My Thoughts

A safe space where I will put my feelings, thoughts, and short poetry. Please reach out to me if you are feeling down, need to vent, or just want to say hi.

[the-demons-i-hide]

“I used to believe that because I could not picture my future, I wasn’t meant to have one. But now you’re here and now my future holds so much more.”

-11:12am March 24th

[the-demons-i-hide]

“The world moves differently, through my eyes, because you are gone.”

-2:52am January 5th

[the-demons-i-hide]

“You’d know what to say to make me feel better, if only I had the guts to say what I’m feeling.”

-2:18am January 2nd

[the-demons-i-hide]

“I wonder if my name has slipped past your lips since the day we last spoke. I wonder if it left a sour taste.”

-1:10am December 30th

[the-demons-i-hide]

I put my pen to empty paper and I fight to write of love. But the truth is; I am not in love. Love has not entered the vacant halls in this vessel I call a body in what feels like an eternity. I could write about how his skin felt when I kissed it, Or how his eyes shimmered in the sunset, Or how he never said goodbye without embracing my body before his departure. If I were to be honest I'd tell you that I've forgotten all memories of his skin, I can no longer recall the colour of his eyes, Or the warm, soft, goodbyes. So no, I will not write of love because I choose to not write of lies.

2:06am July 25th

[the-demons-i-hide]

It takes every bit of energy in me to repress you from my memory entirely.

1:35am July 15th

[the-demons-i-hide]

The thing I thought would last forever Left so suddenly. And recovery takes so long, I can't wait forever. I can't wait forever knowing it's Without you.

-1:02am July 1st

[the-demons-i-hide]

I've listened to all your favourite songs I've been searching for some signs That you aren't truly gone, Just making your way home.

11:54pm January 17th

[the-demons-i-hide]

I strayed so far when finding myself, Along the way I got lost in someone else.

December 30th 10:52pm

[the-demons-i-hide]

I am great-full our paths crossed. Even if it was for only a year Or only a month or a second. You changed me; all of me. Thank you.

-9:07pm November 2nd.

[the-demons-i-hide]

I've been on this earth long enough and it seems like everyone's got it figured out. But I don't. I still don't know who I am.

-11:23pm August 26th

[the-demons-i-hide]

Although I knew I was nobody special, You made me feel like I owned the world. And that's a feeling I can never have again.

-3:50pm August 24th

[the-demons-i-hide]

When did self-care become selfishness? I'm sorry my absence has caused such a burden. But lately I've been working on me Because who would I be if I only ever focused on you and never took time to learn and grow from my emotions?

1:29am August 3rd.

[the-demons-i-hide]

I miss you so fucking much. Looking back, I think I was in love with you. But now there's nothing I can do.

-2:42am July 17th

[the-demons-i-hide]

If you knew that your words could heal my wounds, You'd never speak another word.

-11:12pm July 10th

[the-demons-i-hide]

Surround yourself with good people to be able to see the world and it’s beauty in all it’s entirety.

12:41am July 6th

[the-demons-i-hide]

When I'm tired all the time and everyday is the same It doesn't feel like I'm living, I'm just taking up space.

-6:31pm June 7th