Sorry I started sobbing uncontrollably when you expressed the slightest concern for my lack of human connection, and casually mentioned you think I deserve better than a life of isolation and loneliness. Super weird. Not sure what was up with that lol. You still think I’m cool and mysterious and sexy, right?
im not "blackmailing you" okay i am casually reminding you of information that i have about you that i could hypothetically give to another person to negatively impact your life as a way of getting you to do what i want you to do. thats not blackmail ok we're just having a conversation. im just talking
i feel like this mindset is way more common than i want it to be especially in this fandom (you know the one i mean...) so just to make it clear, if you're someone who thinks literally the concept itself of ethnicity is overblown or unnecessary to acknowledge, we have beef
OKAY ATTEMPT 2 3 4 5. Tumblr if you kill this I'm gonna lose it. Please do not eat my post again.
Thank you for the tag @ladyshivs 🧡 passing it to @musicismymoirail @payloadofgeckos @thecryptidenthusiast
It's time to toot your own horn and find appreciation for your own writing by posting your personal favourite sentences/lines/quotes/paragraphs of your fanfics or original fiction. choose as many works as you'd like, (preferably they're already published somewhere but it's fine if you've never posted your writing but want to take part in the tag!)and let yourself (and others!) fawn over your literary talent! the goal of this is to read your old writing and find things that you love and are still proud of weeks or months or even years later!
This was very hard lmao not just because tumblr killed the first version on me and then subsequent drafts 😅 my memory is not great and certainly not directed towards recalling words I've written. Also i chronically never finish anything. And don't post creative stuff online anymore so enjoy zero context snippets lol all under the cut cause its long AF. To make it a little easier I kept to recent works (ie within the last year so I had something to pull from)
Also disclaimer that Akari goes by they/them, most of these predate that literally and narrativly/in universe as well
@-hollow-hearted Yooooo did anyone see that @A-Kaji was in the hospital today? #KaiKari baby when, ammiright?
@kaikari-fancaps It's about time! Maybe now all the haters will finally realize they're really dating and will stfu
@-freak4freak She has put on weight recently…
@cryptid-fucker07 There's no fucking way. She doesn't even hold his hand when they're out together, how they FUCK do you think he'd get her pregnant? We all know it's just some weird publicity thing so fans don't hit on her, get over yourself. She probably had a physical, like @-freak4freak said, she's put on a noticeable amount of weight these last few months
@-orbiting-jupiter fans be fucking normal challenge level impossible. Smh just leave her alone, it isn't that hard. She had a doctors appointment, who cares? And its good she put on weight, she was way to skinny before, y'all just aren't ready for actually healthy human bodies
@-musicisloveandlife okay tryhard, just admit you want to suck her off or something, we're just speculating, it's literally harmless
@hotfourhusband she's not pregnant you dunce, didn't you pay any attention in biology? She's obviously gotten comfortable with her status and she's letting herself go
@day-jobing 100% this. She's just gotten complaint and lazy with fame and isn't putting the work into herself anymore. Maybe now Kai will finally leave her dumb ass…
@-fr-ee-ky yes!!! Open up your eyes @K_bomi you deserve so much better King <3
"FUCK OFF AND GO TO FUCKING HELL!"
There's a harsh snap as she pitches her phone across the empty space, ricocheting off the floor once before skidding to a halt against the far wall.
She's back on her feet immediately, chest heaving from rapid, jagged breaths. Too quiet. Gotta have noise, something to replace the thoughts. The stage laptop is still on, neglected and forgotten after last night's show, a shake of the mouse brings it back to life, and a few quick clicks gets the speakers shaking with the first playlist she finds.
"Fucking assholes," she tears a hand through her hair as she paces behind the bar. "Get a fucking life and stay the fuck out of mine." The fridge shakes as she rips the door open, grabbing a bottle of orange juice, throwing it back in one shot and lobbing the empty bottle into the bin. "I get it. I fucking get it! I'm a self-centered, un-affectionate bitch who doesn't deserve her boyfriend. Thank you for fucking reminding me."
This is an ADL one. Akari's always had a certain amount of attention they gather from fans and "fans" alike, its an interesting dynamic to play around with for me. I had a lot of fun building the comment section and adding in the speculation and jabs that keep coming back during Akari's spiral until they hit the point of no return. This is long as it is but I definitely could've pulled more to hit the switch between knocking back OJ to fill an action to actual booze as they bottomed out and relapsed.
....but we're almost at the hospital so it'll be okay."
A shiver ran down Akari's spine. Cold spreading further over her as his words sank in. Where she was. Where they were going.
"No thanks."
Kai let out a dry laugh, "Sorry gorgeous, no choice on this one. Your bones sticking out of your fucking leg."
