*fallen angel

[tartagla]

#ABYSSLI  ,  a  canon  divergent  ,  headcanon  based  -  tartaglia  via  genshin  impact  .  UNNIFILATED  WITH  ,  hoyoverse  &&  most  of  the  related  fandom  . as  wished  by  aster  (  she/her  ,  they/them  ,  21+  )

[tartagla]

#ABYSSLI  ,  a  canon  divergent  ,  headcanon  based  -  tartaglia  via  genshin  impact  .  UNNIFILATED  WITH  ,  hoyoverse  &&  most  of  the  related  fandom  . as  wished  by  aster  (  she/her  ,  they/them  ,  21+  )

[tartagla-moved]

[ FAREWELL ]:     a letter written to say goodbye to the recipient, where the writer knows there’s an extremely high chance that they’ll never see each other again.

( yes i know this is an older ask, but I'd love to see what sort of letter Childe would write in this situation to whomever! ^_^ )

THIS  ISN'T  EASY  TO  WRITE  ,  both  because  of  the  topic  at  hand  –  and  because  i  don't  have  a  lot  of  time.  you  know  better  than  most  how  out  of  control  things  are  getting,  in  fact  i  wouldn't  be  surprised  if  you  knew  more  than  most  with  how  many  spy's  you  just  so  happen  to  have  around.

i  have  so  many  that  i  would  love  to  write  to,  but  you  seem  to  be  the  easiest  that  comes  to  mind  …  and  the  one  i  can  trust  with  these  favors  i  have  to  ask.  first,  in  case  things  do  go  wrong  –  i  need  you  to  promise  me  something.  take  care  of  my  family  ,  don't  ..  let  them  know  the  truth  of  what's  happened  unless  you  absolutely  have  to.  keep  them  safe,  hell  ,  get  them  out  of  snezhnaya.  i'll  leave  money  for  them  that  you  can  access.

i  want  them  to  be  as  far  away  from  this  as  they  can  be,  if  i  should  fail  to  keep  them  safe  myself.

secondly  ..  if  you're  able  to  get  your  hands  on  my  vision?  give  it  to  the  traveler  ,  please.  i  know  you  know  about  us  by  now,  and  yes  i  know  how  stupid  it  was  to  allow  myself  to  fall  in  love  with  someone  who  is  seen  as  a  enemy  of  the  fatui  ..  but  i  couldn't  help  it,  not  when  she  made  me  feel  so  normal.

and  lastly  ..

if  i  start  to  be  lead  astray  ..  if  i  can't  be  reeled  back  in?  do  what  you  need  to  do,  arlecchino.  i  trust  your  judgement.

YOURS  TRULY  ,  tartaglia  .

[poswiecenia]

( 🌒 )    IT SAYS NOTHING at first ( not something unusual when it came to it at all , really ) while it listened to the story that ajax spun for it. achilles caring so much for its host isn't unsurprising --- as protective as it expected the legacy to be .. it being sorry was a bit of a surprise.

a welcome one , it supposed. could be worse and not care at all which would pose an even larger issue in the future .. but this too could pose problems. it caring too much for its host and focusing its efforts into protection .. well the effects are night and day.

just LOOK at ajax for one second and those with eyes can see something is different. not that it was hard to tell , really. more abyssal features. their eye more dull and like the ocean depths .. but still it found itself oddly relieved over the changes as well.

THE MORTAL WOULD be dead without these changes. achilles was protective and that's all that mattered.

    ❛   .. FEAR IS GOOD. it keeps you alive. grounded. aware and non - compliant with the order of things. you grew on your own , i gave you the stepping stones to move yourself. you improve and while i am able to teach you more .. i still plan to witness your growth.  ❜  

[tartagla-moved]

❛❛  FEAR  IS  …  NAUSEATING  –  though  that  may  also  be  the  residual  effects  of  using  foul  legacy  .  it  always  seems  to  make  me  feel  sick  for  days  or  weeks  on  end  .   ❜❜  and  they  had  been  in  the  form  for  ..  longer  than  they'd  like  to  remember.  fourty  some  odd  days  in  teyvat  ,  what  felt  like  years  for  them  ..

years  they'd  never  get  back  .

