The End Doesn't Always Justify the Means

Jacen Solo || 28 || Memories Intact

[that-jacen-solo]

misfittcys​:

Mitch raised his brow at Jacen, a playful smirk on his lips. “I refuse to believe that there is nothing to you other than that. You’re just being hard on yourself, I think. Saying that… I’m pretty sure if you asked me about myself I’d be vague and consider myself boring also.” He admitted. “I like to think perhaps I’ve made a new friend?”

Jacen sighed a little, though more at just how pretty Mitch was.  It was unfortunate, though the former sith was quick to shove that thought into the back of his brain.  “Truly, sullen, miserable shell of my former self that’s content watching life from the shadows.  Jacen Solo in a nutshell.  You are also, not boring.  You’ve family to love and care for, a rather fascinating thought process that you’re somehow not friendly, and a habit of showing up in my path.”  He smiled a little before lifting an eyebrow. “You don’t want me for a friend.”

[that-jacen-solo]

misfittcys​:

Mitchell smiled to himself as he caught the brief look of a smile. “I got to know one side of you. I’d like to see the rest of you. If you’d let me.” He sighed, nodding. “Yeah, she didn’t know that we’d died.” Mitch fiddled with his fingers. “It was difficult. I miss my family and friends though, I guess.”

“Ah, then I’ll save you the trouble....what you see currently is what you get.  Unless I’m drunk.  Then I make lots of stupid decisions I beat myself up over later. Though that could be said of all my decisions I suppose.”  Jacen shrugged before opening his eyes to look at the other.  “I’m sure it was.  I’m sorry you had to go through that.  Perhaps the other members of your family and some friends will come through in time?  I’ll hope as much for you at least.”

[that-jacen-solo]

misfittcys​:

Mitch smiled playfully. “Really, I was hoping to see you smile. So I suppose I get half a victory.” He sat beside the other as he looked at him. Nodding softly, he sighed. “I-I uh… I’d like to get to know you while you’re in a lighter mood.” Cheeks flushing a little, he shrugged. “I’m coping.”

Jacen found himself smiling back and quickly looked away, forcing his expression back to neutral.   Even just talking with the other man he had to remind himself why not even friendship should happen with the charming wizard, his arguments unfortunately feeling weak.  “What more is there to know?  You did get the entire breakdown of myself the other night.”  Stretching a bit, he laid his head back and closed his eyes against the sun, his eyebrow quirking “Coping?  Had that chat with your sister?”

[that-jacen-solo]

misfittcys​:

Mitch playfully held up his hands. “I’m not following you, I promise.” He chuckled a little. He was still getting used to the town, trying to figure out where everything was. “You too, Jacen. You certainly seem a little better than last time we spoke!”

“I’d be more than a little surprised if you were.”  Jacen lifted an eyebrow, smiling wryly at the other before shrugging.  “I’m about the same.  But, you’re not catching me in the middle of a discussion of my dark qualities and family issues either, so I’m bound to seem a bit lighter.  How are you doing?”

[that-jacen-solo]

@misfittcys​ || Closed for Mitch

“Can’t say I expected to see you again so soon.” He smiled softly, looking up at Mitch as he approached.   He was sitting on a bench in the park, letting himself relax on a day off.  The parks were a good place to rest and not have to interact with people, though admittedly he was happy to see the other again.  He liked him, even if Jacen knew nothing should come of it.   “It’s good to see you Mitch.”

[that-jacen-solo]

ofcscavengcrs​:

.｡.:*☆"That is my name indeed, yes. Guess that is something this city did not take away from me, then…” She pondered, taking in his words, trying to make sense of them.

“And, I do want to know. This man…. no, wait, there have been two. There was Ani, and…. dunno. Someone older. He seemed to be our friend, even when Ani…. he always talked bad about him. Or was that - has that been only in my dreams?”

“That it did not.  It’s an honor to meet you.”  Jacen smiled a bit at her before listening to her explain what she did know.  

“Admittedly, I only know a little of your story...but from what I do know, Ani would be Anakin Skywalker, who I believe is here as well.  And an Older man....perhaps Obiwan Kenobi? I can’t say for certain, but it sounds right.  Either of them would be more knowledgable.  But I can tell you that you were a leader of the planet Naboo, serving as their Queen and then Senator back in the days of the Republic.  You fought for your people, and were well-beloved.  Anakin was your husband, and you had two children together, though you didn’t live long enough to raise them.”

[that-jacen-solo]

misfittcys​:

Mitch nodded slowly. He couldn’t begin to imagine what the other must go through. “I get why you’re keeping away. It must be hard for you though. Do you not… Miss them?” Perhaps the wrong thing to ask a stranger but he was worried about him. “Maybe they miss you too. Especially if you’re keeping away from the Force as you say.” Mitchell shrugged, not wanting to push too much and have Jacen walk away. “We do use magic, yes. I could show you, if you like? Or I could not, if it’s iffy.” He muttered before clearing his throat. He nodded slowly, understanding why Jacen was keeping away. “Okay.” He mused and offered a small smile. “Well… For what it’s worth…” Mitch cleared his throat, blush tainting his cheeks. “You’re earned my attention, haven’t you?”

