[theforgottenbackpage]

Your temperament is phlegmatic. The phlegmatic temperament is fundamentally relaxed and quiet, ranging from warmly attentive to lazily sluggish. Phlegmatics tend to be content with themselves and are kind. They are accepting and affectionate. They may be receptive and shy and often prefer stability to uncertainty and change. They are consistent, relaxed, calm, rational, curious, and observant, qualities that make them good administrators. They can also be passive-aggressive.

[theforgottenbackpage]

all i want is to be someone’s first choice, not a second choice. not someone that gets invited over as a last resort or skipped over when it’s inconvenient for them. I want someone to think of me first, not have to remind themselves to think of me

[theforgottenbackpage]

I've seen things around that tell me to be the person that your younger self, and I usually tend to imagine 7th/8th grade/13/14 year old self. I mean it was only 5 years ago but I feel like I've changed so much.  It then leads me to the question: am I someone that my younger self would look up to? 

I know that a younger me would have benefited from a person like me. someone to tell her that it is okay to like the things you like, and that trying to be like other people in order to fit in actually does the opposite.  

 But I don't know if younger me would have listened. I think that I would have just ignored it and kept on doing what I was doing.  These realizations I think only come from experience and age. I think that even if I was the person that I needed, I wouldn't be the person that I wanted to be at that age.  

[theforgottenbackpage]

One thing that I've wondered about lately is god and the idea of having a central religion confronts me. I'd love to find others that feel the same way that I do and learn from them, but to do that I've got to find a religion and find a term to label it.  

The thing is is that I don't believe that god is a physical being, that he isn't someone that you can pray to or talk to.  I believe that god is an energy that observable through life and things that occur in life.  God is the sound that bird make in the morning when you want to sleep, god is found in the way that you find that perfect spot on the bed and fall into a blissful sleep, God is the movement of the wind through the trees and the feel of the wind on your skin. God is the twinkle of the stars at night and the knowledge that behind each of those twinkles is a sun with it's own planets orbiting it.  God is the way that your cat attacks your foot when you're trying to put on your shoes and the way that your dogs climb all over you licking your face for attention.  

I feel that God is like a black hole, not observable on its own, but observable through the way it interacts and effects the things around it. 

I'm not sure which, or even if there is a religion that feels this way. I mean I think it sounds vaguely similar to the way that pagans feel.  But I don't believe in magic or that people can actually control anything.  I might believe that people can send out good vibes to you, but I don't think that anything actually is accomplished by this except for making the person feel like they aren't alone and help them feel supported.  

[theforgottenbackpage]

27 September 2014

I am strong, I am independent and I don't need anyone.

But I still need to be reminded that I'm special.  I don't want to be needy, but I do need someone who will take the time to tell me that they think that i'm special and loved and wanted instead of just skipped over in the crowd.

Today was my birthday, a day where you are supposed to feel special and loved, you are supposed to be the center of attention and given  treats to remind you that you are.  You aren't supposed to be something that you wish Happy Birthday to and then ignored so you can move on with your day, especially when the one who's birthday it is is your daughter.  

I'm 19 now and I'm growing up and moving away. And someday my father might regret just letting this birthday pass with only a simple Happy Birthday and then letting the whole entire day go past like it was any other day.  

The real kicker is that i went to my friend's house tonight, a friend that's uber religious and definitely doesn't believe in gay marriage and I know that if I was ever completely truthful with her she would probably never speak to me again.  While I was there she gave me a present, my first and probably only present for my birthday (though my mom said she might get me something) and they made me a cake and made me feel wanted.  

If he had asked I would have told him I didn't want anything, because I don't.  But at the very least a card would have been nice. Something to remind me that I am actually loved and that he cares even a little bit that I've managed to survive another year of this hell that we call life

[giogif]

[elvenforestgirl]

This makes me so happy

[theforgottenbackpage]

I took the weird hypnosis personality test thing that showed up on my dash.  And though none of the questions made any since whatsoever, the result is eerily accurate.  It is as follows:

"Handy in the real world manipulation of objects and events, you are easily enthused by practical projects. You often ignore or conveniently forget rules and boundaries that limit your freedom. This need for freedom extends even to the personal sphere and though you are kind and gentle, you will often be hard to pin down to a monogamous lifestyle. Because you tend to verbalize so seldom, you can be seen as phlegmatic or impassive. In moments of high tension you can often surprise those around you with a lighthearted or humorous remark. Because of your facility with the physical world, you are often engaged in sports that require dexterity, such as motorcycling or hang gliding. You will rarely have time for flights of fancy or unproductive discussion. Constraints on your freedom will be regarded as a personal attack."

The test can be found here: (X) But should have a seizure warning because the light in the background flashes.  