❛❛  SOMETIMES  IT  DOES  NOT  FEEL  like  growth  ,  more  it  feels  like  i  am  stuck  in  the  same  place  unable  to  move  forward  .  there  are  to  many  failures  ,  to  many  things  i  could  have  done  differently   –   even  in  fontaine  .  if  i  hadn't  listened  to  those  dreams  i  wouldn't  have  been  there  ..  ❜❜  but  at  the  same  time  ,  that  means  no  one  would  have  been  fighting  the  whale  ,  keeping  it  in  the  abyss  where  it  belonged  until  someone  else  could  arrive  .

protecting  the  civilians  ..  it's  hard  to  admit  that  their  trauma  was  almost  worth  it  in  the  end  .

[ilcapitanc]

MAKE YOUR CHOICE : reject your rules , or allow me to trigger the paradox . . .

[poswiecenia]

( 🎠 ) THE YOUNGEST DUTIFULLY listens ( something his mama had said was very polite ------ and he wanted to be polite with his brother , as they wanted to talk about something serious ) as ajax continues to speak , continues to outline and try their best to unwrap the confusion that teucer had at the end of explaining up to this point. he wanted to understand --- despite the minor fidgeting that he was beginning to show now --- and remained as focused as a child of under the age of twelve can provide.

MAMA SAID THAT he's a good listener when he wants to be. that he's smart and a little bit too cunning for his age ( it gets him into trouble a lot of the time : but not like the trouble his big brother says that they had gotten into .. he isn't violent 'less his sister is in trouble. even then he'd rather talk it out .. ! ) and , well , said smarts begin to whurr in his head.

PUTTING ALL HE'S concluded together the boys bright blues fall away after a moment of searching his brother's face. he's quiet ( which in itself is terrifying , the boy always had something to say ) as he contemplates.

papa leaves BECAUSE IT HURTS to see his big brother not be ' the same ' as he was before ( a before that the youngest had no concept of .. except some photos on walls at home before whatever happened .. happened ).

mama gets SAD AND DISTANT because some of the same .. and she gets cross with papa for sending him away. those friends of his big brothers that are all dressed super weird were related.

with ajax confirming this .. soldier thing it CLICKS INTO PLACE. uncomfortably. his head hurts. his chest burns but he remains in his brother's lap as he sucks in a heavy breath of air. the lady he had met in liyue wasn't like the soldier's his big brother hung around with -- she made them happy. made mama happy. a good thing in a sea of bad that swam and begun to drown the boy a little bit.

THE LIE HAD fractured .. while hurt he wasn't that angry. perhaps he had known for awhile but .. the lie had been super fun. he got cool toys out of it , candies and all sorts of interesting things. but a lie can only stay such for so long -- now shimmering blues looking up at ajax and sniffed.

❝  .. YOU AREN'T A toymaker are you ..  ❞

[tartagla-moved]

THEY  SHOULD  BE  SURPRISED  at  how  quickly  he  catches  on  –  but  they're  not.  they've  always  known  how  smart  teucer  could  be  when  he  put  his  mind  to  something.  it  doesn't  help  that  uncomfortable  feeling  building  in  their  chest,  that  mix  of  nausea  and  fear  that  was  attempting  to  consume  them.  it  makes  their  breath  come  out  quicker  –  a  pending  panic  beginning  to  arise  at  the  question  at  hand  .

you  aren't  a  toymaker  ,  are  you  ?

despite  the  weeks  worth  of  building  up  their  walls,  knowing  that  when  they  traveled  home  they  were  going  to  tell  him  the  truth  –  it  still  caused  their  breath  to  almost  stall.  it's  why  it  takes  a  moment  to  answer,  a  moment  of  them  taking  in  deep  breaths  to  push  away  the  panic  attack  that  was  sure  to  come  after  this  talk  was  over  –  after  they  were  far  far  away  where  no  one  could  see  them  break  apart  .

❛❛  NO.  I'M  NOT  A  TOYMAKER  …  i'm  –  i  lied  about  what  i  am,  because  ..  i  thought  it  would  protect  you  from  the  truths  of  the  world.  i  admit  it  was  foolish  of  me  …  but  you're  my  little  brother  and  i  wanted  you  to  believe  in  the  good  in  this  world,  rather  than  the  knowledge  that  under  it  all  ..  ❜❜  there's  darkness,  that  tries  so  hard  to  consume  any  ounce  of  light  it  gets  it's  claws  into.  they  hadn't  wanted  that  for  teucer,  wanting  him  to  grow  up  ,  explore  the  world  –  make  friends  ..  be  the  good  that  those  around  him  needed  .

like  the  heroes  in  the  stories  their  father  use  to  tell  them  .

