The Angry Tech

  “How embarrassing to be human.”  -Kurt Vonnegut

[theangrytech]

What Makes a Good Tech Go Bad?

I was one of these techs. I am reflecting a year and a half later. A year and a half of being distanced from the pharmacy. I left because I knew I had to. I left for my sake. For the sake of my patients. For the sake of my coworkers. I left not just because I graduated with a 4-year degree in something unrelated and more profitable. I left for personal reasons that affected by professional judgement. 

I left because I had become a bad tech. I loved my job. I loved most of my patients and the people I worked with. However, I dropped my moral compass and it shattered.

[theangrytech]

Resignation

How do all of you imagine quitting your jobs? It’s coming up for me. My final days at the pharmacy and as a technician are coming to an end.

I was thinking something along these lines...

[Pharmacy Manager]:

Up yours; I’m done on [date].

The one and only, [The Angry Tech]

[theangrytech]

My Thoughts and Nihilism

Listen, I need out of this profession. Right? As the days drag by and as I spiral further down an existential crisis I start to realize that nothing in this world matters. I go to work, and it all feels like life is a game. It fees like a grind. Like the world is materialized just outside of my field of vision. Like the people around me are not capable of critical thought.

My world view is crumbling around me. My moral compass is busted. I stand in the pharmacy, once a child prodigy, with the ability to be unquestionably intelligent. I chose to exert my effort in the confines of computer science, and expend the rest on creativity and philosophy. I stand with one other technician who shares my IQ (if not way over me) and we agree that what we have is a gift and a curse. When we talk often the other technicians and pharmacists cannot follow our conversation. They do not want to contribute. They do not want to think. I suppose they do say ignorance is bliss.

The curse is I always end up in this nihilistic cycle. Nothing I do matters. The curse for him is that society restricts us based on class, resources, and social norms. We both, during our shifts, philosophize about p-zombies and how we perceive the world. I wish those discussions would help, but we just feed each other’s view and as a result we further isolate ourselves from the others through our thinking.

Now, trust me, you don’t want a healthcare professional in this mindset. I wish I could tell you that it scares me, but it does’t. Nothing matters. I still try to do the highest quality work I can, but to me that’s nothing but an act.

I realize the need to get out and quickly. My mental health depends on it.

[theangrytech]

GRE Help?!

Any of you take the GREs and can any of you point me in the right direction of some nice prep materials?

Thanks,

TheAngryTech

[theangrytech]

Graduation

Woah, it’s been a while since I’ve been here. I graduated in May with my Computer Science degree (my four year!)... Aaaaaand I can’t find a job for the life of me. Work cut hours. My social life doesn’t exist anymore because work tried to kill me with hours while I went to school. Now that I’m graduated, they don’t need me anymore? How convenient. Feels like all they wanted to do was set me up to fail, and now that I’m actually out on my own I feel giving me three days a week is just another way to set me up to fail. Fuck this company. Fuck this job. These people. These patients. This manager. I’m done as soon as I find another job... Software engineering, even with the degree, is so hard to get into for some reason. I just want to make a decent salary.

Regardless, my time as TheAngryTech is coming to an end. I will have taken away many memories and experience from my six years in the pharmacy. I’ll still be around to reflect I think... I don’t know yet. I wish I had someone to bounce ideas off of.

[theangrytech]

"Obamacare"

Them: My copay was never that high before.

Me: Your copay must have increased..?

Them: Damn that obamacare.

Alternatively: -scoff- Damn Obamacare!

And the other situation:

Me: It'll be -whatever $$$-

Them: It's​ lower than before, hurhurrr, go Trump.

Me: HAAAA, no really just fucking give the money so it can go in the fucking till idgaf about your copay

No one at the presidential level is telling you to pay $###.## for your drugs. Greedy companies do that.

[pharmacyprobz]

Found out today that someone complained–in person and unjokingly–that our pharmacy staff is “too young” and “too smiley.”

1) Oh, cool, apparently age discrimination is okay when it’s against young people.

2) Sry you’re miserable at your job and we’re not and you’re jealy.

[theangrytech]

Lmao what

[theangrytech]

Orthostatic Tremors

I’ve been dark for a while I feel. It’s been busy. I’ve been trying to retire as TheAngryTech as my last days of college are (hopefully) upon me.

Now, I’m reaching out to help a friend and colleague who was diagnosed with something called Orthostatic Tremor. He doesn’t have a GoFundMe, he doesn’t want personalized attention, or any of that. He simply wants to get the word out about these chronic and (so far) untreatable conditions.

He was interviewed by our major cities paper, which reveals appalling treatment of his employment. He wants to work, but the company won’t let him.

To do so he has started a wordpress blog titled “Imagine Being Able to Walk but Not Stand” where he hopes to spread word about his illness and help others.

Please share if it’s not inconvenient. He’s trying to reach out anywhere and everywhere.

https://www.facebook.com/matthew.pezzone

https://mpezzoneot.com/

[theangrytech]

A Break (From Work)

Told my manager I was taking 18 credit hours and that I will be taking leave from work or resigning. Her response "do you think you can work just weekends?" Uh, no how about you shove your new policies, your hours, and your workload straight up your ass. Ever since we got this new manager she's turned the place upside down. Only the numbers matter and most of my co-workers I've spoken to feel talked down on. I'm over it. I wonder if she realizes it's her fault 50% of the staff left.

[theangrytech]

Pharmacy Community: Are You Ready?

For the absolute shit storm that will make up the next two days? I am! ... Not!

[theangrytech]

I Am a...

Capricorn. I WILL succeed.

[theangrytech]

The Ceiling

I stare at it all night. Finals are around the corner and I still can't wake up from Stats at nine. It's coming down to this last week and these sleepless nights. To napping in my car for an hour between classes. Shit, I used to sleep in my car. The things I've done, the bridges I've burned, and the money I've invested to get this far. I just want this degree. I just want to finally get out of this impoverished land. And I just want to live and have a family. Is that too much for this millennial to ask?

[theangrytech]

Will I Remember?

Will I remember this shithole ten years from now? I hope I still wouldn't be living in it. But would I remember driving home from class at night on a desolate 4 lane road? Will I remember the business signs and lights? Will I remember looking out my driver's side window and seeing the remains of a broken and crumbled industry? Of driving through lifeless neighborhoods where every third lot is abandoned? Will I remember sleepless nights, staring at a starry sky, and leaving work tired and drained after a twelve hour day on a cold night just to gaze to the moon? Will I remember that? Part of me hopes not. But the other part hopes I do, so I can remember where the fuck I came from and the work I put in to leave.

[theangrytech]

AMA

I've tried this before, but they never take off. I have a little more people following me than last time though, so please ask me anything! It's open to anonymous as well if you prefer. I also love interacting with followers and just about anybody, don't be shy!

[theangrytech]

You totally answered my question. Thank you!! 😁😁😁

Glad I could help!The Angry Tech

[theangrytech]

Semester Advice Please?

This semester sucks, I need advice on waking up at a decent time or going to bed at a decent time. Preferably both. I can't sleep, even if I drown in alcohol, benadryl, or melatonin. I can't make it to Stats in the morning or function before noon. I feel like I'm in serious trouble here.

[laurenthepharmacytech]

It’s happened. I will be starting my new job on the 14th. I’m so excited. The sad news is that this blog will officially be ending. I wish only the best for the pharmacy community on here, and I look forward to reading all of your stories.

Goodbye

[theangrytech]

Best of luck Lauren! The pharmacy community endures so much as a whole. We were happy have you with us.

It's nice to see someone moving forward!