[nixscriptum]

[theaestheticofsound]

Also, got the news today one of my superiors wants to put me in a position that i dread. It's hard not to see it as a punishment.

So i'm left wondering whether it was meant like that, or if it genuinely was just meant to make me better at handling certain stuff.

So i've been down all evening despite the lovely afternoon, because now i'm frightened for my job stability, and my future.

[theaestheticofsound]

Went running with him two days ago. He picked me up with his car, we ran 10.5km together. Lovely view, chatting in the mean time.

Eating some ice cream afterwards.

Then driving back, promises of repeating the experience.

And then today, an invitation to grab a coffee after work - only for a coworker to join us. Pretty sure it wasn't meant to be an open invitation for everyone, but it was nice enough.

Hope it doesn't get repeated, because i'm selfish like that.

[theaestheticofsound]

Lost.

I'm so so lost.

Day off, still left the house and then kept loitering around an area where I knew he would pass by after work. Wasn't sure what I was hoping for - sat out of his view, but then he showed up and I ran after him. He was too fast, so he really never noticed me. But at least I got to see him today! Even from afar.

Next time should be Tuesday, which feels ages away.

But it really is not, and I'm worried that my mood is this dependent on him. Found out about a concept named Limerence. Pretty sure that this is what it is.

[theaestheticofsound]

I am so fucking doomed.

Went out last night with a couple colleagues to go and see a musical; whole idea was mine so i planned everything.

Five of us.

Sat next to me, sometimes whispered some comment to me. Bought our drinks, then said he wouldn't mind if i swapped our glasses if they had been mixed up AFTER he and i both drank from our respective glasses.

The others left for the garage - two of them driving, the third one being dropped off by one of them. I was going to walk home, he took his bike.

As we walked outside: "it's only a quarter to ten! We should go out for a beer!"

... "Well i will not say No to that!!... Or a wine."

Went to the restaurant next door. Ordered some wine. Asked me if I wanted a whole bottle; made it seem like a joke but maybe if I had pushed it?

So 45 minutes of us slowly sipping or wine, looking into each other's eyes, telling stories, and talking about dreams. While also being dressed very nicely for the theatre.

I'm pretty sure we gave off a pretty ... Strong impression of someone on a date?

It wasn't even that intense in the moment, just really really nice.

But now that i thought about it some more... Huh.

So that actually happened.

[nixscriptum]

[a-fandom-loving-rat-here]

there is nothing more beautiful than humanity.

Okay, sure, I may be crying.

But the fact that we, as humans, could launch four people into space to fly around the moon and land back? Had the science in the first place to send people out of the atmosphere of our own Blue Marble?

And how beautiful it all is. I usually act like I hate everything, I'm a very jaded and negative person by nature, but I love life. I love space travel. I love science. I love humans.

life is beautiful. I'm glad to be here to experience it.

[eyestrain-addict]

[without-ado]

Crescent Earth and the Far Side of the Moon l Artemis Ⅱ

[nixscriptum]

[theaestheticofsound]

Sometimes the crush is getting better. Other times I feel devastated not being able to talk to him.

I think i should be seeing him tomorrow.

7:30 sharp, as always.

Me on the right side, and him on the left.

I hope to hear about his weekend. I hope he did something fun.

I hope I get to see him more tomorrow than in the past week. And I also hope to see him a lot on Tuesday.

Let's see how that'll work out, shall we?

[backfliips]

A lot of people on twitter wanted me to explain how I draw expressions, so here you go

Unless you're drawing explicit realism, in my opinion, expressions should be exaggerated to some degree. If you aren't doing a 1:1 recreation, the point is to get the FEELING across. Try making the expression you want to draw and feeling how your face pinches and stretches.

Skin doesn't just "disappear" when your face moves it around --- that's where wrinkles come from! Pay attention to where your skin creases when you emote, and use it to your benefit. It's a fine line between overdoing it and underdoing it -- find your own balance.

Ultimately, every expression has a little bit of push and pull, unless your face is completely neutral (and even then, there are still some wrinkles...). Learning to think of expressions as actions and reactions is VERY helpful in learning to draw them without needing a reference, and in learning how to stylize and push expressions based on references as well!

I think a lot of people end up with stiff or unexpressive emotions in their art because they're just trying to recreate a picture instead of understanding WHY and HOW the face is moving --- and it's a tough thing that takes a while to really pick up and learn. Hopefully is helpful in showing a way of thinking about it that can influence your process and approach to emotions!!!

Also, bonus: even without the lines, the planes alone still show a LOT of emotion.

[theaestheticofsound]

Went on a coffee date with him today.

Well, "date".

He'd mentioned having coffee at that one café when it was warmer (i thought summer).

Then later stopped for coffee on our way home, he payed, walked to a bench in the sun, and then talked until the sun was gone (only 30minute ish).

Went until we had to go separate ways. We both got off our bikes to finish the conversation.

Huh.

[prettydumbloverboy]

Actually, people are good by nature and you’re a fool if you think otherwise.

[prettydumbloverboy]

When you sneeze in public, strangers will say “bless you”, even though they don’t know you.

When you ask for directions on the street someone will show you the way, even though they have nothing to gain from it.

People squeeze their legs against the chair so you don’t have to hop over them on your way to your seat in the theatre, and make funny faces to make babies laugh, and purposefully step on leaves to hear them scrunch, and hold the door open for someone leaving behind them, and ask what floor you’re heading to when you enter the elevator, and send others photos of things that reminded them of them, and recommend each other songs, and ask if anyone else wants a coffee because they’re getting one, and make videos teaching how to sew a button, and wish on shooting stars, and share fun facts, and listen to others rant about things they don’t even understand, and let you cross the street first, and give a bit of their food to others, and laugh at jokes they don’t find funny to make you feel good, and listen to kids talk for hours about nonsense, and let you know your keys fell from your pocket, and they may be strangers, but with every little gesture they’re saying “I love you, I love you, I love you”.

[phinarei]

God, I needed to read this today. Humanity is overwhelmingly full of hope and kindness and it’s very easy to forget that these days.

[starkid2464]

I will always choose to believe that there is more good in this world than I can ever know.

[louisarmpits]

Stardew valley socks. Knit by me, pattern by oakwoodknits

[natalyajjohnson]

i pray the new year shows you just how strong you were back then, and how much more powerful you are now. i pray the new year teaches you how to love yourself to the fullest. i pray the new year grants you everything you've ever wanted. i pray the new year allows you to prosper. i pray the new year gives you the healing you need. i pray the new year shows you what you're capable of. i pray the new year is kind to you, and shows you grace. i pray the new year reminds you how blessed you're about to be, because everything you've hoped for and prayed for, it's already yours.

[theaestheticofsound]

Okay extremely funny post bc i've been reblogging a bunch of stuff lately because my crush on a certain person has flared up after they texted me

They called me today. And said stuff that upset me quite a lot, and they weren't even aware of it. 💀

Just being inconsiderate af and not even noticing it.

I think the crush is gone (for now) - until I eventually see them again and maybe repeat the cycle.