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This is perfect.

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the one of phil always being in his own world? I think that was Chris? i don't know about another quote lol

yeah that’s the one! i love that quote, and i’m pretty sure i saw it in a google doc where someone had saved his askfm answers

idk if it matters it just bothered me to see it be wrongly credited haha especially as it seemed to be the first time some people were reading it. credit where credit is due folks! but not something to cry over i guess lol

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attaching the ask just bc and i love that quote a lot, too lol

(there’s the thing about dan, too. just bc i don’t know how to cut it properly)

but yeah, if anyone sees this, chris said it not pj. get your dnp history right :D

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and I think it’s important it was Chris who said that bc although he and DnP drifted apart for the reasons we don’t know, at least we know that’s how he felt about them at some point. 

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So PJ had his character’s heart ripped out and carried around in Chris’s suitcase, and now he uses the same trope for a jilted lover?

Nice.

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It’s almost Phil’s birthday and we still don’t know what they gave each other for Christmas. 

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What will happen faster: Javier Fernandez winning his 7th European gold or Phil uploading his goddamn video?

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A month without uploading they come back with a _ _ _

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Idea for Phil’s collab video: Phil Lester vs Justin Trudeau in Who has better socks

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Can you tell more of your thoughts on that interaction? Ofc you dont have to but if you want i'd be interested in hearing them

it felt (to me!!! my opinion. not facts. just to me. no need to rush to tell me i’m wrong) like a moment where phil was either downplaying dan’s feelings or genuinely not understanding them. like yeah i guess it’s sweet that he thinks he and dan are close enough that dan can be his true self when it’s just the two of them but to me it felt a touch dismissive. and also it’s just a little bit of a sad reminder that for all the strides dan’s made he still feels like he maybe doesn’t know himself all that well? or that he feels like he has to mask himself. idk. i mean, it’s not a big deal. we all have different faces for different people. it’s not necessarily a sad thing/a depression thing, it’s just a fact of life. but this moment just stuck out to me as phil simplifying something that is complicated because maybe he didn’t want to think about what it meant that he wasn’t the exception to the rule that dan isn’t one hundred percent authentically himself even when he’s hanging out at home with phil.

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It’s really interesting how different people perceive moments like this in totally different ways! Never ceases to amaze me – and I mean it in a good way. It’s great to exchange opinions – makes you see more in their interactions.

(Wow, I’m not used to writing in English, and I’m struggling here, but I hope I’ll get my thoughts across.)

That moment from their mukbang video also bugged me, but for the opposite reason. I’ve perceived Dan’s comment as hurtful for Phil. Like yeah, this may be how Dan feels, but couldn’t he just stop right there out of compassion? Wouldn’t Phil feel hurt hearing those words? I would. It also made me think that Dan had possibly said things like this more than once, yet Phil chose to let it slide and stayed patient and compassionate. To sum it up, I thought it was a slightly inconsiderate thing to say. Not a fair thing to say either, as Phil has seen Dan at his lowest. And yeah, he doesn’t live in Dan’s head, but I really think he’s seen so many raw moments that it’s not very nice to tell him that Dan is being some “persona” with him.

That was my initial reaction, and I never really gave it a second thought. Now that I think about it, Dan having such thoughts surely doesn’t change his attitude towards Phil, and at the end of the day he’s the same loving, loyal person who cares about Phil’s feelings. He just happens to have these thoughts – and maybe he’s doing the right thing by letting Phil know about them. They could’ve discussed the matter after filming and benefited from doing so – who knows?

Another thing is – and this is my personal opinion – I’m not that bothered about putting on a face for other people. You are you, and your other faces are just an extension of YOU – as long as it is something you are comfortable with. Dan isn’t 100% himself around Phil. So what? Maybe if Phil had to think about it he could also say that he’s not 100% himself around Dan. (Same goes to “real people vs online personas”, “video personas vs live show’s personas” – every persona is REAL and all right, as long as it’s not some uncomfortable acting. But this is a topic for another discussion, I guess :)).

Oh, back to Dan! His feelings are totally valid, and he has the right to voice them, by no means I’m trying to say he should mute them. This also made me think more about Dan in that situation while I was focusing on Phil, and it’s great! This is just my own emotional response to that moment accompanied with some not so important thoughts :)

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other people drawing on Dan vs Phil drawing on Dan

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“If I only had 30 seconds to live, this is how I’d want to live them, looking into your eyes” (Xena to Gabrielle)

I imagine Cas saying it to Dean... 

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Plus to all those beautiful things fandom has already noticed,

I REALLY loved how they filmed the Cas+Jack reunion scene ‘cause you could see blurry Dean at the background. It was Dean+Jack+Cas on one line. 

Dean’s position was intentional, trust me, and so was the camera angle. You couldn’t see Sam’s reaction to Jack+Cas, but you could sorta see Dean’s look. And after Cas+Jack’s hug you could see Dean clenching his fist. Well, that could be Jensen getting bored, but I’m kinda seeing things and I think maybe those were some repressed emotions? :)

Update: Ah, I’ve just read some posts and put two and two together. So in this scene Jack is actually saying out loud things Dean keeps to himself, “I begged for him to come back” and “I missed you so much”, while Dean is standing behind Jack in silence. Jack speaks for himself AND for Dean. 

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First of all, I’m not really confused by this whole Todd/Farah thing, with them flirting, then Farah saying “we’re just friends” and then confessing about making out. I think her words to Tina meant there is no sad love, no drama. They’re just friends with benefits.

Nor am I surprised we’re getting no brotzly. Never thought Max would go there anyways.

But. Remember Max saying there will be more on Dirk’s sexuality in S2? Five more episodes to go, do you think we’ll get anything on that?

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It just struck me.

I saw that post the other day, with Dirk’s line about boring, BORING sex and his facial expression suggesting that, well, he KNOWS something about not so boring sex. And for me it was always about Dirk being either homosexual or heterosexual, and I, personally, preferred to think it was the former, because of, you know, his choice of words sometimes and Max being vague about the matter.

But what if he actually MEANT that sex IS something boring to him? Like “Hey, Todd, your life is full of routine, depression, and boring sex, while there are much more interesting things to do”? That is, what if Dirk’s an asexual?

Then Max’s “I’m not sure he knows, and if he did know, I’m not sure he’d care” could be interpreted as Dirk not feeling sexually attracted to anyone rather than him being gay or bi and OK with that.

For now I see the “gonna be more on this in season 2” thing as someone hitting on Dirk and Dirk not being interested at all. Well, he may be flattered and even romantically involved, but that’s it.

What do you think?

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[kyunspark]

Ari no Saraba, 1994

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Wait, Nagase was also in this, wasn't he? Do you have this dorama?