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thank you for your constructive criticism. unfortunately, i have been sent into a rage which i will not mentally recover from for three years

doomsdayradio

born to be vague and mysterious for attention, cursed to overshare and have zero boundaries. also for attention

sacredfang

the npd experience is saying youre always right and are the best as a JOKE and someone combats it and now youre actually upset

miki-kit

yippeeimmentallyill

griffys

july moodboard

People act like us narcissists are incapable of experiencing empathy, but in reality, I just don't think you deserve it. I am capable of everything. If I wanted to be empathetic towards you, I would.

#actually narcissistic #little npd things

seawanter

(said shakily, through tears) I'm so cool and nonchalant... i handle criticism so well... I don't need to strive to be the best because I'm already the best... I'm the genius of the century... everyone loves me...

I don’t care when people don’t treat me like royalty. We both know I’m better than you. You wish you were me.

#little npd things #NPD

beehive-collective

EXTREMELY torn between "pay attention to me pay attention to me pay attention to me" and "do not perceive me EVER"

i've been telling myself that having low empathy and npd doesnt make me a bad person, but recently i just got a wakeup call from someone that i am abusive. since then i've been hyper-aware of my actions (especially towards my pets) and im starting to see abusive traits. im worried if i have any children i will abuse them. im worried to have any more pets in fear i will abuse them. im trying my best but sometimes i feel like im not doing enough?? any words of advice? sorry this is so specific hah

This is a really tough situation and I can relate. I have a child (2.5 years) and I have two cats (14 and 5 years old). I constantly monitor myself to make sure I don't become abusive to them. Sadly, that hasn't always been the case with my cat that I've had for 14 years (I'm 28 now, I was 14 when I got her). I've done some awful things to her. I've hit her before. I've screamed at her. I've thrown her. I'm disgusted thinking about what I did when I was a teenager. I can't take it back and that HURTS just thinking about what an awful person I used to be. She doesn't seem to remember any of it. She's not mean to me, she's not afraid of me. I try to repent when I can to make up for it, buy her special toys and treats and food. It still bothers me remembering. It was half of my life ago. I recognize that I learned these behaviors from my parents, and I wasn't really in control of myself back then. I try to focus on the fact that I'm better now. Not perfect in that regard...but much better.

My biggest problem is I have really bad anger issues and it's so fucking hard to stop myself from flipping out when I get angry. Before I had my kid I promised myself I would NEVER lay a finger on them. And I haven't. I've never gotten close to it. I don't think I'll ever stop having the kneejerk reaction when I get hurt to want to hurt the person back, but it's not difficult to stop the thought in its tracks before my body responds to it. Kids do things like that often without meaning to. I cant tell you how many times I've gotten stepped on just today, but my only reaction is "OW GET OFF MY LEG" or something along those lines. Bottom line is, I don't want my kid to ever have reason to fear me. I don't want them seeing my anger at my breaking point, and I don't EVER want to accidentally hurt them, physically or emotionally, so if I start feeling out of control I leave the room and have a meltdown by myself. I can't always recognize when I'm getting bad though or doing something wrong. If I realize after the fact I did something mean, I apologize. I sit my kid down and I say, I was mean. I was wrong. I'm sorry.

Healthy relationships are possible. Stopping abusive behavior is possible. The first step on that journey is to recognize which traits and actions are hurting others. You can't always prevent them...but ignoring them won't do any good.

Maybe this whole thing is just me rambling but I'm always open for discussions on the topic and if anything I said helps.....I am glad. If not....I can go more in depth with my process of preventing or making up for specific abusive behaviors. It's a little difficult to try to give advice on keeping yourself from being abusive if I don't know exactly how you find yourself being abusive. Whether it's violence, manipulation, harsh words, etc. They may be similar actions but there are different ways to police each behavior.

Anyway I'll end it here before I ramble any further.