So all my life I’ve had an amazingly supportive mum. She always said she would love me no matter what. Even when I was roughly 13/14 she out of no where and said I wouldn’t be surprised if you’ve done stuff with girls. So I guess this is where I should start.
See growing up I always thought boys and girls were both cute. I would get tongue tied around both. I never felt like I was the other girls who I grew up with. They were always so sure in what they want wanted to look like. Who they liked. What they liked. I never found that. I’ve always struggled with my self image. I didn’t fit your girly type of person. I didn’t quite fit in to the tomboy view either. I’ve always just been Jenn.
When I got to high school I felt I needed to be in a box...I liked boys so I was straight. Right? No. Not right. Because I also liked girls. But again that wasn’t fully it. When I felt emotions towards someone it wasn’t because of being a girl or boy. I fell for personality. But there wasn’t a term for it. So I never really said anything about it.
It wasn’t until after high school I started to learn about different types of sexuality. Then I heard about pansexuality. Nothing has ever clicked into place to me before like it did when I could finally put a name to what I feel. It never mattered to me what gender you identified as. If you and I had an emotional connection...I could grow to like you/fall in love regardless of what is between your legs.
I’ve never officially “came out” I’ve always just kinda been me. What does slightly drive me insane is that if I say I’m not straight I get the “well you married a man therefore you’re straight”. No. I fell in love with a genuine soul who I’ve had a connection with like no other. Just because I married to a man does not mean I do not identify as pansexual. All it means is that Matt has every quality I could ever want and we have that emotional connection that I need to feel in order to fall in love.
It is pride month and this is the first time I’m representing my true self. I am pansexual and I am proud 💜🌈
