOOO WERE JUST GONNA MAKE OURSELVES SEEM FUCKING RACIST AND DIG OURSELVES INTO A GRAVE, IS THAT IT?! DO YOU WANT PEOPLE TO HATE YOU BLOCK TALES DEV?! YOUR ONLY SHOWING YOU ARE PROBABLY FUCKING RACIST, BECAUSE YOU RETCON EVERYTHING ABOUT THE ONLY MAJOR BLACK FEMALE CHARACTER AND GIVE IT ALL TO THE WHITEST FUCKING MAN IN EXISTANCE, im really hoping people in the discord server fucking snap at them and cause them to fucking rewrite all of this because god it pisses me off, i wasn't gonna post anything about the retcons because i had hope but goddd im pissed, but that's mainly it for now

[coolocgod]

Okay im kinda pissed and sad about pretence being scrapped from die of death

Okay so, this was only from the wiki so maybe the glibo person is nicer but

The way they worded this was just, assholey you could've said pretence was a joke SOOO many months ago, why wait until you "scrapped" him to clear it up? like yeah i dont like people harrassing people either and its a dickhole move to do but like, its also kinda your own fault your even in this situation? like glibo buddy, if you wanted people to treat pretence like a joke, you shouldn't have acted like he WAS an upcoming character, you dug yourself your own grave and now so many people are upset at the dod devs because of one stupid decision, but that's just my thoughts sorry this seemed kinda ranty im just upset, but yeah that's mainly it tell me your guy's thoughts-

[coolocgod]

Pre late night post cues i took my adhd meds late today

Yep so uh, a little bit ago i found a comment on the block tales wiki on fear's dialog page and i wanna rant about it soo

Here, so uhh idk where to start with this cues the comment kinda just annoyed me, so imma just say the first thing that annoyed me, kinda the way they described the voices, cues uhh that's kinda offensive? atleast from what i know, they could've just said "he has the typical sword voice" but nope, but uh that sorta just annoyed me, anyways onto what their saying about griefer having no lore at all *AGRESSIVE INHALE* YES HE DOES??? sure he may not have alot of lore but he still explained a little bit more about what the voices actually do, and we also know he was the one who told red and blue to beat up shedletsky so i dont know where they got that from?? also second thing, their treating fear like their the final boss, THEY ARE NOT, YOU EVEN MENTIONED HATRED HERE, HATRED IS JUST AS FLESHED OUT BUT NOOO GOTTA SAY IT ABOUT FEAR, but anyways that's mainly it

[zenmom]

Rant post. Just me complaining about a temporary red flag I got on Twitter.

8 days into having Twitter and I’ve already got this for a reason I don’t freaking know!

I thought this was from tweeting that post where I drew Anxiety in crutches with a cast around her leg.

[zenmom]

Erm….

I love anime. I love Disney’s old stuff before things went way down.

But Disney doing anime?! No way in hell… didn’t they already ruin Star Wars?

What next? Disney owning Anime?! That’s Japan’s territory! If Disney owned Anime, we’d already be in a dystopian world of creativity where you’ll have to pay a shit ton just to do an anime style. Then we’d be locked to doing only indie which sounds already restrictive enough for me.