Same fic as above but aftermath. I like the difference between the immediate before, Akari waking of hazy and confused but immediately going for checking in on Kai before asking the what and where ("why ya crying, baby?") then into the steady dry remarks of both of them trying to hold it together here for very different reasons.
"Hows…," she didn't know what to ask or how to ask it. Seven hated this. She didn't know how to help. Or what was allowed in the rules she'd set herself. Or what wouldn't make Akari feel worse then they already did, which was also partly her fault. "….how're you holding up?"
"I'm wet."
"Besides that," Seven couldn't help the smile that crept onto her face as she rolled her eyes. Any little sign of their normal self felt like a life raft right now. She'll happily take the sarcasm and playful bite over seeing them like this. "How's the hurt?"
Infamous hurt/comfort with Akari and Seven. Everyone's having a bad time, Akari's hurting and Sev is trapped in a mental hell loop trying to help. Again with the dry Akari bite back to cope, Seven made them shower and now they have pain (ouch) and pain (sensory hell of being wet)
Gravity took hold of the towel as Seven abandoned it to grab a new one, low chuckle rumbling in her throat as she tossed it over their head. "Sopping wet beast," she teased as she mussed them up, rubbing the towel over their hair without much care towards whatever tangles she was creating and would inevitably have to coax them into allowing her to brush out later. Quickness was the priority. That and the way she could hear them huff and bite back giggles of their own.
Same fic as above again, a breif break for a little silly lighthearted banter. Even after 3 years it can still be easy sometimes provides nobodys overthinking it. Honourable mention to shortly after where Seven continues teasing them on the state of their hair agter the breakup lol "should tell Paige just to fucking shear you," she snickered, placing another kiss on their cheek. "Like a sheep."
The news station that broke the story of her alleged affair with Victoria sticks in her mind, not about the cheating but about her music. "Covering for bad music." She rolls the phrase around a few more times in repetition, trying to unstick the thought from her head. Was her music that bad? Probably. Wouldn't surprise her.
"Wanted to quit when Sev left. Should've. Done myself and everyone else a favour." She swallows a lump in her throat. At least she isn't shaking any more, the flask bringing her back to a comfortable existence. "She was the better one. Writer, singer. I can dance and play guitar," she scoffs. "Very replaceable." It was something she became acutely aware of after the vote. They did it so easily. Just business after all. Which means it was only a matter of time before they realized she was shit and kicked her out to. Every little fuck-up became a noose tightening around her neck, with nothing to do but wait for the floor to drop.
Im rewriting Relapse. I am. Ignore that I never finished it but im going to rewrite it if I do anything. But this is from chapter 1 and I do like it. Really knocks out Akari's feelings towards their band and how they're doing in the aftermath of the vote very efficiently imo.
Seven crosses her arms, shuffling her feet and starring intently at the table. "You can't keep doing this to me, Kaji." Akari can try to pretend that the use of her surname doesn't sting, especially after Seven had said her name earlier.
She stares. It's all she can do. What is happening? Seven brings her here, forces her into the shower, orders her food and then berates her? The fuck kind of mind game is this? Then again, Seven did go out of her way after the split to fuck with her head. Multiple times.
"Doing what? You brought me here!" It comes out a little sharper then intended but at this point? She's tired. Tired of this back and forth she hates her she tolerates her that Seven has been perpetuating since week two. It's exhausting. "You're confusing me," the truth. Honest and spoken in a whisper, the only way she could admit it.
For the second time tonight, Seven moves all too fast. Except this time shes grabbing at the front of her hoodie and pulling her into a kiss. Messy and desperate and just how Akari remembers.
Relapse chapter 2. It was said on the tumblr that Seven could very well be the assertive one and I for one am into that. Seven knows what she wants and she hates it but she misses and wants just as bad as Akari does. I like the whole kiss scene a lot, and the little mini Akari breakdown afterwards. But this part is enjoy. Seven trying to talk herslef out of it, using Akari's surname again before going all in and taking the leap
So for some reason that I do not comprehend, the one below this wouldn't save or post if I put it indented like this. But its my favourite so it isn't getting cut. Infamous again, set a year and a half/two years post breakup, Akari's doing secret solo gigs in bars to get by. I dont write fight scenes very often but I heard Don't Stop the Devil by Dead Posey and the mental amv was so strong I had to write it. Was super fun to build everything around the lyrics and puzzle it all out. Probably the fastest I've ever written anything
It took approximately 23 seconds for Akari to throw her guitar aside, bark at Rowan to stay, and sprint across the stage, sliding down to shove the woman back, nailing her with her fist the second she had enough room.
