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TISSAIA and YENNEFER smiling at each other ( for @thegirl20 )
I still think Moana deserved an Oscar for this part
Bark Ruffalo ❤ (from the at BAFTAs 2024 :))
Dog passes out candy on Halloween
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Genuine friendship progressing naturally to an idiot4idiot crush Percabeth nation we stay winning
cunt dykeula. is this anything.
Japanese stage play 'Dracula: The Musical' with its all-female cast. In particular, Wao Yoka as Dracula.
She is serving.
#sometimes i question my identity yknow #then i see an image and it just #i go 'oh damn. im GAY gay'
I love that this can still be read accurately by a lesbian or a gay male.
Happy Out Of Touch Thursday
Once in a timeline, out of touch remix plays, and we have to thank the tumblr gods it this to go on for so long
SIUAN SANCHE + tattoos
"Our team worked with an artist to build a language of tattoos that Tairens add to through life. Siuan’s back is the “Fingers of the Dragon” delta where she grew up. Siuan has a number of tattoos that match up with her dad’s because of the life story they share, but also new ones from her life after she left. You can follow the tattoos to see her story." - Rafe Judkins on twitter
Reeve Carney (with Eva Noblezada) leaving the Hadestown stage for the final time [x]
I love how they had him leave with Eva🥺
i feel like i had a massive breakthrough with understanding in hindsight how adhd has affected my relationship with art, and i sat there for about an hour just like
I wanted to expand on this a bit and see if it resonated with any other artists. I do wanna preface, all of this is subjective and just me considering my own experiences. I'm not an expert on ADHD.
A huge part of ADHD, as most people who have it know, is executive dysfunction - which leads to procrastination. To cut several studies short, it basically boils down to a difficulty in regulating emotions around tasks, time management, prioritization, initiation, etc. Its why its so difficult to just get up and do the dishes when you realize it needs doing.
Because this causes us to let people down, struggle to meet deadlines, or overwhelm ourselves with TASK BUILDUP, it all sort of preemptively burdens you with feelings of guilt, shame, and stress when you have a task that needs to be done. Yes, doing the dishes isn't actually THAT hard, but its never about the difficulty of the task. Just the emotions that have difficulty being regulated around completing it.
Most people get "the good brain feelings" when they successfully complete a task like this. ADHD people rarely do, because its a matter of brute force; so no reward, and even less of an incentive to do it. The reward function in our brains is wired differently.
And that's where distractability comes in.
Yes, people who struggle with procrastination may put off priority tasks, but most of the time they're not just sitting idle. They'll start deep cleaning a room, organizing drawers, catching up on other things that fell to the wayside (thanks to procrastination whoops). I can't claim to know how the ADHD brain works or the intricacies involved. But I get most things done when I'm procrastinating doing something else important. For some reason, unlike just brute forcing the priority task, the distractions (or "branch tasks" I like to call them) do actually give me the good brain feelings. Is it masking the shame of being unable to complete the big task by completing other low-priority tasks in the meantime? Maybe.
So what does this have to do with art?
For a lot of us, myself included, we started drawing in school. Usually during class. When we had very important priority tasks to focus on. But you know what's better than learning about Henry VIII? Drawing in the margins of your schoolbook. Art sort of began as a distraction, or "branch task" for when I struggled to complete homework, or pay attention in class. It made me feel good in an environment where I otherwise felt like a failure.
Moving into college, coursework became the priority task for 2 years. That's when I started my webcomic, and oh boy did I draw a LOT. Probably because I was procrastinating on writing essays that were due the next day. It was always "I'll just finish colouring this page and THEN I'll start my essay".
When I left college and decided to become a freelance artist, I noticed it wassssss a lot harder to get pages done on a weekly basis. I started falling behind. I started getting bogged down with feelings of guilt and stress and shame for letting down readers, for not drawing enough, for - oh fuck you see what happened, art became "the priority task". Its no longer a "branch task" while I avoid something more important. It BECAME the important thing, and took on the burden of my executive dysfunction's shame and guilt. And whether I want to or not, my brain is desperately trying to drag me away from these negative feelings.
In my case, at least, I think that's why it's been difficult to pick up a pen and draw for the last few years. I finished a contract with [REDACTED BECAUSE NDA], and the entire time I was working with them (unmedicated mind you), I was like "wow i JUST want to work on my webcomic again" (it crept back into "branch task" territory). The second I finished my contract? Boom, all motivation gone. Priority task territory again. Can't have that.
Do I have an answer for this to repair my relationship with art? Not yet. Not really. There are a lot of other factors as well, not just this. But it's something I've been thinking about lately.
There's a really helpful technique I think a lot of ADHD people start using where you do 'circular procrastination'; turning all tasks into branch tasks and eliminating priority tasks entirely.
Work on comic/fic while procrastinating an email, email to put off cleaning, clean while procrastinating having to go the the shop, go to the shops to procrastinate on an essay, do the essay to avoid making a phonecall, the phonecall is suddenly appealing when procrastinating working on the comic.
By sidechaining enough procrastination and avoiding guilt and shame entirely, it's possible to get a lot done in a day... unless you get side tracked doing totally irrelevant shit which does happen.
The best format is to have three equally important tasks and just keep branch tasking around in a circle.
I would commit unspeakable acts to get the chance to play Persephone in Hadestown. Literally my dream role I would promise my hypothetical firstborn to be her.
REEVE CARNEY’S ORPHEUS TURNED AROUND FOR EVA NOBLEZADA’S EURYDICE ONE FINAL TIME AND THE LIGHT SHONE A SECOND LONGER SO EVA COULD LOOK TO THE AUDIENCE AND SMILE. WHAT LINGERS IN THE CYCLE IS SOMETHING SO SWEET. SOMETHING SO SWEET AND REAL WILL ALWAYS SHATTER THE TRAGEDY LOOP.
You never actually get over what happened to you six years ago! Just saw that a musical announced its closing for September 3rd and immediately was sent into a minute-long flashback of the last few weeks of Natasha, Pierre, and the Great Comet of 1812
Eva Noblezada’s Final Curtain Call for Hadestown - 13/8/2023 [x]