The Quiet One

Esme Larson. Eighteen. Student.

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itselisabethmoore​:

“That is not true.” Beth stated, refusing to believe her friend as she talked herself down, “You are one of the brightest people I know..” She added with a faint smile. “I mean, maybe not in those exact words, but then again I was surprised when he said no, you know? Like.. I even told him if it was the other way around I would not even have had to think about it because I’d just be honored to.” She told her with a slight smile. “No I don’t. Sam is honestly a lot more than what I deserve.”

“Beth, listen to me for a second.” Esme replied, reaching over to give her best friend’s hand a squeeze. “You are the most smart and beautiful person I know. You are kind and you go out of your way to help people. I wouldn’t have gotten through the last year without you. Anyone you are dating should be honored to be with you, and they definitely shouldn’t be coming up with excuses not to meet your parents. You don’t deserve excuses Beth, you deserve someone who just does things to make you happy. Sam doesn’t deserve you, because nobody does.” 

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itselisabethmoore​:

Beth knitted her brows together, “Screwing things up how?” She asked her out of curiosity. Feeling a bit worries for her friend as it was clear something was up. “Yeah I tried telling him that as well, that like they wouldn’t judge him or anything, but like he just seemed to refuse to believe it and it just made me question if he actually still cares about me you know? Or if he is in it for the long run or if this has been a mistake all together..”

“I always make the wrong choice or do the wrong thing.” Esme explained knowing that is how she has felt for the better part of a year now.  “Did you try explaining it to him that way? Because if he knows it’s important to you and still doesn’t want to do it than that kind of makes him a jerk and you definitely deserve better. And it will be good you figured that out before things go too far.”

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itselisabethmoore​:

 “Well lucky for you, I am a good listener and complicated never stopped that.” she tried to reassure her should she want to talk about it. She didn’t want to push her on the subject as she figured she would tell her when she was ready. “Yeah.. I know..” she said. They had been going out for a while, which was why she figured it would have been an easy yes from him. “He um.. I don’t know he just think they are going to judge him, not thinking he is good enough for me and I tried to explain to him that they aren’t bad just because they believe in Jesus..” She attempted to explain.

“I just feel like I screwed everything in my life up and I’m still just screwing it all up.” Esme replied with a small sigh. It seemed everything she touched fell apart these days. “That sounds like a bad excuse honestly. Your parents are good people. I mean they’ve practically adopted me for most holidays at this point. If he doesn’t want to meet them it is his loss, and you deserve better than that. If it’s important to you Sam should want to do it to make you happy.” 

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itselisabethmoore​:

“Tell me.” Beth said, adjusting herself to face her more on the bed as she wanted to be there for her friend when she could. “Oh um.. Just my parents are in town and they wanted to meet Sam, but he doesn’t want to and it is just making me overthink things.” She admitted with a shrug, still not sure wether or not she was reading into it.

“I wouldn’t know where to start, it’s all a big complicated.” Esme replied with a shrug. She’d been hiding things from Beth for months and she didn’t know how her friend would react. “Why didn’t he want to meet them? You guys have been together for a while now. It seems kind of dumb to me that he wouldn’t. Did he at least give you a reason?”

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itselisabethmoore​:

Elisabeth’s slime fainted slightly when she said she had been better, “What’s wrong? Are you okay?” She asked her a bit worried. Beth chewed on the inside of her mouth before shrugging, “I am okay..” She settled for, “I mean I am fine, but I don’t know.. I think I am just over analyzing things.” She shrugged as she moved over to sit next to her on the bed.

“It’s kind of a long story.” Esme replied, letting out a small sigh. She wasn’t even sure where to begin telling Beth about everything that had happened, and she knew that she was probably going to have to tell her about the secret she’d been hiding for months. She raised her eyebrow at her friend. “What are you overthinking?” 

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itselisabethmoore​:

 Beth shoved the book she was reading on her small couch to the side when she heard it knock on the door, pushing her glasses up on top of her head as she walked over to open it, shooting her friend a smile, “Hi!” She said, stepping to the side to allow for her to enter, “How are you?” How have you been?” She asked her out of curiosity. She was glad Esme has texted because she could do with some friendly advice about everything going on with Sam. 

Esme made her way into her friends room and sat down on the edge of her bed. “Honestly, I’ve been better.” She added with a small shrug. Esme was just hurt and confused and didn’t know what to think at this point because she was worried she’d screwed things up with Ethan again. “What about you?” She asked, hoping things were going better for Beth.

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Closed || @itselisabethmoore​

There had been a million things swirling through Esme’s head ever since Valentine’s Day and she just needed to talk to Beth and try to make some sense out of it all. Her best friend was the one person she could rely on to actually keep her secrets and help her make sense of everything. Esme just hoped that the other girl didn’t judge her too much. She had texted to make sure Sam wasn’t over, before making her way over to Beth’s door and knocking.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan watched her as she turned, taking in the view of her for a moment longer before he pulled her closer to him as he felt her scoot in, wrapping his arm around her tightly, but not too tight, as he leaned over to kiss her shoulder again, “Good night, Esme.” He said as he laid back onto the pillow a bit more, feeling more and more sleepy himself as he struggled to stay awake. 

