❛ 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓'𝐒 —— ❜ there’s a scoff , one that’s followed by the 𝐊𝐍𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 of brows & a loud , exaggerated sigh . he wants to laugh in ( frustration ) , feels the urge rise up & lodge in his 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐓 . he’s stupid , he’s ( naive ) : it hurts kazuha in ways he cannot quite comprehend . ❛ ‘cause i like you . like i said , you’re my 𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃 . ❜ perhaps more than a friend ? he 𝐖𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐒 . ( the desire makes him feel guilty —— makes him feel like a bad person . ) ❛ and friends like each other . ❜ but not in the way that kazuha likes him : not in this 𝐏𝐀𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂 concept of unrelenting 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 . [ it pains him , sometimes , that he feels this deeply —— that he feels so little & so much at the same time . ] ❛ you worry about me too much . ❜ but truly , ( can he blame him ? ) kazuha is 𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐔𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒 , his game - plans are always 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐅𝐀𝐔𝐋𝐓 —— not once has he ever received an injury , not in all his time adventuring : not until he met ( asuka ) , not until they started traveling together . & even so he doesn’t blame him , not for the 𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 , not for the wasted time they could have spent being ( elsewhere ) —— time he would use to 𝐅𝐈𝐒𝐇 . ( because any time spent with asuka is time well spent . ) ❛ i like you . a lot . and that’s why i stay . ❜ i love you , no , that’s 𝐓𝐎𝐎 𝐌𝐔𝐂𝐇 .
the pain is 𝐄𝐗𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 & though he attempts to hide it from his companion’s ( all knowing ) gaze he can’t help the 𝐖𝐄𝐓𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 of his eyes —— the way his jaw seems tense . [ he continues on , anyway . ] ❛ i can still walk on a 𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐋𝐄 , it’s not a broken bone . ❜ though it ( feels ) like one . ❛ i think you should be quiet —— i think you need to stop speaking your mind , ❜ lithe digits grasp at the 𝐅𝐀𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐂 that envelopes the other’s form & he pulls him , back to where he’s frozen up —— with 𝐀𝐍𝐗𝐈𝐄𝐓𝐘 , with the pain seeing deep into his very bones .
❛ and —— i think you should kiss me . maybe . ❜
he confuses him so much . he likes him , but he won’t simply allow him to carry him , to remove the problem of his injury entirely . he wants him to speak as to what’s on his mind , but tells him to stop . he actively hurts himself to prove his point , but says that asuka worries too much . ( he worries just as much as he should . )
but his REQUEST catches him off guard .
it’s not that he doesn’t want to . he has daydreamed about it several times in their adventures together . asuka has always wondered how kazuha makes his lips look so soft , how he manages to do everything under some sort of mystic aura that puts him into a daze . no , his shock comes from the fact that he never thought kazuha might feel that way about him . the breath HITCHES in his throat . he’s no good with romance , & he knows it . he doesn’t know how to respond , doesn’t know if he should .
he stares into his expression for a moment , tries to read it as best he can , & his surprise shifts into a smile most tender .
his thumb brushes over kazuha’s lips , settles on the corner of his mouth . ❛ do you ? ❜ like a dog being enticed with a treat , he’s instantly FIXATED on it , forgetting everything else that just occurred . his free hand grasps his hip , pulls it closer .
he pushes his lips into his . asuka never knew he was capable of being so gentle .