❛❛  YOU  KNOW  OF  THE  TSARITSA  ,  YES  ?  maybe  not  fully  ..  but  mama  and  papa  speak  of  her,  so  does  alyona  ,  and  myself.  our  archon  ,  the  one  who  watches  over  snezhnaya  ?  i'm  one  of  her  harbingers  ..  meaning  i  am  the  head  of  one  of  my  own  divisions.  i  lead  some  agents,  i  train  them  –  and  if  our  lady  asks  me  to  do  something,  i  comply.  ❜❜  no  matter  what  –  all  though  they  always  tried  their  best  to  make  each  mission  given  to  them  go  by  smoothly.

they  may  be  a  monster  ,  but  they  still  wanted  to  protect  the  innocent  and  not  drag  them  into  the  fatui's  affairs  .

[tartagla-moved]

#TARTAGLA  ,  a  canon  divergent  ,  headcanon  based  -  tartaglia  via  genshin  impact  .  UNNIFILATED  WITH  ,  hoyoverse  &&  most  of  the  related  fandom  . as  wished  by  aster  (  she/her  ,  they/them  ,  21+ )

[lannasroleplaymemes]

ANONYMOUSLY TELL ME YOUR HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME. I CAN’T REPLY/COMMENT, JUST PUBLISH.

[poswiecenia]

( 🌙 )    THEY WERE SO strange -- but the power they contained and held within theirself was more fascinating than she'd seen on this planet thus far. sure , gods that walked among their people were cool 'n all but .. one that could harness a negative and encroaching energy and use it to their advantage ? how could she not be curious to know more about it. and them. the man who could use it was fascinating outside of the skills they possessed.

LUMINE'S BROW RAISED as the harbinger offers their hand out for her , following it up with a bow and a question if she should follow. goodness .. if she hadn't already stopped a partial plot of theirs she'd have believed them to be utterly simplistic besides for the .. odd air they wrought with them.

ROLLING HER EYES she chuckles , taking the chance and putting her growing trust in them , taking their hand as she half - curtsied with her dress 'fore laughing lightly.

GIVING A LIGHT squeeze she flashes a smirk , waiting for them to begin leading her.   ❝   I WOULD APPRECIATE it , considering i've no idea which resturaunt you are referring too .. there's so many in the city itself and close to the bank.   ❞

[tartagla-moved]

❛❛  THIS  IS  TRUE  ,  besides  the  one  i  am  talking  about  is  ..  very  lowkey  .  i'm  not  much  for  crowds  .  ❜❜  they  know  how  to  handle  a  crowd  of  course,  know  how  to  put  on  a  mask  like  the  showman  they  are.  however  when  having  their  own  choice,  they'd  always  go  for  someplace  quieter  where  they  can  hear  their  thoughts  and  avoid  stares  from  those  passing  by  .

they  jokingly  (  is  it  really  a  joke  though  ?  )  lean  down  to  press  a  kiss  against  her  knuckles  ,  scrunching  their  nose  playfully  at  her  'fore  standing  to  their  full  height  and  beginning  to  walk  off  towards  the  restaurant  with  her  in  tow  .

IT'S  STRANGE  ,  to  have  people  staring  as  they  walk  by,  but  rather  with  their  normal  look  of  distaste  –  it's  curiously  and  whispers  about  the  hero  who  walks  alongside  them.  part  of  them  almost  feels  pride  at  knowing  that  they  have  her  all  to  themself  that  night  .

an  odd  feeling,  truly  .

❛❛  SO  PRINCESS  ,  are  you  going  to  be  eating  me  out  of  my  mora  tonight,  or  should  i  only  expect  that  to  happen  when  your  little  companion  is  around  ?  ❜❜

[tartagla-moved]

Who was the most influential person in your character's life, and how did that relationship shape who they are today?

