The Life Of An Enigma...

This is my second blog. This has more of my sayings, stories, etc. This goes into depth as life an an art form. I tend to talk about things people don't want to talk about or don't think about. These are my ideas and what I'm feeling. If you agree with them, that's cool. If you don't, no one is forcing you to stay. I hope at least one person can appreciate what I have to say. Hit that follow button. 😃

[theenigmaticsupremebeing]

You will always be ostracized for being an individual; for being different. But the rewards are greater than the hate.

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5/3 - “Yet ANOTHER Hashtag. We Shouldn’t Be Surprised”

I don’t get the luxury of being a lone wolf. I must be held accountable for my people’s actions or perceived actions. Is this what being my brother’s keeper entails? I’ve always been my brother’s keeper and have had to fight the good fight for my brothers. But the fucked up thing is I feel compelled to do this, even though I know that some of my brothers won’t even defend me. They’d let me take the bullet first so they won’t have to. But to you whom this may apply to, let me ask you this; when I am no longer here to protect you, who will?

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5/3 - “Understanding”

I don't think God wanted me to leave here without any stones unturned. It's easy to judge someone from the outside looking in, but you have no idea how they are managing to suffer through the storm until you have actually suffered though it yourself. I’ve had my misjudgments. I've had my feelings. I've had my opinions. I've caught myself reacting because I tend to strongly feel what my friends have been feeling. I'm an empath. That’s what we do. I feel what others are feeling and project that onto my inner thoughts. I guess that's my downfall. I can't help it. It is a blessing and a curse and I will not apologize for it. But as a flawed human who knows herself and knows the human condition, I know when I have to reevaluate my thoughts before I let them consume me. That is why I try to hear both sides of an argument. We each have our own truth that the other person may not see, but it we speak it, we can make sense of it.

However, if we continuously go off of one sided stories that feed off of people's feelings and anger, we can never get anywhere as a society. And as it is apparently evident, this is why the world is in the catastrophic state that it is in. Wars, corrupt, inept, and selfish leaders, greed, division - all things that further divide us when now is the time we need to be closer to each other more than ever. We have lost the concept of humanity and understanding and replaced it with our own perverted selfishness and pride. We're not willing to admit when we are at fault. We're not willing to understand someone else we do not know or agree with. We're not willing to hear another person's story because it has nothing to do with our own lives. We are taught to fear or hate others who are not like us.

Communication, understanding, harmony, peace, and love can save us not just from damnation, but from ourselves. Communication is the key to understanding. Understanding is the the key to harmony. Harmony is the ultimate way to achieve piece. Peace is what we need in this world. Trying to keep up with the craziness of life, we forget to love one another. That is a trait many people don't have, or they claim they do; but it is superficial. Love is not something that can be taught; it is something that you must find within yourself. And once you find that within yourself and we all find that in ourselves, peace can be achieved.

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9/16 "I'm starting to feel less of myself and more at one with the universe. This is a good sign."

I’m slowly gaining consciousness, I think. I’m in a perpetual state of limbo between lost and found, trying to understand things; trying to discover myself. I need to not be afraid of the unknown anymore. If I can be sane after all I’ve been through, I must be ever so blessed. I am a child of the most High and I need to tap into what He wants me to do; what my life’s purpose or calling is. I think the Angels are trying to speak to me. I’ve been seeing signs, mainly in the form of numbers, especially yesterday and in the wee hours. Repeating numbers all in the same day? Someone is trying to get my attention and tell me something. I learned over the summer that my feeling different, there was a reason. My questioning of things, there was a reason. And soon after that, those signs started coming. I’m not going to lie, I fell back in a dormant state, but now those signs are too strong to ignore. I’ve spent many days restless, confused, angry, and in despair trying to figure out what I’m going to do with my life, figuring out what I’m good at. What is my purpose? I feel like I’m here to help someone. I just don’t know how. I’m good at being in tune with others feelings, catching vibes, and giving messages. I have a rhythmic ear. I’m caring and empathetic. I just have to find a way to meld my talents to produce an outcome that could potentially save, and shed some light on the darkness. I think this may be the breakthrough I needed. I need to keep going because I have only begun. The journey has just begun. Wake up and pay attention, T.

[theenigmaticsupremebeing]

Not here for it...

I am not here to fit your mold. Don't be mad that I don't fit into your stereotype.

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Sometimes the journey is more important than the destination. A pic I took at an abandoned train track in Queens I never knew existed. Sometimes you just gotta explore new things. If you want to use the photo, you can. Just give me credit. @theenigmaticsupremebeing aka @truemystique

[theenigmaticsupremebeing]

Because, fuck conformity.

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A rant that I had a long time ago. I still find it very true.

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Just open your eyes. -theenigmaticsupremebeing aka truemystique

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If all of the greatest ideas have been taken, be even greater and come up with something better or different. Then, people will idolize you.

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It's cool if you don't want to listen, but I'm gonna speak anyway.

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Freedom is rarely free.

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This is a speech for whomever is willing to listen...

I’m constantly trying to find a source of happiness in this place of hell. I don’t fit in. I constantly feel like I have no one in my corner, though I do have friends. I constantly feel like the way my life as I see it has turned out, is my fault. I don’t belong anywhere. I have no one. People always say that you should turn a negative into a positive. Here’s what I think:

I think, better yet, I KNOW that I am society’s misfit. I choose to call myself that because I REFUSE to be society’s bitch! I say that because I will not conform myself to what society “thinks” I should be. That is just not me. Society made me the autonomous person that I am. I just don’t like restrictions and I don’t like it when people - especially people that I do not know - try to tell me how I should live my life. I am not a statistic, nor am I a stereotype. Words such as “ghetto”, “hood rat”, “slacker”, or any of the sort do not define who I am.

I am intelligent and some people see me as a threat. Am I a threat? I guess so. But I am not threatening. I am a woman with a mind of my own. I don’t want to have to depend on anyone for anything. That is how you become dependent, submissive, and eventually entrapped. I refuse to be that way. I want to get my own. If I want it, I’ll fight for it.

People try to put you in a box; they try to limit you. And if you choose to break free, they will find other ways to try to entrap you, to limit you. I have a mind of my own and no one can take that away from me.

I just wish that more people can respect creativity, differences, and intelligence instead of straying away from it. People don’t respect it because they don’t understand it; they are afraid. They are fearful of what that person can do. They are afraid that that one person can disturb the status quo of things. They know, if this person prevails, one day, they can be in control. Some people can’t handle that change. So, they will try, at any cost, to slow down or irradiate completely the threat.

I just want to say that I know what this “system” is trying to do, but you can’t bring me down without a fight. I can see past it. I don’t live in your world, I live in mine and how I choose to live in it is my prerogative.

Message complete. |*TrueMystique - Her Supreme Enigma*|

[theenigmaticsupremebeing]

You are your own master. You can, too, be a mastermind.

If nobody understands you, I do. I know what it's like to be ignored and shunned. I know what it feels like to constantly be judged because you believe in something different.

[theenigmaticsupremebeing]

I try to find the beauty in things otherwise chaotic, and try my best to explain the unexplainable.

Myself