The speakers continued playing the song, scratchy and quiet, not meant to be without a vocal accompaniment. The crowd parted, backing away as the nights entertainment kicked off a brawl.
I like the games we play
Akari's fist took hold of the front of her shirt, holding her upright as she pulled back and drove her fist into her face a second time, fanged grin splitting her face as cartilage crunched under the contact.
She swung to her right as a pressure tightened on her shoulder, shaking off the guy who'd grabbed her. Both hands shot out to thrust into his chest, she followed as she pushed him back, landing a punch to his gut, doubling him over. She spun on her heel, turning around just in time to take a right hook to the jaw, curtsy of the blonde.
When you're inside my veins
Akari hissed, shaking her head as she spurred herself forward, aiming for a blow for a blow, hands up and ready. Right before she could pull back, a sharp pain pierced the back of her head. She tried to move away, put some distance between herself and the offender, only to be pulled back again. One of the girls friends had a death grip on her hair, yanking her away and towards the stage again.
She grit her teeth, jerking her head away and out of their grasp, twisting herself around to take hold of their bangs, bringing their head down agaisnt the edge of the stage.
Cause a little good don't stop the devil
If I go up in flames
Then just put me away
The guy from before whipped her around, clocking her dead on. Akari's vision blurred as the second punch hit, blood tainting the inside of her mouth, intimately aware of a steady trail dripping down her face.
Cause a little good don't stop the devil
Akari screamed, ramming herself into him and sending them both tumbling to the floor. Catching her surroundings, she threw punch after punch, knuckles staining red.
Soul buyer
I'm spittin' fire
Arms wrapped around her, looped around her shoulders and chest, hauling her off and back up.
"No shit! Ray, you weren't kidding, she's stacked under all this!"
Only your touch gonna get me wild
Akari contorted her neck, bending over to bite the hand within reach. She clamped her jaw down with as much force as she can muster, capped canines sinking into the meat of her palm until she tasted blood stronger then before.
Say I'm not a sinner
But you make me a liar
The woman cursed, spitting profanity and insult towards Akari before jamming her hand in her mouth. An opportunity Akari seized to uppercut her, driving her hand deeper into her mouth. The woman staggered back, Arm going slack at her side as she gagged, "couldn't just take a compliment and a simple offer to enjoy some quality company," she spit out a tooth, "you think you're better then me but this just proves you aren't worth shit."
I like the games we play
When you're inside my veins
Akari pulled back, chest heaving and jaw clenched tight.
Cause a little good don't stop the devil
She swung her fist forward, adrenaline rushing through her veins setting her on fire.
If I go up in flames
Then just put me away
The punch connected, the woman let out a strangled grunt as she crumpled to the floor. Satisfaction lit up Akari's nerves, bright and consuming. How long had it been since she'd been in a fight? It felt so good, made her feel alive. Only thing left to parallel performing.
A crack rang out in her ears, quickly followed by a sharp pain along the side of her head. The blonde stood before her, the neck of a shattered bourbon bottle clutched in her hand. Akari's head pounded, pain striking across her neck like lightning.
She leaped forward, surprising the blonde with the fact she was still standing, throwing herself into her to push her up agsisnt the stage, hand firmly holding her down by the neck. The room spun as Akari hauled back, ready to finish this and call it a night.
Cause a little good don't stop the devil
Her fist reached its apex, coiled back, muscles tense and ready to release, but the downswing never came. Her arm was caught, used as leverage to yank her back. Akari stumbled along the backwards momentum, unsteady on her feet as it was she went crashing to the ground. The woman was still kicking, apparently Akari wasn't the only one who didn't go down easy.
She loomed overtop of her, straddling Akari's waist, face bruised and bleeding, expression unmistakable for anything other then seething.
Cause a little good don't stop the devil
Her punches hit hard, each landing on Akari with devastating accuracy and force unfit for someone who'd just had the shit kicked out of them in Akari's opinion. Everything hurt, her body screamed blaring red alarm bells, it hurt to breathe, hurt to exist, she felt like she was gonna be sick.
She struggled under the woman's increasingly handsy grasp, unable to bring her arm up to take a swing. She thrashed her legs, increasing desperation taking hold to get her the fuck out of here taking full control. The womans hand wandered higher, Akari's breath hitched, stomach churning with nausea and hot iron rage. Her next kick yielded results, knee catching the woman in the groin, grip on her loosened. The weight of her on Akari's lower body gave her enough of an anchor to thrust herself upwards, bashing her head into the woman's own, the crown of her head connecting with her already broken nose.
Free again, Akari gathered all of her strength, right hand locked and loaded without a trace of hesitation.
A little good don't stop the devil
Three hits later, Akari was convinced she was staying down this time.
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