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“Payno, my boy, one of my best friends, my brother.”

started thinking about zayn, going on his first tour in less than a week, losing the one he last shared this with ten years ago . then i started thinking about louis, who’s strength and optimism is being pushed once again after losing his mum, sister and now brother. thinking of harry who also lost friends in similar circumstances . and niall, who was the last of the boys to see him, as his friend came to support him and sing the words they sang together back at him . thinking about them together . how they protected each other the best they could from the start . none of them deserves any of this

tiredandlonelymuse

i loved one direction with an all-consuming force when i was younger. it hurts deeply to mourn someone you were a massive fan of as teenager, and became a peer of as an adult.

i know people change and grief is unsure or complicated when it’s attached to a fond memory or the feeling a person gave you and not tangibly the person themself. i can see many of you on here are struggling with that right now and i understand.

a few years ago i purchased a home that Liam previously owned. there were rumors the house was haunted. He assured me it was not, and i believed him. because i know the ghosts that haunt us aren’t tethered to buildings. They live in parts of us that are harder to reach and they go wherever we do.

as a parent, a fellow artist, and a fan, i simply cannot fathom this untimely loss. my heart goes out to his family, friends, and the fans. 💔

bradshawsbitch

I’m sorry the former 1d girly in me needs to take a fucking moment… what do you mean liam payne just fucking died? like… please say sike? what the fuck is going on

dhaaruni

I used to watch and rewatch the One Direction video diaries from the X-Factor since they distracted me from my teen angst, and it's just so surreal that Liam is gone