SKIRK  ,  despite  knowing  it  for  a  short  amount  of  time  ,,,  skirk  very  quickly  became  the  most  influential  person  in  their  life.  skirk  taught  ajax  basically  all  they  know  about  survival  ,  about  fighting  –  continuing  on  despite  being  exhausted  and  that  was  something  they  needed  to  live  through  the  abyss  at  the  time  &&  continue  through  their  life  when  they  got  back  to  teyvat  .

i  think  skirk  is  also  a  big  reason  that  ajax  isn't  shy  like  they  were  described  to  be  as  a  kid.  i  think  skirk  really  managed  to  push  them  to  be  more  confident  which  up  until  that  point  wasn't  something  they  were  able  to  do  &&  it's  something  they  carry  with  them  now  as  an  adult.  i  also  think  that  skirk  is  one  of  the  reasons  (  maybe  not  the  main  ,  but  still  )  that  ajax  isn't  someone  who  constantly  craves  violence.  being  taught  to  fight  for  survival  vs  for  fun  and  while  they  still  have  a  lot  to  learn  on  that  aspect  of  things  it's  one  of  the  reasons  that  they  are  who  they  are  today.

i  don't  think  its  out  of  bounds  for  me  to  say  that,  without  skirk  ajax  wouldn't  even  be  alive  today.  meeting  skirk  was  something  that  was  needed  and  has  proved  to  be  a  very  important  part  of  ajax's  life  .

[yunarise]

@tartagla

It is a miracle their paths have not crossed sooner. The harbinger should count himself lucky given his crimes against Liyue — a fact that makes his presence before Xiao all the more puzzling. ❝ What do you want, mortal? You're quite bold to seek me out. Are you simply that foolish ❞

[tartagla-moved]

THEY  DON'T  WANT  TO  BE  IN  LIYUE,  they  hadn't  been  back  since  their  failed  mission  –  opting  to  stay  in  snezhnaya  or  even  fontaine  .  though  being  on  a  break  from  duties  to  heal  –  recover  ,  they  had  decided  that  traveling  back  there  couldn't  be  too  bad  ..  hopefully  their  conclusion  wasn't  wrong  .

❛❛  WOULD  YOU  BELIEVE  ME  …  if  i  told  you  that  i  didn't  actually  seek  you  out  –  and  my  luck  seems  to  just  be  that  bad  these  days  ?  ❜❜  there's  that  sheepish  smile  of  theirs,  hand  raising  to  rub  at  their  neck  ..  really  they  didn't  want  to  cause  any  trouble  –  as  fun  as  that  could  be  .

[poswiecenia]

( 🎠 ) OH HE'D SAID something wrong. the shift in his brother's vibe ( did that make any sense ? huh. the kid was very in tune with those sort of things after alll. ) told him enough --- yet before he had time to ask the silent request to pick him up was placed , leaving him to respond immediately and be brought into his brother's arms.

HE LISTENED , A small frown now sitting on the younger's face as shining blues looked out toward the forest ajax spoke about. he'd seen mama go into it every so often with a satchel full of items only to return with nothing. it was weird but he had simply figured it was adult stuff. stuff that he would understand when he was older. he guesses now with what ajax is telling him that .. papa doesn't like him because the woods did something bad to his big brother ?

BUT IF .. IT wasn't his big brother's fault why was papa upset with him still ? it was a super long time ago and .. how is that fair ? teucer seems to slouch a bit , clearly unhappy about something going on in his head to anyone in the outside looking in.

SMALLER HANDS GRIP tighter to the other's coat , getting a lot of answers but having many questions at the same time --- unsure where to start was the biggest problem. he felt that ajax wouldn't lie to him if he asked them seriously , that the answers may hurt but .. it'd be nice to know right ?

❝   UM .. OKAY .. but why does papa still get mad or leave when you show up .. did the sending you away not work ? i don't .. understand.  ❞

[tartagla-moved]

❛❛  ..  IT  DIDN'T  WORK  ,  papa  –  papa  sent  me  to  the  fatui  in  hopes  that  it  would  straighten  me  out  ,  and  i'll  admit  –  he  had  good  reason  .  it  was  a  couple  of  weeks  after  i  had  finally  been  found  again,  and  i  was  trying  to  settle  back  in,  trying  to  go  back  to  normal  –  but  normal  for  me  included  some  kids  ..  bullying  me  .  i  was  a  very  shy  kid  ,  i  didn't  like  to  be  the  center  of  attention,  i  never  fought  back  and  so  that  made  me  an  easy  target  ..  ❜❜

even  now,  speaking  about  their  childhood  wasn't  something  they  found  easy  –  it  hadn't  been  the  best  childhood  ,  between  the  bullying  and  their  family  situation  ..  well,  if  the  truth  got  out  no  one  would  be  surprised  that  they  ran  away  from  home.

