The Darkness Inside Of Me

Lost Soul/ PTSD/ Broken

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Salty fucking tears.

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Actually, I haven’t been doing very well lately.

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This mood when I feel my dried tears on my cheeks and I neither want to live nor die.

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Every time everything gets better, it gets worse.

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That moment when you lie in bed and realize that you have no one to talk to.

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My heart is pounding and my thoughts are circling. Life gives me anxiety.

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Sometimes silence is worse.

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I thought I was doing better.

But then there was that one comment.

By a stranger.

And now I’m reliving all the traumatic feelings. The rape. The kidnapping. Everything.

Drowning. Just drowning by myself.

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So scared of dying.

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All I wanted was you to be mine. Now you’re mine and all I feel is anxiety.

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Just kill me right now.

[floral-souls]

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It’s all messy: the hair, the bed, the words, the heart. Life.

Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

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Feeling so broken.

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Please stop breaking my heart over and over again.