I said yes to plans I didn’t even want to be part of.
I have a bad habit of saying yes to plans that other people propose to me (or just in general) and it stems from a people pleasing part of me that I’ve had for a very long time. Recently a friend and I were talking about possibly having a joint birthday party with our friendgroup. Now I love this friend dearly, and she was the first to bring it up to me during a conversation a few weeks back, and I said smth like “yeah maybe”’ already knowing that I wasn’t totally interested in it.
Fast forward to about a week ago, i had foolishly messaged her asking when she wanted to do it and she said yes but she was on a cruise at that time and wouldnt have stable internet and asked me if I could start planning it early and get an idea with friends. That started the pit in my stomach feeling. Why did I message her asking that?! No one was forcing me to do that. If she had brought it up to me first, i would have most likely said no. Im so mad at myself for saying yes and now here I am planning a party that I don’t even want to attend nor be part of. I’ve been feeling so sad on-and-off for the past couple months and this honestly made things worse. I keep feeling like my boyfriend is upset with me also, and I’ve been an emotional wreck and im scared that he wont want to be with me anymore (im thats dramatic but its how im feeling). He told me that i shouldnt have said yes to those plans and he’s right. Nobody forced me into this
I really want to back out but i feel like it’s too late now and I’d feel so bad. Before my boyfriend left to hangout with his friend today, we had the conversation again around next time me saying ipfront that i dont want to do any joint celebration and he’s right. Just before he was abt to leave today i told him I was sad and im worried he’s gonna think I’m coming off as an emotional manupulating person when that’s not the case.
I’m just exhausted and i feel like crying my eyes out. I almost never want to leave the house nowadays and im feeling so sad. Part of me feels like I should do the party just to be a man of my word. Im also worried that if i dont go, i’ll continue being a hermit and i dont want my friends to think im avoiding them because that’s not the case, i love them dearly.
I like my 'lì'u game' meme-correlating game but it can get a little tediuous and also doesnt help too much with my vocab training lollll. Its more fun than anything. So to get better at my Na'vi vocab Ill do a 'word of the day' or 'lì'u fìtrrä'.
With this Ill pick a random word from one of the Na'vi dictionaries and try to make 2-5 sentences with them. I think that will be mor engaging for my memory and fun to conjure up. Maybe later when I have the motivation, Ill add an illustration to all the scenarios I create using a reblog.
I want to do a similar thing to this using grammar, idioms, and other features of the language to get a more intuitive feel for it, especially when speaking (my speaking has improved a lot!). So maybe ill pick a random chapter in Horen or any other community-made learning resource and make practice sentences using that. And, again, perhaps later draw a quick sketch for them.
(-…MAYBE I didn’t think that through. (lit. “…MAYBE I didn’t think about that result.”)
-Do you ever? (lit. “You never do, yes/no?”)
-The Heryuan clan should meet us here.
-I’m sure they’re watching us already. (TYPO: should be “Furia nerìn fol awngati li oe am’ake ‘efu”; I got so wrapped up in figuring out one part of the sentence that I entirely forgot another, hrh.)
-Because winter is coming, visitors arriving is more and more more rare. They’ll show themselves when they feel ready. We should wait until then.)
Still not totally clear what I’m going to do with the Heryuan design-wise, but I have a concept. Also may be abandoning this “plotline” early, since I’m losing interest in it, whoops.
(-I am hunting today. (I’m) only hunting small prey, to feed one or two families, but this is my first hunt in two weeks.
-Tracking a small animal is harder,
-but a lone hunter can kill them. That isn’t true when hunting sturmbeest.
-There. (lit. “At that place.”)
-Every time that I catch prey makes me feel proud, especially when my (three) viperwolves don’t help.
-To feed the clan is an honor. (lit. “To feed the clan honors me”). (“Your spirit goes with Eywa, your body stays behind to become part of the People.”) I try not to forget that.)
Back to plotless content for Na’vi practice, as promised
so, the third panel there: Jake doesn't forget what day it is, he just has no idea how to express "May 28th" in Na'vi, so he switches to English.
The Na'vi of course don't traditionally use the 12-month calendar we have here on Earth. However, there is a way to express such dates in the language...mostly, I suspect, for the convenience of us nerdy fans who want to talk about our humany matters in Na'vi lol, but I believe the in-universe explanation is that they learned about it from Grace and only really use the terms if they need to talk in sky people timetables for whatever reason.
Because it's a borrowed concept, the terms are quite literal descriptions: "month" is vospxì, which is short for vosìpxì zìsìtä, literally meaning "one-twelfth of a year". To name specific months, you just add their number: May is therefore vospxìmrr, essentially "one-twelfth-of-the-year number five".
As for the day, that's actually a little trickier because Na'vi counts in base 8, not base 10. Instead of thinking of this number as two-tens-plus-eight like we do, they'd think of it as three-eights-plus-four: pxevosìng. Unless you're very good at math (which I am not lol), these decimal-to-octal conversions can be really hard to keep track of/calculate on the fly even before you try to start applying the Na'vi vocabulary!
All that to say, "May 28th" in Na'vi would be something along the lines of trr apxevosìve vospxìmrrä - 28th day of May, or most literally, "28th day of one-twelfth-of-the-year number 5".
...yeah, I don't blame Jake for just switching back to English for this 😅
on a much smaller note, I am not 100% certain that the adverb nìpxi can be used in this sense of "exactly/precisely", but I asked around among some other speakers and they generally agree that it's the best option available so I'm gonna roll with it. If it turns out to be wrong, well, I can always fall back on the "it's Jake" excuse lol
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