“Goodnight Ethan.” Esme replied before closing her eyes. She let out another small yawn and it wasn’t long before she had managed to drift off to sleep because she really was pretty tired after everything.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan could not help but smile a little back at her, “Sure.. I’ll choose to believe you.” He attempted to joke back with her, before he leaned over to kiss her shoulder a little, “Turn around and I’ll hold you until you fall asleep.” He offered as he just liked the closeness more than anything. He hadn’t been close like this to someone in a very long time and he was glad he got to do it with Esme. 

“That would be for the best.” Esme replied with a small chuckle before nodding at his next words. “That sounds nice.” She said before following his instructions and turning around. Esme liked the idea of just snuggling up to Ethan and being close to him, even if she was feeling extremely vulnerable at the moment. She scooted closer to him.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan allowed for his hand to gently stroke over her arm as he adjusted his position next to her once more, “I am glad to hear it.” He told her, offering her a slight smile as he all of a sudden was starting to feel tired. It was a weird feeling as he had not felt tired in a very long time. Not like this. He knew better then to fall asleep though, because he didn’t trust himself. 

Esme let out a small yawn once more as she adjusted herself so that she was more comfortable. “I’m sorry I’m so tired, I didn’t mean to be.” She responded knowing that it was partly his fault because their previous activity had worn her out a great deal. “You’re not boring me, I promise.” She teased.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan looked at her with a slight smile before he scooted himself under the covers a bit more, so his own skin was brushing up against hers. His heat radiating against her while he wrapped his arms around her, allowing for his hand so gently stroke over her back, “Is that better?” He asked her while resting his head against the pillow while locking his eyes onto hers. 

Esme wasn’t used to being close to someone like this. It felt nice to feel the skin on skin contact with him. She didn’t want for this to end but she knew that she was tired and would eventually have to go to sleep. Esme just hoped everything was okay for them in the morning. “Yes, that is much better.” She replied with a soft smile.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan smiled a little at her words before he allowed for himself to scoot over closer to her, pulling his arm back, which previously had rested around her on top of the covers, only to gently place it around her, “I can keep you warm..” He said before shaking his head a little at his word words,” Sorry, that was cheesy.” He said, letting his hand gently brush over her arm before he leaned over closer to place a gentle kiss on her shoulder. 

“Well, maybe you’ll have to come fully under the covers then.” Esme suggested, biting down gently on her lip. She was glad that he seemed to be acting somewhat normal again. It allowed her to think that maybe he wasn’t actually regretting what had happened between them. Although, she still had no idea what it meant for them. 

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itsethanroyce​:

“Alright, I guess that makes sense. You can find most movies and such online these days I guess.” He shrugged back at her. He nodded slowly, letting his eyes glance over her for a moment, “Sure, if you want to do that then you can, but you don’t have to on my account.” He smiled back at her, “I think you look beautiful.”

“That you can.” Esme replied knowing that she was thankful for streaming services because they kept her entertained. She sent him a soft smile at his words. “I just don’t want to get too cold or anything.” She lied, although in reality she was scared if he looked at her long enough he’d find all of her flaws.

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sarah-houston​:

“I wish my parents weren’t around that much,” Sarah chuckled. “They were breathing down my neck until the minute I left Texas, seriously.” They were always there to remind her of the awful life decisions she was making. “I’ve never been outside of the country, but I think I want to go to Italy. Or London, because of the music scene.”

“It’s probably easy to say that when you haven’t dealt with it.” Esme replied with a small shrug. She couldn’t remember a single time where her parents had made any indirection that they actually liked her. Her parents hadn’t even come to town when her sister had been missing.  “Yeah, I haven’t either.”

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan chuckled a little under his breath, “Right, cheesy, but not too cheesy.” He repeated with a nod, “Maybe we can watch it some other time then.” He suggested, offering her a slight smile as he was hoping despite tonights events that she would still like to see him again. He moved a bit closer to her when he saw her yawn, “If you are tired, you are more than welcome to go to bed.” He said with a smile. 

“Yeah, I am sure we can find it online somewhere.” Esme replied knowing that it was probably on a Streaming service or something. She would have to look into it. “I should probably get dressed before I do anything.” She added, feeling pretty self-conscience in general.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan looked at her, adjusting himself on the bed so he was facing her some more and offered her a slight smile, “Alright.. That is good to know.” He said, slightly relived to hear it as he had been a bit nervous about it really. He let his eyes glance over her before he moved a bit closer to her, wrapping his arm loosely around her over the covers, “Was it s a good movie?”

“I mean it’s a classic for a reason. It’s not overly cheesy, but just the right amount of cheesy.” Esme explained, knowing she had liked it when she had seen it. It was definitely a good choice of a movie to show on a night like tonight when trying to please a lot of people. She let out a small yawn, covering her mouth as she did so.

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itsethanroyce​:

 Ethan smiled back at her when she said she wanted for him to stay. “Okay, then I’ll stay.” He told her with a nod before laying back onto the bed, looking over her with a slight smile, “I am sorry if I like.. Ruined your night by the way. With the movie and such.” He added with a shrug. 

“Okay great.” Esme replied, although now she couldn’t help but feel like she was forcing him to do something that he didn’t want to do. “You didn’t ruin my night.” She was quick to respond. “I’ve seen the movie before, I just wanted to spend time with you.”