ED Recovery For A Fae

Faye/omi, Level 16, I'm recovering from anorexia, what else can I say...(Pm me of you wish to know my weight, what I eat etc etc or any weight related questions)

[sorisikigai-blog]

I’m split into two parts. I want desperately my boyfriend back but I need some vital adjustments.

I’m fucking done with his “You have to set a deadline for your ED recovery”, “You aren’t trying hard enough”. I understand he wants to see me happy and healthy but there’s a long way to go.

And don’t tell me I’m childish BECAUSE YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I WENT THROUGH THESE 10 YEARS.

Still, I miss him.

[embracingwild]

you shouldn’t feel ashamed of what you’re eating!!! you are allowed to eat foods you enjoy!!! it is important to your health!!!! let yourself be happy!!!

[seasonallydefective]

Gotta keep reminding myself that either things are fine, or they will be fine.

No point in worrying. It’ll all be fine.

[questshunself]

MFW I see someone thinner than me and my eating disorder thoughts get loud:

[oatlattes]

“recovery (noun) in the oxford dictionary

means restoration,

bringing back or gaining control

over something lost

like the rain recovers the grass following

summer drought.

it means the return of things as they were.

gaining air and removing the oxygen debt

one large gulping breath at a time -

that is recovery,

learning how to remove certain trends,

or behaviours, and replace them with older ones

from before:

before the storm;

before the drought.

recovery means the restoration of nourishment

in your body, your mind, your soul

it means hard work.

a challenge. baby steps, relapse, recovery.

recovery (noun) in my dictionary

means restoration,

bringing back or gaining control

over something lost

like hauling your broken body from the dark

and pushing back into the light.”

— recovery, by @historygf

[zenosyneee]

The storm may not be over, my recovery babes… But neither is our lives, either.

Xoxo,

Lara 😙😗😘😚

[runningandrecoveryyy]

I am worthy of happiness

Eating is *not* weak

I don’t deserve to go hungry

I don’t have to punish myself

I don’t have I starve myself

It’s okay to be full

[zenosyneee]

Complications with Anorexia?

I think it is important that this be talked about. Even if its a painful topic, PLEASE if you have anorexia hear me out.

I’m not sure if anyone even reads these things I make, or even the comments I add here and there on certain posts….. does anyone? I get little response if any, but if I can help even one person, I’ll keep doing it.

That being said, I have not been able to afford any medical help for my anorexia, or anything like that. I had to start pulling myself out of the hole of anorexia when my body became so weak and fragile. I had no choice, or it was a state hospital. Now, I see a dietician who weighs me weekly and gives me challenges. I may not be fully recovered, but Ive come far on my own and with the help of a few loved ones.

I had to get a long series of tests done to see how my body was, after my period stopped for over a year

I HAVE SEEN GIRLS on pro ana sites and even here who say they are so glad their period is gone but you’d better hear me out and LEARN

So, in case you werent aware, a woman’s bone mass peaks once a months during her period. Without that peak period, your bones degrade over time. Pile on months of low bone mass and no calcium or minerals coming in, fats and vitamis especially. And what do you know, I have osteopenia. My spine is weak and I am at increased risk for fractures. I used to be a dancer, and a really dedicated one at that.

Do you know how hard it was to watch the nutcracker this holiday with my parents, knowing I couldnt dance like that anymore?

Not to mention, my ultrasounds show that I have multiple cysts on both ovaries from backlogs of missed cycles. This caused high testosterone, seriously bad acne and skin pigmentation and terrible mood swings. Now, If my period returns maybe it can slowly reverse. Maybe if I return to my old weight I will help my bones come back. If not? Well, God knows.

[goodbyestupidana-blog]

Autumn Recoverspo

Being able to drink all your favourite hot drinks, from marshmallowy hot chocolate to pumpkin spice latte

Eating all the pumpkin pie 

Making cute iced autumn cookies

Not having to wear 100 layers to feel warm

Being able to play in piles of leaves

Having a strong immune system to resist colds

Not being worried about slipping over, because your bones are strong

Being in the mood to make funky leaf collages

Being able to wear all the cute and trendy clothes (not children’s!)

Not having people look repulsed at the sight of your bones when you wear leggings

Being able to play in the rain without catching hypothermia

Having enough energy to watch the misty golden sunrise

Enjoying sweet hot fizzy drinks

Smelling of cinnamon instead of sick

Not being stuck on the toilet

No aches, pains or mood swings

Not getting a bad case of lanugo

Being able to go for brisk morning walks without passing out or being hospitalised

Not having a noisy stomach or bad breath

Not getting so much acne

Having a healthy flush

Being able to grow your hair

Not having it fall out, too

Not having your skin go dark and peel

Having good teeth (no rotting, cavities or tooth loss) and you don’t have to go to the dentist’s

Not getting bloating and swelling

Being able to give blood to those in need

Being able to concentrate and think clearly

Having a good general mood (no depression or anxiety)

Not binging because you’re able to eat normally

Not dying

[th3-unt0ld-0n3z]

[positivelypresent]

Feeling anxious about the week ahead? This quote is for you! 💗 http://ift.tt/2wWIBxu

[tryingsobriety]

One day at a time ❣️🌻✌🏼

[stayhungry-stayfree]

Note to self: You do not miss your disorder. You miss having something to cling to that gives you the fleeting feeling that anything is in your control in this life. Lean into the uncertainty. Embrace the flux and flow of life. Trust in your capacity to handle whatever comes your way. You were never in control anyway.

[reasons-for-recovery]

Reason #1050

I want to recover because I’m remembering what being alive feels like

[chibird]

✨Penguin reminder! ✨You all are lovely and special, and I care so much about you all! 💖 I hope this can cheer you or someone else up. : )

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[caolark]

My grandma hugged me like a billion times before she left our house after the holiday. “Keep getting better,” she told me, “you’re getting there.”

My grandma’s not a very emotional person but her words kind of hit me. My family just wants me to get better. None of the people who love me cares one little bit if I’m skinny. No one who cares about me thinks that eating fewer calories makes me strong. They don’t care what I look like or what rules I follow. They believe that I’m worth being healthy.

I wish I could see myself through their eyes.

[sheisrecovering]

The way you speak to yourself matters. Be kind to yourself as you would with a good friend.

[howilearnedtocope]

Things that happen to almost everyone

not knowing what to say

misunderstanding a situation

doing something embarrassing

making mistakes

saying something that’s not interesting

missing the point

feeling insecure

being awkward

having weird quirks

The important thing to realize is that these are not fatal mistakes. They don’t make you unlikeable or unworthy or awful — they just make you human. You’re doing just fine, & the world isn’t going to collapse around you even if you feel like it will! 

[fuzzy-alpaca-on-a-bicycle-deact]

I needed this so much.

[cooksforkisses]

vegan thanksgiving :-)