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c. eve // shadowofeve // thefirsteve

[thefirsteve]

Color me, black and blue indigo to taste you, like falling into grey. You leave in shade and the pain is straight like razor blades, soft like bruises. Your eyes are ghosts, elegant and blue as an abyss of cold oceans.

A dying man, I surrender to the relief of drowning. I have inhaled water like air since you left. You used to tell me I was your reason for living and I do not understand if this means I have killed or if you were dead before we ever met. - Euphoria | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Buried in bedrooms, an effigy of secrets praying and kissing their hands together under the covers. I could see all the pieces of glass, along with  these broken vows. (They were all beyond his grasp.) He never realized I wanted him to burn me.

- Salem | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

I lay in the dark drinking woozy feelings and the memories of  holy water, I had beheld beauty looking through  stained glass windows in the hands of god. I woke in the dark weak and vague like smoke, without a form and without fear in the devil, with a belief in nothing but myself.

- Worship | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Look, before I say anything in blinking fluorescent lights without incandescent words his lips illuminated in this symbolic light.

- Revelations | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

I will be flesh and spirit. I have vowed to remain and come back in body and power. in ash and fire. I closed my eyes, beautifully ordinary, yet reawakened, reclaimed, reborn.

- Phoenix | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Her hand is suspended without sanctuary as she waits for you to hold her, but your weight is heavy, almost unbearable. You live in her like a plague.

- Terminal | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Shooting stars, staggering over the broken glass of sky. The thought keeps you awake to suffer like cliches about lost love, space, and hand grenades. You punctuate every confession I make with silence. Please understand I want a love like fire, an explosion. Vast and timeless like the flames of every constellation, beautiful even after Death. - Life Everlasting | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

I’m perfectly normal.  I feel emptiness and have to get up early tomorrow. I’ll read, set the alarm and forget to eat, pondering too important matters. I’ll go to work, gossip. I’ll live suffering  and in tears.

- Resurrection | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

We first brought possessions unspecified like a disastrous life, shifting the balance unalterably. School as easy as girlfriends and gossip; a constant ebb and flow of vapid and dull sex and cars sleep and Nietzsche.

- Cliche | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Behind the glass is frigid ice and wind, entwined in silhouettes, shadows, and the blue veins of pale skin; translucent marble, a polished winter.

- Ode to December | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Sort of hidden, the walls in my room are a birch tree. I am in its limbs. As I lie in bed, I feel guilty like a church in the suburbs. We are sleeping heavenly through life.

- False Reality | c. eve  shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

It was time to recognize courage. She had always dreamed in blood and death, but her story would find people still believe in ghosts and do not suffer a corpse.

- Relinquish | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Outcast and lonely, she seemed to enjoy the cold. Her eyes closed beside warm fires, sleeping soft and beautiful. The night became morning with obscure references for hope.

- Optimism | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

You're so seasonal. I remember love's warm haze. Can't you feel the wind blow you closer to me? But I sway, still dancing on the aftertaste. Wrapped up in warmth, colors and cloud nines. Time fuels the desire. I learned to dream and I send my apologies. The truth will  set you free.

- Rhythms | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

Don't look now. I'll be left behind. I'm always the last one, one that's kind of dark. It's cold outside. Something out there keeps me alive. Something you've never seen before, Something you've always been afraid of.

- Mystery | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

The night cool, silver. His voice disappeared. The foxes play with lightning and he'll find they didn't burn, fearing the remains of bodies and wings.

- Kitsune | c. eve shadowofeve.com

[thefirsteve]

With this Pandora's box of sorrows, we could bring down the world.

We have all been abandoned.

- Despondent | c. eve shadowofeve.com