My Happy Ending

Just a person who is very done with life and all the pain that comes with it. This is a vent blog- I’m severely depressed (pretending I’m not each day), very insecure, mentally broken, a complete waste of space. One day I will end my life, I’m just trying to survive for as long as I can living in this hell.

[theend-game]

Always the outcast who is left alone.

[theend-game]

The source of my anger, the ghosts of my past.

To everyone who walked away when my sadness became too much for them.

After years of convincing me to continue living to save themselves the pain of losing me..

And then they just fuck off out of my life.

Fuck all of you.

At least you understand now why I don't want to exist in my presence

[i-will-recover-tomorrow]

[theend-game]

I'm so fucked.

My head is so fucked.

I don't know what to do.

[theend-game]

It's almost impressive that only a few days after an OD, I've already convinced people I'm okay so they'll back off and I can try again😂

[trainsandpaperplanes]

not me reading suicide notes online to make sure I'm not "doing it wrong"

like it's literally your own suicide and you're worrying about it not meeting expectations???

[theend-game]

If everything goes to plan, in 24 hours this pain will be over and I'll be free from the shackles of life.

Please let it go to plan, I don't want to do this anymore.

[theend-game]

The genuine fucking joy I felt when locating an old hidden pack of blades is something I'm struggling to fully comprehend right now..

Relief here I come

[porcelainbunniies]

i don't feel well and i'd really like to hurt myself

[theend-game]

I'm feeling a 2am danger walk coming on..

Will I be back home in an hour a little more drunk or

Will I be hanging from a tree by sunrise?

Let's fuck around and find out🙃

[theend-game]

I can’t sleep.

So I did some yoga, still can’t sleep.

Decided to have a hot drink, still can’t sleep.

So it’s to slice myself until I’m unconscious.

[theend-game]

Nothing is ever as satisfying as the first cut of a new, sharp blade.

[theend-game]

I’m so done with everything.

I just want the pain to end now, please help me end this pain.

[theend-game]

The weight of all of this is dragging me down, filling my feet with lead and my eyes with tears.

Fuck everything about breathing right now.

[foxlungz]

If I ever kill myself just know I tried my fucking best and please forgive me

[unmedicated-momma]

[theend-game]

Back to secretly slicing myself in the toilets before anything I do, always keeping my rope with me just in case I plummet.

Fuck this is too much.