❛❛  BUT  ,  AFTER  GOING  MISSING  …  things  changed  .  i  wouldn't  let  them  bully  me  anymore  –  i  didn't  fight  back  at  first,  i  tried  to  avoid  it  but,  after  time  that  resentment,  anger  –  built  up,  and  up  until  the  dam  broke.  i  won't  say  i'm  proud  of  what  i  did,  but  i  won't  say  i  regret  it  either  –  but  the  kids  got  hurt,  and  papa  decided  right  there  and  then  that  i  was  too  dangerous  and  needed  to  be  sent  away  .  ❜❜

THEY  SIGH  SOFTLY  ,  it's  not  that  they  blamed  their  parents  for  what  they  did  either  ,  they  understand  –  at  least  they  do  now.  they  had  been  scared,  scared  that  ajax  would  hurt  them,  hurt  their  siblings  ..  ❛❛  and  the  fatui  was  suppose  to  help  ,  but  –  instead  of  seeing  those  violent  tendencies  as  something  bad,  they  saw  it  as  something  they  could  use  ,  saw  me  as  someone  that  could  be  taught  ,  and  made  into  ..  a  soldier  .  ❜❜

a  weapon  .

❛❛  THAT'S  WHY  PAPA  LEAVES  ,  when  i  come  home  –  because  ..  to  him  i'm  not  who  i  used  to  be.  i  suppose  in  some  way  he's  not  wrong  .  ❜❜

[poswiecenia]

( 🌒 )    ITS GAZE FLICKED downward to the delusion itself , its expression itself just barely changing .. but to one that knew it well enough ( or had spent a decent amount of time with it ) that it wasn't pleased at all. it believed that those of this planet that held visions were not worthy of such powers as most , in its opinion , didn't earn them through skill. the gods of this planet may have use for those that their gaze has fallen upon .. only time would tell all. ajax having one --- and then a delusion on top of it didn't excite it but the boy was an exception.

LIKE FOR MOST things the abyssal weaponsmaster dealt in , ajax was the exception.

    ❛   I SEE. WHAT does it think --- ?  ❜  

IT HUMS IN thought , finally letting go of the boy's chin as it took one more glance over 'fore looking away. it listens further to what they have to say 'fore its gaze returns to them.    ❛   YOU FOUGHT THROUGH pain you didn't know existed. survival was your ally and guide --- even without knowing much about the outside until Master's pet got free but even then you didn't falter.   ❜   it surmised by ajax's use of the covering that they potentially tried and failed to work with it and see .. pity.

THEY WERE STRONG but if their strength had been more abundant it could have saved them from being functionally blind out of it. as power and strength increase , it wonders if the boy could work with the legacy and regain use of it. hm. only time would tell.

  ❛   YOU SURPASSED MY expectations. ❜  

[tartagla-moved]

THEY  KNOW  IT'S  ASKING  about  achilles  –  they  lean  back  some  against  their  hands  thinking  over  the  question  ..  ❛❛  IT  WAS  SORRY  ,  at  first  –  sorry  that  it  could  not  protect  me  sorry  that  it  was  unable  to  help  me  repair  my  eye  .  it's  annoyed  with  the  delusion  now  as  well  ,  though  there  is  not  much  i  can  do  about  that  as  i  am  required  to  have  it.  ❜❜

though  ,  they  have  begun  to  wear  it  less  and  less  since  fontaine  .

❛❛  …THANK  YOU  .  ❜❜   theres  so  many  emotions  that  swirl  through  them  at  their  masters  statement  –  so  many  they're  unable  to  grasp  upon  .  they've  always  wanted  to  make  it  proud   –   wanted  to  surpass  everything  that  it  had  ever  thrown  at  them  in  hopes  that  they  would  truly  live  up  to  being  its  disciple  ..

they  knew  they  still  had  a  long  way  to  go  ,  however.