[lizardtakesflight]

Australian Opals from Planet Opal

[assbutts-and-asgardians]

*dragon eggs

[myloveismusic13]

[lokis-gspot-deactivated20140624]

introducing: babbuvengers

i know a dozen ppl were waiting for this but it remained a secret until now hawhawhaw :3

keep in mind they’re just tots so i didn’t want hulk to beat loki up, so the nature of their fight shifted to a lego battle

[archatlas]

ObviousState

[cunninggreeneraven]

The Deer God

[gaynerdcomic]

Fire Stone - Dragon’s Breath Opal

Leaf Stone - Moss Agate

Water Stone - Ocean Opal

Moon Stone - Opal

Sun Stone - Fire Opal

Dusk Stone - Fluorite

Dawn Stone - Opal

I kept seeing these around Tumblr and my mind kept going one place.

[lydiamichelle]

25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25 1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment. 2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward. 3. Minimize your passivity. 4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day. 5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met. 6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together. 7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise. 8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet. 9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender. 10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you. 11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun. 12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be. 13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to. 14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you. 15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be. 16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane. 17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex. 18. Stop hating yourself. 19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to. 20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it. 21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise. 22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first. 23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it. 24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro. 25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.

January Nelson, 06/25/12 (via perfect)

[fandommedley]

VisualDNA even gives you a cool poster for your results, cool.

[theforgottenbackpage]

Visual DNA

Alright, so definitely saving the visual DNA personality test. this this is atrociously long. it is surprisingly accurate. i also think it was written by one of us, (a tumblr person) definitely an entertaining read. i even laughed at points. i hope that was the point.

Visual DNA site if you want to take it (do it, it’s fun)

You’re a Harmonizer

And you’ve got a surprising streak of curiosity. Sure you might lose a few cool points – but to be honest, you were not really racking them up anyway.

A real deep thinker, you’ve got clear values and well-formed views, not that you’re going shout your mouth off about them; not your style. Reflective and sometimes reserved, your vacant middle distant stare could be misconstrued as ‘stand-offish’ but you call it poise.

It’s all about you…

It’s clear from the foggy expression that you are completely unclear. You possess the power of delay and are the master of indifference. You apathetically shrug.

Stepping lightly (perhaps the wrong word) round the subject of how your life could improve, you’re in need of a complete overhaul. Remember, slow and steady wins the race; or at least finishes it.

Next time an opportunity comes your way, swallow hard on that ‘no’. Choke it back. Say ‘yes’. No matter how quiet. Try something new; wander into the unknown, meet new people, head down that dark alley… well maybe not the latter.

You can’t be cooped up for long; you thrive off wide-open space. You answer the call of the wild with a primal scream; else a wander up a hill with a flask will do nicely. Nothing beats fresh air – except maybe water. But they are both essentials.

Time

If you want a job doing… ask someone else. You are close to a #fail. So pull your socks up… or stockings. I mean, whatever you are in to.

Seemingly you’re motivated, committed and equipped enough. You are a jack-of-all-trades but maybe the master of none?

Fully exploring a situation and looking at the whole picture makes you a valuable player. You can get frustrated when no one is as balanced or as fair as you. But unless they are mind readers you are going to have to learn to pipe up shy boots.

An average day can pass with you sort of trying hard… if you… you know… really try hard to try hard: yeah we get what you mean. But you’re a bit too cool to sweat it. Now, we could tell you to reimagine your long-term goals (do you have them?), understand the wider impact of your decisions (did you make any?), but we don’t need to tell a dude like you what to do: you are heading in the right direction.

Life is not non-stop excitement – and if it were, your heart wouldn’t take it. Sure some of us bore more easily than others but maybe, just maybe, you are being bratty. Handing out tough love today.

Energy

Mornings come like a bolt out of the blue, but by the time you hit work you’ve managed to peel your left eye open, and ironed the deep creases out of your cheeks.

Downtime? You get away from EVERYONE. Sure you love your folks, friends and colleagues (ahem)… but guys, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

Things can always be put off for another 5 minutes, or for an hour, or mañana … or till the point of… forever. Getting you shifted sometimes is no small task, and that isn’t down to water retention, or heavy jewellery. No: the diagnosis is plain idleness in dem bones. Get the heart rate up above 60, break a sweat, or even stand up once in a while. Short of prescribing a rocket up… well, you know what you need to do. Only reward yourself when you eventually do it. We’re watching.

Love

Let’s talk love. When that special someone shows you’ll be joined at the hip and indulging in PDAs.

So you like to spend time just hanging out one-on-one, doing regular stuff – which is great as it makes you everyone’s favourite - a cheap date.

Look down: your heart is, of course, there on your sleeve, plain to see. Maybe deep down there is a little part of you that actually believes in love at first sight – the optimism is cute. You trust your instincts and try to love without caution. As you stare into your lover’s eyes, you will try to guess what the other is thinking… probably ‘blink first’.

