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The First

I share the thoughts you think,

To be honest I can’t seem to remember a time that I didn’t,

Caught somewhere between a lie and reality,

A mirage of a street filled with broken dreams,

Hopes and wishes all felt dismissed,

Despair, like a beating dog sleeping in your own piss.

Here I go I am back at it again,

Craving attention from a savior as a man broken and wallowing in my own sin,

I just need a…

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Finding Fellowship.

I think one of the big issues of guilt I have is not going to church. Sure I talk a lot of crap about the mechanics of church but wentnit comes down to it I do believe fellowship is important.

I remember when I was younger my mom frantically tried to find us a church and every one we went to seem to be self centered or gave of a feeling of dishonesty.

The sermons would consist of a lot of I’s and…

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Question Everything: Creation.

I have been undergoing a restructuring of my faith the past couple of years or so. I am not losing my faith but I am questioning things I had once believed.

Some might see this as “back sliding” or “losing faith” “being coerced by ‘the devil'” but I just want to know more about the God I believe in, and His existence is something I am not questioning so please read the whole post before…

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Forgiveness, The Faith Killer

Forgiveness, 

“Forgive us as we forgive those who trespass against us.”

Forgiveness,

“Forgive them Father for they know not what they do.”

Forgiveness,

“If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us of our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

Forgiveness,

Why do I keep writing it? Well I don’t know. I was listening to a podcast this morning and the guest was a…

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Dear Reader, Please Read.

This morning I finished my 3rd post The Faith Switch Pt. 3 and I started wondering if I am being too hard on Christianity. Well I think I might be. But I don’t think I should have to apologize for it.

I know people look to the church as their saving grace. I also understand the importance of the church in a healthy Christian faith. The later is something I don’t have and I am not sure I even…

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The Faith Switch Pt. 3?

So I really didn’t plan for this whole “The Faith Switch” series thing and if I had I would have chosen a better name. Because to be honest it is a little stupid and bait clicky, oh well too late now.

Now to sound even more christianese I am going to quote lyrics from a Christian rock band. Sing it if you know it!

“I am losing hope, there is a hole in my heart that has been cut out of stone, Cold…

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The Faith Switch Pt. 2

Check out my new post. It is a personal post on my beliefs and the struggle I have with forgiveness and self esteem.

I have not been a good Christianor person. I think coming to terms with who I am and where my place is in this world of the physical, spiritual and moral is more like coming to terms with the fact I am a horrible person. 

Putting aside for a moment that Jesus heals and saves. I am doomed as a person who has anything to offer this world. That doesn’t mean I don’t try to find my place to fit in, it…

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The Faith Switch,

In my recent search for truth the further away I feel like I am losing my faith I am pulled back to one single thought, “I am loved.”.

I don’t believe I can ever lose faith.. think about it. Faith in this case is knowing in the unseen. I will always know He is real and what was done for me.

“Why am I going through this?”

This question I have asked myself quite a bit. I don’t want to stop…

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I want to define what Christianity is in my eyes, let’s see if I can do this in a way that doesn’t come out condescending or sarcastic: 

We have a God, a creator in of all things regardless of how it was created. He seemed angry with His creation for a long time because we did not go the way He planned or desired for us to go.

After all the screw ups He got tired of being angry and decided we…

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Hello? God?

“On fire for Jesus!”, “WWJD?”, “Moved by the Holy Spirit.” Terms I used in my younger years, I don’t think I could use them now. Not for the sake of using outdated terms or sounding like a youth group leader. I just don’t think the same way anymore.

There was a time I could tell you I felt the Holy Spirit, there were times I would be moved to tears because I swore I head Jesus call out to me. I…

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Update 2017

Well I haven’t posted on here for some time now. I have been kinda busy with life stuff and to be honest I don’t have a whole lot to write about.

I think the hardest part about keeping a blog going is trying to get views and deciding if it is worth your time. Because even though you are doing something that you enjoy it is still taking time out of your day.

That makes it hard really. What little…

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Notebook Updates

Hello readers,

I have been busy perfecting the design and assembly of pocket notebooks that I plan on selling in the future. I just wanted to share some of the progress I have been making.

This was the first attempt and the problem I had here is that the burlap I wanted to use had a plastic backer on it and make the notebook too rigid.

These were my third and forth attempt which worked out…

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Worthless

I could write about the way I feel but at the end of the day there is a person with more likes, a person who can’t come up with original content.

And here I struggle day to day with worry, should I post this poem or maybe lyrics to a song. I try to give people good content to read but lately all I see is people sharing others content and sitting on two thousand followers, but here I am the little…

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Ho Ho How about those Christmas memories?

Gifts are nice right? Christmas and birthdays people ask you what you want and they go out and buy it for you. They wrap it up in paper with a bow or a ribbon and maybe a little note.

It is exciting to say the least. But at the risk of sounding trite, family is more important during these times. To me it is not about the gift or the price but for a brief moment I can make someone smile. It’s also…

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What am I doing here?

Hello!

I have started a course on blogging, a lot of you know (if you have read my posts in the past) that my name is Josh. I am in my 30’s I have a wife and a son and we expecting another boy on the way in May.

The last couple of weeks my blog has been transitioning into something else. I know some people will probably stop following me because I primarily did poems and creative writing.

I would…

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Pre-Christmas Clean Up, Give Away, & Other Fun Things

Pre-Christmas Clean Up, Give Away, & Other Fun Things

Hello Readers!

Just to let you know I am cleaning up old post, I am removing anything with less then 5 likes. 5 likes and up are being removed from public view for now and anything with over 10 likes stays.

Why do you ask?

Well I will be letting you the reader decide what stays and goes from 5 through 9 likes. Don’t worry I am not deleting the poems for good I am just doing so cleaning up. I will…

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