❛❛  …  I  WAS  TERRIFIED  ,  you  know  ?  it's  been  so  long  since  i  was  that  scared  of  something  .  it  felt  like  being  fourteen  again  meeting  you  for  the  first  time.  alone  and  unsure  of  what  was  going  on  around  me  –  lost  .  i  do  not  think  i  would  have  survived  without  your  teaching –  even  as  long  as  it's  been.  i  remember  them  all  so  clearly  .  ❜❜

[corvus-musings]

Send me "Good boy/girl" for my muse's reaction to your muse saying that to them!

[cosmicsins]

❛❛  the  thought  was  this:  that  all  my  life  had  been  murk  and  depths,  but  i  was  not  apart  of  that  dark  water.  i  was  a  creature  within  it.  a  golden  cage  is  still  just  a  cage  .  ❜❜

A  PRIVATE  &&  SELECTIVE  ,  mixed-media  mumu  –  currently  featuring  COLUMBINA  of  genshin  impact.  a  study  on  those  who  few  who  continue  smiling  no  matter  what  has  been  thrown  at  them  .  as  adored  by  aster  ,  she/they  ,  27,  est  7/27/25

[poswiecenia]

( 🎠 ) THE BOY DIDN'T understand why mama , papa and his big brother all said differing reasons as to why or how he could go outside. why papa had such a look on him when he brought up his big brother and the letters that he'd been sent. it was so .. unfair. confusing.

he DIDN'T LIKE IT at all. looking away he frowns , fingers fiddling with one another as he shifted on the spot. he wanted to argue that even if they went into the woods they came out super strong. at least that's what he can figure anyway --- mama may not look happy a lot but isn't it a good thing that ajax was strong ?

THAT THEY COULD protect their family better ? he had to be missing something if it isn't that simple or .. like he thinks.

SIGHING , ( A LITTLE dramatically mind you ) he kicks at the snow on the ground for a moment before looking back up at his brother and nodding a little bit , relenting within the conversation.  

❝   .. OKAY. SORRY BIG brother .. i didn't wanna upset anyone i just .. i'm bigger now right ? i wanna help more ! you .. the woods helped you get strong didn't they ? i don't .. understand.  ❞ he's really trying though.

[tartagla-moved]

THEY  SIGH  SOFTLY  ,  they're  not  upset  at  him  –  they  can  understand  the  way  that  he's  thinking.  in  his  eyes  all  he  knew  was  his  older  brother  went  into  the  woods  one  day  and  came  out  stronger  than  before.  the  simple  side  of  the  story  –  the  one  without  all  the  trauma  that  laid  behind  it.  he  doesn't  know  about  the  fights,  the  nightmares  –  how  for  the  first  few  years  back  their  mother  had  gone  into  the  woods  looking  for  them  …

because  in  her  eyes  her  child  had  been  taken  and  a  false  one  returned  .

THEY  PAUSE  IN  THEIR  STEPS  ,  reaching  out  to  pick  up  the  younger  .  they  step  over  to  the  nearby  pile  of  firewood  near  their  home  ,  sitting  ontop  of  it  and  placing  him  on  one  of  their  knees.  ❛❛  …  the  wood's  didn't  help  me  ,  not  in  the  way  you  think.  you  only  see  the  side  of  things  that  i  allow  you  to  see,  because  ..  i  want  you  to  keep  your  childhood  alive  and  happy  ,  teucer  .  ❜❜

THEY  LIFT  THEIR  HEAD  to  look  towards  the  woods  again  ,  scanning  the  trees  for  any  sign  of  life  .  ❛❛  …  those  woods,  changed  me  –  and  it  hasn't  always  been  for  the  best.  there's  a  reason  mama  and  papa  sent  me  away  because  the  truth  is  i  was  a  danger  to  a  lot  of  people  ,  i  didn't  know  how  to  deal  with  what  i  went  through  .  ❜❜

they  still  don't

❛❛  AND  I  LASHED  OUT  at  those  around  me,  that's  the  reason  we  don't  want  you  running  away  the  way  you  do.  we  don't  want  you  to  go  through  what  i've  been  through  .  ❜❜

[crimsnwings]

give 'em hell , turn their heads ——— gonna live life 'til we're dead . give me scars , give me pain ——— then they'll say to me , say to me , say to me : there goes a fighter .

by pichu .