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So TB passed away today. No matter how controversial he might have been, he always did his best to make the gaming industry a little bit better for the players as consumers, regardless of how insignificant in the grand scheme of things that might be. Anyway, it felt weird to just read the news and move on, considering how TB and the TGS/Polaris podcast used to be part of my routine and daily life 6 (wow, had to do a double take on this one) years ago. A lot changed in this time, I rarely watch any of them anymore, I had to make a new password because I haven’t used Tumblr in so long, TB battled cancer, Dodger got married and had a baby, and Jesse…is kinda the same, but I’ll always remember the time spent coping with real life by watching some goofs play and talk about videogames. In TB’s case, he’ll live on in my memory every time I see a FoV slider in a PC game.

#Yeah

#Watching the TB memorial podcast #my sadness is slow-creeping and maybe still in shock but it's here #Nice to see everyone look back #and I'm almost alarmed how many of their stories i was a viewer for #leading a parallel life as it all went down #with even some subtle points of influence from participating in a particular font of fandom engagement #as strange as it seems it all runs together #in a butterfly effect kind of way #and #Jesse #if we had known that you wished so hard for some variation on that front #I'm certain someone would have stepped up to the plate :p #This all brings me back around to what I was thinking about way back when #How we all have little mental constructs of each other that we carry around made of our real and imagined impressions of other people #Now i find myself reflecting on the way that carries into passing away and legacy #As per usual i don't have any solid answers on the rumination front #and may well be intellectualizing to soften some emotional impact #but people put accounts of influence together as part of mourning #and i've found myself quietly working on my own

podcastenthusiast

Not my posts but an interesting thought.

#yup

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*grown ass 18+ yo*: “XD”

me: how have you preserved your innocence like this, how have you managed to shield yourself from the overwhelming cruelty and sin of this world

#I have come to understand that it is not the absence of influence but the presence of courage #or spirited apathy that works too #hearty individuals

thejogging

Seven Syllables Of A Haiku Obscured By A Vegan Hotdog, 2014 Alt-Lit ***

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If you have a creative mind, it’s like owning a border collie. You have to give it something to do or it will find something to do, and you will not like the thing it finds to do.

Elizabeth Gilbert

(via gwydderig)

#every dang day

perfectlyfairfoul

#My philosophy classes so far

honestly no fandom drama fazes me anymore. I have been so desensitized. I joined online communities when I was nine and I am now twenty. I have seen everything. several times over. every fandom is the same. every last one. I have seen the same eyes in different people and they’re all going to hell

nihilisticlinguistics

It takes some people years to find them. The ones who are completely indifferent. The one who know that No Fandom Is Different, that we’re all just scrabbling for a reason Why and pasting the blame for the problems on This Group for their Bad Behavior.

Fourteen-year-olds will lecture college graduates on why their fave relationship is canon and why you’re an Immature Little Bitch for disagreeing. Mothers of two kids will harass newbies over having the Wrong Opinions. No one is safe from the Discourse and the Wank, no one but the legendary longtime fans.

They are there to enjoy themselves, and enjoy the presence of those like them. They are nearly impossible to suss out, but once you find one you find everyone like them. Unbothered by the vocal minorities that campaign against certain actors and unruffled by anonymous hate messages, these are the sages, the ones who have gone through so many reincarnations of the same bullshit that they have achieved Enlightenment, and no longer engage in the constant ebb and flow of fan discontent and harassment.

And you will find, once you have found a small haven of these longtime fans, that you are learning from them. You are like them more and more with every day, absorbing their calm distance from the rage of wank and making peace with its inextinguishable presence.

One day, you too will be seated at the top of the mountain, enjoying both canon and fanfiction undisturbed, and a small newcomer with sunglasses and a gray face will approach and ask how you do it. How do you ignore the constant hate and drama?

You will remember the days of ‘your fave is problematic’ and that time you got anon hate for a week straight, and you will shake your head and say, ‘I got over it.’

livinginthequestion

I love this so much. I aspire to this. :)

ykoriana

Me in fandom nowadays:

#The legend written in the second bit has been my experience to a T #I found someone Really Chill and just meditated on their whole angle #finding relaxed and experienced people who have seen most things twice are immeasurably soothing #I don't think I'm 100% there yet but I aspire

one-time-i-dreamt

I ordered Jimmy Johns and it took the delivery man 5 minutes and 1 second to bring me my food and he showed up with a katana and my sandwich and said “I’m so sorry, I’ve gone over my time promise, please, dispose of me, I am worthless” and handed me the katana and I was like “yo what, I don’t care dude, go back to your work it’s fine” and he was like “THEN BOSS WILL DISPOSE OF ME YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND I BROKE THE PROMISE” and then cops showed up and started shooting at him and was like “YOU’RE TOO KIND LADY, HE MUST DIE, ITS A LAW.” and then one cop started swinging the katana at his neck then I woke up

bennyboxx

Source name. Keep forgetting to look at source names

#took me a moment

I look to my history as an internet user and wonder how I’m going to explain it to either the CIA or anyone looking to dig up dirt on me.

#Hand on holy book of choice it made sense at the time #I can still tell the story from beginning to end and have it make sense #it's the out of context bits that look real abstract #If you're wondering I'm reflecting on my cyber footprint because I was looking at old art of mine reblogged to a friend's blog #like feathers on the wind #scribbly little feathers

Dashboard: Look at this forest cottage! It is full of whimsy! I would go to sleep right under the roof and wake to the songs of all my adorable bird friends!

Me: that place is full of fucking spiders

#ME #every damn time #'just go to sleep right on the ground in a sleeping bag' NO #I went camping in one of those things once and the spiders were like peas on two inch stilts #you really had to lift your foot to get the buggers

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someone: good morning!

me: bold statement

#wakin up at early times has done things to the soul

halorvic

Someone expressed interest in having this drawing of Captain Holt as a sticker so I made these little Cheddar ones to go along with him. Just because.

(available here)

#:D