Jacen was caught off guard by the question, the loss and loneliness he felt when he thought about his family showing in his expression before he looked down.  “Of course I do.  But that doesn’t matter.  I made my choices, and they’re unforgivable.  And I would choose it again. I don’t think they miss me.  They miss the son and brother I was.  Who I am now...” He shook his head, looking back up at the other as he offered to show him.  Jacen was tempted, but instead shook his head and gave the other a soft smile.  “Maybe next time, if we encounter each other again.”  He nodded, leaving money on the bar for both of their drinks before meeting Mitch’s eyes again at his comment.  “I’m honored to have your attention, but I’m certainly not deserving of it.”  Giving him a smile, he resisted the urge to kiss the other and just moved towards the door.  “Have a good night Mitch.  It’s truly been a pleasure.”

[that-jacen-solo]

@ofcscavengcrs​ || Closed for Leia

He should’ve anticipated that it wouldn’t be long before he encountered his mother in this town, after running into both of his siblings and more recently his father.  Yet he was still surprised, sitting in a cafe with a coffee when Leia was in front of him.  He wasn’t even sure if he should say anything, but with her looking at him and their eyes had met.  Jacen didn’t have a way to disappear into the crowd on this one, so the young man gave her a gentle nod. “Hello...”

[that-jacen-solo]

ofcscavengcrs​:

.｡.:*☆ “Hm…” Bastila frowned at the thought. “There isn’t really much I would look forward to, in that case. This planet is strange, but it is also peaceful, and I do not have to worry about my ass getting handed to me all the time.”

Sure, there were some people she missed. One person in particular. which is why Bastila wished he would be here, as well. “What about you? Anything good waiting for you back home?”

Jacen couldn’t help but smile a bit at her words, but nodded in agreement. “That’s fair.  The peace is nice.  But no, My work is done back home.  There’s nothing back there for me, though it seems most of my family is here.  I’m not...well, not deserving of the peace in truth, but I can’t say I mind Limbo.”

[that-jacen-solo]

@macsmanymuses​ || For Han

Jacen had gone out of his way on several occasions to ensure he didn’t encounter the members of his family that were here.  He’d run into Jaina and Ben on pure accident, and that was how he intended to leave it.  Facing them was one thing, but he knew he’d caused his parents nothing but pain when he’d turned.  No matter his reasoning, he’d been the second son they’d lost, and he’d become a fully realized Sith.  Willingly, and with purpose.  He didn’t want to cause any more hurt, and so it was best if he stayed away.

However, it seemed it was destined not to be, as he rounded a corner and came face to face with his father.  Younger than he remembered, but he didn’t need the Force to know this was Han Solo.  Their eyes met for just a moment, and he knew the other would know as well, meaning he couldn’t try to just...walk off.  “Sorry.  I didn’t mean to run into you.”

[hellofavillain]

[that-jacen-solo]

imperfectmuses‌:

“You should? People are coming back from the dead here? Wow.” Sam shook her head, this town was really strange. “I don’t know much about magic but even I can tell you that it would be a huge problem.”

“Yes.  There’s a lot of us, actually.  It’s strange.”  It was one of the only reasons he was tempted to tap into the Force again, see if it held any answers about this place.  “I’m sure it would, but I’m also sure I’m not the first to try and blow it up, yet nothing has happened.  At this point it’s almost cathartic, to pretend I could somehow be the one to break through.”

[leiasbluelightsaber]

Star Wars Legends - Jacen Solo / Darth Caedus

“The only dark side you need fear, Jacen Solo, is the one in your own heart.”

[that-jacen-solo]

misfittcys‌:

Mitch nodded with a shrug. “That’s true, I’ve always thought that. My family are my everything. Is your… Is your sister here?” He had to ask. “Well… I can understand that. But if you want any help, I’m gonna be here. I’m not exactly normal either.” He made sure nobody was paying attention before pulling his wand out, shyly smiling. “I’m a wizard. We may not be exactly the same but we have to learn control too. Other than that, there’s people called mutants around here who have powers. Maybe they can lend a hand.” Mitchell shook his head. “You don’t have to be lonely any more. You certainly deserve happiness too. I’m here for you.”

