The quarantine has not left me with out a job, but i did left me with out my productivity bonus that i received for extra hours of labor wich i used to pay my debts and cards,and know i cant even do savings. All i had yesterday was some onions on the fridge, today i was able to supply some victuals paying all with my credit card, i dont really know how i would pay everything when the end of the month gets here but know the most important thing is to survive , the death of my father left me debts and funeral expenses and i also had to pay his debts. A few months ago i was so excited because i was going to be able to meet in a few months with my idol at the Mad cool fest y Bst hyde park, know i dont even know how im going to keep up with the upcoming month bills,my salary only alouds me to to pay my rent and what it takes to live independently, but my productivity bonus was what it really helped me with all. My dreams is that this is only a dream,a bad dream, away from my family with out being able to see my mom because of the isolation, thinking at all times all the bad things, and wanting to cry. I hope all this is a bad dream and that when i wake up from it i can truly go back to my fantasy of meeting my inspiration and that it can be something really possible, because if all this continues i will also loose the tickets money because i wont be able to make the trip. 😪