Money

You’re the type to lose your shoes, go gluten-free and talk a lot about ‘letting go’. One of those people who can look beyond material things: until your mobile goes missing, then you will switch back to a possession hungry magpie. But hey a couple hours of repenting or a dose of primal scream therapy will get you back to your carob-eating self. You like to care for those around you and if they’re happy, you’re happy. You appreciate that both highs and lows make up the balance of life, and always try and stay spiritually strong and focused.

One thing is for sure - you ain’t no philistine! You are bookish, or maybe a tad square, depending how to look at it.

Shelling out on life-defining purchases that will get your workmates drooling; you might not be the type to camp out for the latest gadget launch… but be honest… you have thought about it.

For you, getting away from it all means a two-day drive and four-day trek to pitch a tent in the wilderness, only to have to pack it all up and head back a day later. Well at least you made it, right?

Fun

If you are not immersing yourself in literary criticism, getting lost in a concerto, or drinking in the latest work by some deeply challenging young artist (that probably defies logic or even ability) you are what? Probably surfing gossip news on the net … come on… we’re right?!

Seems like your nose is never far from a book: a pulp fiction, or a Mills and Boon – you’ve studied the great works of our time. And if you haven’t then you just watch the DVD.

Your days turn to night in the blink of an eye so unless you want to discount sleeping (well it is for the weak) you might want to see where you can claw back time for yourself.

Your hobbies are your reward for working hard the rest of the time. They absolutely shouldn’t be boring. If you find that you don’t want to play football or grow vegetables any more then stop doing it and try something else.

Thinking through your hobbies to suit your resources is probably a good idea: collecting taxidermy in a studio flat, not so much.

With the ability to see the most inane moments in life as romantic, we wonder if you have been fitted out with rose-tinted contacts at birth?

[theforgottenbackpage]

Big 5 Personality Test

I just took the Big 5 Personality test. something that my psych teacher assigned to us for homework, but i also really like taking personality tests for some reason. i'm going to start recording them here on my blog so i have a copy of them.

below the read more is the test, my results and my arguments against it, and the link for the test if you would like to take it yourself.

Link for the Big 5 Personality test that i took (X) if anyone has another link that they think is better feel free to send it to me anytime. i do love taking personality tests.

so for this test it has 5 main personality traits that it labels everyone under: openness to experience, conscientiousness, extroversion, agreeableness, neuroticism. OCEAN for short. cute right?

so my results:

I’m a O47-C17-E9-A79-N87 Big Five!!

idk if that link will work so i copied it down below too.

Openness to Experience/Intellect

High scorers tend to be original, creative, curious, complex; Low scorers tend to be conventional, down to earth, narrow interests, uncreative.

(Your percentile: 47)

You typically don't seek out new experiences.     (Your percentile: 47) 

Conscientiousness

High scorers tend to be reliable, well-organized, self-disciplined, careful; Low scorers tend to be disorganized, undependable, negligent.

(Your percentile: 17)

You probably have a messy desk!

Extraversion

High scorers tend to be sociable, friendly, fun loving, talkative; Low scorers tend to be introverted, reserved, inhibited, quiet.      

(Your percentile: 9)

You probably enjoy spending quiet time alone.

Agreeableness

High scorers tend to be good natured, sympathetic, forgiving, courteous; Low scorers tend to be critical, rude, harsh, callous.      

(Your percentile: 79)

You tend to consider the feelings of others.

   Neuroticism

High scorers tend to be nervous, high-strung, insecure, worrying; Low scorers tend to be calm, relaxed, secure, hardy.       

(Your percentile: 87) 

You are a generally anxious person and tend to worry about things.    

The blurb underneath the results

In order to provide you with a meaningful comparison, the scores you received have been converted to "percentile scores." This means that your personality score can be directly compared to another group of people who have also taken this personality test.

The percentile scores show you where you score on the five personality dimensions relative to the comparison sample of other people who have taken this test on-line. In other words, your percentile scores indicate the percentage of people who score less than you on each dimension. For example, your Extraversion percentile score is 9, which means that about 9 percent of the people in our comparison sample are less extraverted than you -- in other words, you are strongly introverted. Keep in mind that these percentile scores are relative to our particular sample of people. Thus, your percentile scores may differ if you were compared to another sample (e.g., elderly British people).

i don't have any real arguments, it does describe me pretty well. the only thing that i have a problem with is the low scoring descriptive words for conscientiousness (mainly undependable). i don't agree that undependable is a result of messiness. granted they have a higher propensity to forget things, but undependable is such a negative word and i really wouldn't consider myself an undependable person. 

if i were the person scoring this/writing the information about this i would have tried to choose words that are not so harsh when describing some of the choices. the test claims that there are no right or wrong answers, but the results make it sound like some of these are wrong to have gotten.