Jacen was quiet at the question about his own family, nodding. “She is.  My Parents and older brother are as well.  I’ve just seen them though, I..well, I’m not sure if I plan on speaking to them.”  He gave the other a half-hearted smile. “I’m not the son and brother they loved, so who says they’d want me anymore?  Easier to leave them be to find peace.”  Studying Mitch curiously, he cocked his head at the apparently important stick he held up.  “Wizard?  I can’t say I’ve heard of your kind.  I take it you use magic?   There seems to be multiple titles for that.   But, no.  The Force, it’s....difficult to describe.  It’s connected to everyone and everything, and not many have the ability to control or use it.  I’ve had a very powerful connection to it from a young age, but...after being resurrected, and everything I’d done...I shut myself off, shoved my connection so far away from myself and refuse to acknowledge it so that I don’t have the ability.  I don’t need help, I just...am unworthy to be what I once was.”  Jacen nodded, finishing his drink before looking at Mitch seriously. “You’re a good man Mitch.  Truly. And far kinder than you have any right to be thinking I deserve anything but another death.  But, thank you. I...you’re a very rare sort.”  He blushed a bit, not used to being that blunt with how he thought of people and decided it was time to stand, leave Mitch to his evening and life. “Anyone who earns your attentions is lucky.  I hope you find your happiness soon.”

[shutupblanka]

This is the gift of their twin bond: that neither Jaina nor Jacen is ever truly alone. They share a connection through the Force that will always sustain them. When one grows weak, the other strengthens. When one hurts, the other soothes. It is a bond that cannot be broken by any power in the galaxy, as much a part of them as the Force itself

Jaina and Jacen Solo, most famous teen twins of the galaxy

[that-jacen-solo]

@firewvlker

[that-jacen-solo]

firewvlker‌:

jaina had a million things she wanted to say to jacen, but now that he was actually in front of her, she found herself uncharacteristically at a loss for words. should she apologize ?? maybe, but he’d forced her, it wasn’t like she wanted that. they were all assholes, kinda came with being a solo. ❝ you are, i remember that little trick of yours, i always hated it. i can’t feel you. ❞ she mumbled. even though he was right in front of her and she could reach out and touch him, she still felt the familiar emptiness in the force. their bond had been severed for quite a while, but it was still there, just… hollow. ❝ yeah, i’m still not fully convinced i haven’t just completely lost it finally, but it’s good to see you too. ❞

Jacen was tempted to reach out and take her hand, wanting her to know it was him but he was smart enough to know not to do that.  “I’m here Jaina.  I...you can’t sense me as I’ve shut myself off from the Force.”  She was the first person he’d voiced that to, knowing she of all people would’ve been able to sense that emptiness in him more than anyone.  “You haven’t lost it.  This place is just...strange.”  He was surprised she wanted to talk to him, much less that it was good to see him, but he was glad of it.  His twin had always been the one he was closest to, and she’d ultimately been who he’d let down the most.  He’d had to do what he did, and being Sith had twisted him and everything in his life into nothing but miserable darkness.  “Jaina, I’m sorry. For what I put you though.  It doesn’t fix anything or make up for any of it, I just need you to know it wasn’t ever what I wanted. I’m sorry I failed you.”

[that-jacen-solo]

firewvlker‌:

ben’s lips quirked at his little brother’s surprise. although they’d both fallen, they had separate lives and missions, that kept little time for personal relations. ❝ it’s a bit of an understatement but yes. ❞ out of their family, jacen was the only one that wouldn’t hold a grudge against him for his actions. that made him easier to speak to. ❝ good, i’m not sure i want to relive it all sober. ❞ he admitted with a soft chuckle as he began walking towards the bar. ❝ it’s good to see you again, little brother. ❞ 

once reaching the bar, he ordered a few beers and found an empty booth. taking a long drink, he sighed. ❝ i always figured i’d meet the same end as you, but it didn’t exactly go that way. mom gave her last bit of life-force to reach out to me, so i walked away from the order and kylo ren. she was gone, but i couldn’t let her legacy be destroyed, she put everything into the rebels. the scavenger, rey, do you remember her ?? turns out she’s my dyad and palpatine’s granddaughter, he was also still alive somehow and behind everything that made our lives rubbish, really. she killed him, it killed her, yet i was able to bring her back at the cost of my own life. so, as expected jaina was the last one standing in the family. and now we’re all here but ani, somehow. i think that’s the gist of it. ❞

Jacen moved with him, glad things still felt easy with Ben.  He still held a lot of guilt and hurt over Ben turning, feeling like he should’ve done more or tried to help more after Ani died.   But he’d been in a dark place himself at the time, and he’d had to hold together for the family that did remain, and so he’d ended up failing two brothers.   Which had ultimately made it easier to just, give up and fail everyone.  Might as well.  “It’s good to see you too Ben.  Really.”  He gave the other a slight smile.  “You look better than the last time I saw you.”

Settling into his seat he let the other speak, though he knew some of what happened already.  His time learning about the Force and seeking out the future had given him some glimpses, though he was sad to hear Ben hadn’t survived.  “I didn’t ever interact with Rey...I knew of her but it was before she was awakened in the force that I was killed.  But I’d hoped you’d be able to survive past your return to the Light.  I’m sorry to hear you didn’t.  Though Jaina was always going to last the longest.  Smartest out of us really.”  He smiled a little, very proud of their sister even if he knew she must hate him.  “I’m glad you’ve got a second chance at living, even if this world is strange.”