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My url is pretty self-explanatory.

[tallasianchick]

i am overwhelmed by life. i am sad. i am anxious and terrified about my future. i am unsure. i am depressed.  i am going to find a therapist.

[tallasianchick]

Hey man, be careful, your blog is full of those fishy pictures of ladies. I think that's a virus or something

i saw and changed my password. thanks for looking out! 

[blond-shell]

#every man ever

[tallasianchick]

anxiety

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[transvampirerights]

[thecooler]

[gaypeopletwitter]

[gaypeopletwitter]

[tallasianchick]

Why I don't like the holiday season:

It's that time of year! I should be happy. However, I'm incredibly depressed. I woke up crying. I might be bipolar, but I need a new therapist first. I'm stressed and just want to be alone.

This time of year is quite triggering for me. Fall/winter 2015 was one of the most depressing parts of my life. A boy played with my heart like a toy, but this boy got bored and realized he was too old for this toy so he played with this toy until he told me to get out of the car and officially said it was over. I was in love and had my heart broken; I was devastated. The worst part was he was the first/best/last love of my life. I say last because he was my last monogamous relationship before I discovered non-monogamy (which, to be fair, I've always behaved non-monogamously: thinking about being with other people, borderline cheating on my first boyfriend [different from my first love], and always felt a bit uncomfortable with the thought of being with one person for the rest of my life). I wish no ill will to him at all, in fact, we're still friends. We still talk occasionally and I no longer feel pain whenever I talk to him. I'm healed. BUT for some reason, this time of year brings up good and bad memories about him and I.

I remember going to Portland with my family that winter and they kept saying, "what's wrong with you? Why aren't you happy?" I shrugged it off and just sulked. Family is also a very big trigger during the holidays. I always feel trapped and alone. Same with my brother. That's why we've been gone for the past two Christmases: Palm Springs (2016) and road trip to Mexico (2017). I think we're only here because it'll be our mother's last Christmas here because she flies back to the Philippines on the 31st. So no new year's Eve plans for me either and it'll be my first new year's in the SF. Womp.

Three years later, I'm still a bit off during this time of year. Like I said, a lot of triggers. From family, to heartache, and just general SAD... THIS TIME OF YEAR IS DIFFICULT.

[zdrawz-deactivated20181121]

[scullys]

brooklyn nine-nine 4x13 // the good place 2x11

[beggars-opera]

Everyone reblog this as much as possible over the next two weeks for good luck

[tallasianchick]

new video! 

[chronicallyem]

“Why can’t you just...”

Me:

[tallasianchick]

are disabled memes a thing? i think this is my first disabled-related meme i’ve seen... 

[societykillscreativity]

[hunrry]

[sixpenceee]

I recommend The Haunting of Hill House if you’re looking for something to binge watch this break! Flashing between past and present, a fractured family confronts haunting memories of their old home and the terrifying events that drove them from it.

[tallasianchick]

i just loathed the ending

[yamujiburo]

im here for these two pika boyfriends

[cgoblinqueen]

or someone just forgot to make a heart tail lol. STILL CUTE :V

[yamujiburo]

this is the part in the episode where all the female pikachus are off greeting ash’s. all the pikachus in the background are males including these two lil guys

[raventherogue]

Reblog if your happy for these

Gay Pikachus

[sippyteaevs]

If you’ve heard about the pika boyfriends, you should also hear about…

 :･ﾟ☆Pika Girlfriends :･ﾟ☆